Chapter 34
I woke up full of energy excited to surprise Aiden,
“Still not dressed yet?” I asked popping in on him just as he got out of the shower
“What’s with you today? Why are you so excited?” he looked at me curiously
“It’s my turn”
“What do you mean? Your turn to do what?”
“To surprise you” I said winking at him with a smirk on my face.
“Oh, what do you have planned”
“You’ll see”
I put the blind fold on him and led him to the car
“Okay now I’m scared, this is very elaborate with blindfolds and everything, where are we going?”
“Just sit back and relax we’ll be there soon.
I led him out of the car and guided him to the gate,
“Okay, I get it…point proven, not knowing where you’re going or why, is frustrating” he said folding his arms in protest
“Well, I now know how exciting it is to have you trust me completely, so be prepared I will be surprising you more from now on” I said taking his blind fold off.
“Surprise”
“What the fuck are we doing here, is this some kind of sick joke? Because I tell you right now it’s not funny Scar” his words radiating throughout his body
“No, not at all Aiden I brought you here for closure, I thought that doing all the things you’d planned to do with your brother the day he disappeared will help you heal” I said frantically trying to reason with him, but he just looked at me angrily, I couldn’t bear to have him look at me like that, it broke my heart
“look…I over stepped and I’m sorry…but I honestly believe that if you spend this day as tribute to your brother you might start healing” I paused considering my words carefully
“Aiden remember you once told me that you would never hurt me on purpose, well the same goes for me okay” I said grabbing his arm
“Aiden…do you believe that I have the best intentions?” I asked pleading with him
“How can I when I know you still haven’t forgiven me” he said kicking the ground
“What do you mean? What are you talking about? Forgive you for what?”
“Come on Scar, did you really think I wouldn’t notice that you stopped calling me Aid and went back to calling me Aiden? I apologised to you…I regret it Scar, I truly do, I never should have agreed to that arrangement, but I was so scared that I would never find you that I would have agreed to anything at that point, I regret it okay… and you said you forgave me, but I can tell that you still hate me” his words brought up all the anger and frustration that I didn’t know I was suppressing, and tears began to pour down my face
“Aid…Aiden” I said still unable to allow myself to be vulnerable with him,
“You might be right, I might not have forgiven you but I’m trying, and I’m here trying, I’m sorry but you did hurt me very much, and you yourself admit it but I’m still here…I would rather have you…I’d rather be with you trying to forgive you than hate you and not be with you, it might not make sense to you right now, but I think you need to say goodbye…I believe it’s the only way you will ever be able to forgive yourself”.
“I can’t be here right now" he said shoving my hand away
"I’m leaving” he said locking eyes with me
"Are you coming?”
“Aiden…I” I stammered not able to get my thoughts together, what has gotten into him? How can he change so drastically? I have no idea who this person in front of me is.
“Damn it, Scar are you coming or not?!” furry radiating in his words
I looked at him with tears welling up in my eyes
“No”
