Episode 48

Playlist~Te Fuiste - Enrique Iglesias

Micaela's POV

I shook my head almost at the brim of tears. "I'm telling you the truth my love, what happened years ago was my fault. They forced me to rape you just because they found out I was secretly crushing on you. I didn't wanted you to know that I was crushing on you back in highschool so I won't get more humiliation than I've already had back then. Not knowing Claudia and her friends knew about it and they threatened to let the whole school know about it if I don't comply and come to a party. I never knew them inviting me to the party was all a set up, they took my weakness as their strength and forced me to have sex with you while you were unconscious. I swear I didn't wanted to but....."

"Stop!" he yells cutting me off mid-sentence. "Just stop already" he continues weakly shaking his head in disappointment. "That can't be true, you wouldn't have done that to me, you're too sweet and gentle to do that. You're just trying to mess with my head tonight".

"I'm sorry, Ferd, I'm really sorry but is the truth. I begged them not to do that to us but they turned deaf ears to me. I knew what I did was very wrong and is the regret that I had to live with that's why even when we graduated highschool and went our seperate ways I still kept on checking up on you to know how you were doing and everything..."

"Can you stop lying?!" He barks at me and stood up and I shuddered at the vibration of his voice and tears spilled out of my eyes. "So is true? You mean you did raped me, Micaela! How could you do that to me? Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months and months turned into years but you never came to tell me all this for thirteen freaking years? You made me suffer a traumatic experience that caused me to have nightmares of that incident for years, Micaela! How could you?"

"I'm sorry, I couldn't have the courage to tell you then. I only wanted to make things right my own way..."

"By making me fall in love with you, isn't it?" he interrupted and I shook my head. "Of course it's the truth! You've been so obsessed with me that even after the rape incident you still found a way to attract me to you by writing that book and making me to come look for you so that I'll fall in love with you and then get married to you!"

"No, it's not true, that's not how I wanted it to end. I never planned it this way, believe me!" I sobbed.

"Believe you? I'll never believe a liar, betrayal, and pretender like you! You knew all along about my past but you pretended like everything was cool! You never for once mentioned this to me even when I did mention my past to you. You pretended like you didn't know anything about it meanwhile you did know a lot. You were just after me marrying you and that's because of your obsession over me!" He yelled pacing around the room with his hands on his forehead. I could see tears rolling down his cheeks and that really hurts me. What have I done?

"I love you, Ferd, I really do love you".

"Don't you dare say those words to me! Don't you dare! You have no idea what love really is! Love does not betray a trust, it does not pretend, it does not tell lies, it does not keep crucial secrets that will affect the other person. Love is loyal, truthful, trustworthy, and kind! If you ever love me you would have open up to me a long time ago!"

"I really did wanted to tell you but I was afraid you'll hate me and not believe me".

"Of course I hate you, Micaela! I hate you now and forever! You're the worst human being I've ever met! Because of you I hated women for years! But you came along and prove to me that I wasn't meant to, you acted as a healer when actually you were the cause of the disease I had. And then because you were the cause of the disease, you also became the healer! Bravo, Micaela Alvarado, bravo! I'll never forgive you for all the pains you've caused me this whole years and also this past few months for fooling me into believing you were real when you're just a fake and heartless pretender! You'll face justice for raping me. You'll pay for all the pains you've caused me. This goddamn marriage is over! It is over!" He angrily punched the wall and I jolted on the bed.

I gasps at the last words and my heart shattered more than ever. "No, darling please don't say our marriage is over, we can still fix this. Couples do fight and make up, remember? And...and you promised to always be by my side forever".

"Yeah I did promise you that, but that's before I realized that the woman I made those promises to doesn't deserve it!"

"Ferd, all that happened wasn't intentional...."

"Are you trying to make me believe you are innocent of your crimes? You fucking want me to believe you had nothing to do with my rape that you were also a victim?! Sorry drama queen, the show is over, you can no longer deceive me like you'd always did. You're just so delusional for you to have written that goddamn book just to get me into your arms. You even went to the extreme to fake suicide so that I'll forget about the reason I came to Seoul! Goodness, you are really evil!"

"That is not true, Ferd. I swear all that happened between us was real, I never faked anything this past few months" I muffled.

"You know what? I'm done with you Micaela, standing here listening to your lies doesn't even make sense, so I'm leaving. You can stay here and enjoy your stupid honeymoon" he growled and went to the wardrobe.

"Please my darling don't leave-" I begged and stood up from the bed with the duvet covering my body and I walked towards him.

"Don't you dare come closer to me! Stay far away from me, you disgust me!" He spat angrily and I shivered and stood still with my head bow low in shame.

"Ferd please" I cried and went down on my knees. "Please I'm sorry, forgive me".

"I wish it was that easy. What I feel for you now is so much hate, I don't ever want to set my eyes on you again. Goodbye Micaela and don't you try to come look for me" he said and took his belongings out and slammed the door.

"Ferd please don't go!" I cried crawling to the door if he would come back for me but he didn't, he was gone. "No!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and sobbed louder. My life is ruined! What have I done to myself? I thought I found happiness but it was only short-lived.