Episode 35

Playlist~ James Arthur - Medicine

Micaela's POV

"If this is a dream then I don't want to wake up from it" I mumbled with my eyes shut closed. This is so surreal, it's like I'm reading a fairy tale and imagining myself to be the princess in it. I never for a second thought that this day will come when Fernando my forever crush will love me back.

"It is no dream, it's as real as when you kissed me. Micaela my heart has been sick for so long that nothing ever healed it, not even all the wealth I acquired could heal it until you came into the picture. Just the thought of you makes me happy, I came to realize that this past one month. You were all I ever thought of the whole month, you made me realize that I wasn't the only one with a rough past-" he paused and touched my cheek and a broad smile spread on my face.

"I want you to be my healer, with you by my side I can heal from the inside and let go of my past. I want to know what it feels like to love and be loved. I want my heart to heal from that trauma, I want you to help me forget everything. Would you accept to be my healer?"

My smile vanished into thin air when I heard that word 'healer' and the twinkle in my eyes that I had few seconds ago also disappeared. Fernando wants me to be his healer? How can I be his healer when I was the one that inflicted him with the this trauma disease in the first place? How is that possible? No, he is mistaken for who I really am, he can't make me his healer. I think it would be fair for him to know that I've been the reason behind his trauma, perhaps that will make him realize I'm not the right lady to heal his shattered heart.

I open my mouth to tell him everything but the words weren't coming out. All I did was stared at him in a gape while he waits for my answer. I felt warm liquid slide down my cheeks and I knew that was my tears spilling out of my eyes.

"Hey my own, I know you are overwhelmed but you don't have to shed a tears about this. All you need to do right now is tell me you'll be my healer. I might be strong on the outside but I am a softie on the inside so don't make me cry" he said wiping the tears from my cheeks with his thumb.

I giggled softly and reached for his hand on my cheek and gave it a peck. Call me bad and selfish but I can't ruin this moment that I've been waiting for all my life. I'm being loved not just by any guy but someone I really adore. Do you know what it means for Fernando to love me? Not just love but he now sees me as his healer! What else could I ever wish for than what is before me? Perhaps this is a chance for me to right the wrong in the past that I've been begging God to show me how to do that and today he has finally answered my prayers. "Yes, I accept to be your healer. I want to be by your side forever. I want for you to continue to be my guardian angel and save me from harm. I love you so much, I want to be yours forever" I responded with a heartfelt smile and hugged him.

He hugs me tight and kissed my head many times chuckling. "Thank you Micaela, thank you. I'm so happy right now! Is just like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. If you had said no I would have understand because is too sudden for me...."

"Shhhh!" I silence him with my thumb on his lips. "I don't need to wait for more years before I accept to be your lady, you're all I need in my life".

"Look at that, aren't you such a romantic lady? I love your sense of reasoning" he chuckles and pecks my cheek and I giggled sheepishly. "I guess I was meant to bring a ring but I didn't really plan for things to turn out this well".

"Oh it's fine, take your time" I flashed a wide smile and we hugged each other.

"No, no, no" he pulled away from me shaking his head and he touched his neck, "I do have something to fill up that space up for the moment".

I stared at him wondering what he was trying to do and then the next second he was having a diamond necklace with a pendant that has his initials 'F' on his palm.

"Wow, is so beautiful!" I exclaimed in awe grinning sheepishly.

"It's now yours" he grins back at me and kissed my forehead.

"Really? Wow, thank you, Ferd. You've just made me the happiest woman on Earth. I don't mind if you don't give me flowers, sing me a lullaby or do other things couples do, but all I care about is you're now my man and I your woman" I giggled sheepishly like a teenage girl. In a way I'm a teenage girl now because at my age I'm just doing something most of my mates had done back in highschool.

"No, I don't think so. I'm the happiest one here. I promise to make you happy and love you like my own body. I don't know how to love but you'll teach me and I'll learn" he said and kissed my knuckles.

"I'll gladly you teach you my love, but I'm not a perfect lover though".

"I don't a perfect lover, I just need a woman that will teach me things that I don't know about, a woman that will apologize when she's wrong and that will be able to tell me when I'm wrong. A woman who puts in effort to make our relationship work, a woman who knows how to communicate, a woman who is hardworking and intelligent. I know you're that woman and that's only what matters to me".

"I'm happy you found me to be that woman" I blushed.

"It's getting freezing out here, we should go inside" he announced and I nodded.

"Yes please, dinner should be ready by now" I replied and he nods.

"Uhmm, please give me a minute, I'll join you inside soon" he said and I nodded and left him alone and went back inside.

When I got inside I was jumping up and down twirling like a kid who just got a box of candy. I can't believe finally I'm now the girlfriend of Fernando. I swear on my life that I'm going to do everything to make it work out for both of us. I will make up for all the years I couldn't have the confidence to do that. I'll make him the happiest man on Earth, he'll see.

"What is getting you so excited, huh?" Sabrina voice startled me from behind and I squealed in shock.

"Jeez! You scared me to death! Don't be acting so creepy, you nosy!" I scolded and she laughs.

"I see your boyfriend has thought you how to call me nosy" she nodded repeatedly and I snickered.

"Aren't you nosy? How did you even know he's now my boyfriend? Were you eavesdropping on our conversation the whole time?"

"Hell no! I have other things to do than get my nose into you guys loveship. Besides, the smile on your face is enough to tell me something good just happened. So tell me, what happened between you two? You two kissed or make-out on the rooftop?"

"Sabrina!" I exclaimed in disbelief. She talks like a pervert sometimes.

"What! Don't act like you both are kids! If you two make-out that's cool you know, there's nothing to be shy about" she replied with a shrug and I raised a brow and gasps.

"You're really something! We didn't make-out, don't get ahead of yourself".

"It'll happen soon either ways" she scoffs and I glared at her.

But to be honest with myself, now that she mentioned it, what is it going to be like to make love with Fernando? Is it going to be bitter-sweet or just sweet? What if he remembers the rape incident while he's making love to me, would I be able to deal with it? I never thought of this before I said yes to him. This is another challenge on it's own that I don't know if I'm ready to face.

"Micaela Alvarado!" Sabrina yells and I jolted.

"Jeez! What? Why did you scream my name like that?" I half-yelled.

"Because you were in another world while I was here alone talking to myself!" Sabrina hisses and I rolled my eyes at her.

"Sorry okay, I just zone out for a second" I apologized and removed the strands of hair on my face and tug it to the back of my ear.

"You were thinking of how you and Fernando will make love huh? I can imagine you screaming his name while he's fu....."

"Stop already! Have some respect for him if not me!" I shunned her mid-sentence. Jeez! Sabrina is really something! She doesn't know how to keep her mouth shut.

"Whatever" she rolled her eyes and glance around like she was looking for something.

"What are you looking for now?" I asks and gave a sharp sigh while I walked towards the dinning room and Sabrina followed right behind me.

"Your boyfriend of course! Don't tell me he has disappeared on you again?"

"Sabrina! Don't jynx it now, Fernando is still very much around. In fact as from today henceforth, he'll always be by my side" I grin sheepishly and Sabrina smiled and gave me that knowing look wiggling her brows.

"Oh girlfriend, did Fernando ask you to be his girlfriend?" she asks and I nodded giggling.

"Oh my gosh!" she squeals excitedly and crushed me with a hug. "Congratulations! Finally you now have a boyfriend, I'm so happy for you!"

"Thank you. You don't know how happy I am" I replied smiling.