Chapter 43

Ayla's Pov:

I stood infront of the mirror as I looked at myself or more specifically my stomach. I gulped hard not knowing what to feel. It's not made out of love it was forced and unplanned. I slowly started to lift my top to see but my hands started to shiver as I saw a light bulge.

I'm 14 weeks pregnant, it confused me so much because I always took morning after pills then how?

I mean he didn't allowed me to take pills after we got married but before that I was very careful and always took the birth control pills then how did it happen? Yes, I do know even though it has a high success rate, they can fail and you can get pregnant even if you are on the pill and are sexually so active.

I took a shaky breathe while cleaning my top tightly, this asshole have been fucking me literally non stop then how could it not be.

The more I stared at my stomach the more I got uneasiness clouded inside me. I mean I seriously couldn't able to feel anything for this baby right now. I hate his dad so much even though this little on-

"Urgghhh" I groaned as I hate that name. I closed my eyes to calm down a bit. I took a deep breathe as I opened my eyes after few minutes. I hate his dad even though this baby didn't do anything still it's a sin because of this thing its making me bound to that asshole forever.

And I don't want that.

Am I a bad person for not wanting this baby?

When I guessed that I was pregnant only one thought came to me.

Abortion.

I know I'm so cruel to even think like that.

It's not like I hate babies I just hate the fact of being the mother to his child. This child will literally have his blood too and to be honest that's not the only reason, it's not only because of my hate for that bastard but I'm also afraid for that child's future. What if one day in future he/she becomes like his father and would do the same sin to someone like me? They will also face the same fate like mine. I can't let that to happen.

They're sinners and they destroy people for their own selfish pleasure. They don't think about what others might think to them its about their likes.

I really wanted to abort it but then when doctor said I'm 12 weeks 5 days pregnant my heart shattered into pieces. I can't even think about abortion now, because when Arjun wasn't present in that room, I asked that doctor about this but she immediately declined the idea of it saying its illegal and too risky.

Flashback:

I looked infront of me as we walked towards the gynaecologist hospital.

My breathing ragged has I couldn't able to process what would gonna happen next to me. Somewhere deep inside me knew what's gonna happen and why we are here, but I don't want it to be true. I just wish this to be one of my nightmare and soon I'll wake up.

"Baby breathe" I could hear his voice but it seems too far "Wifey, look at me! Take a deep breathe" the sound of his voice was so distant and my visions got blurry, before I could even think I feel myself falling forward but I didn't touch the ground as I felt someone hold me and took me somewhere while shouting.

Next thing I know I was lying on the hospital bed and some gel like substance was being applied on my stomach. I could hear some voices but I couldn't able to understand what they are talking about, it's kinda distorted or mixed up like a garbled voice that I couldn't able to pint point it. I squinted my eyebrows to open my eyes as I try to focus on listening to what they are talking about.

"Mr. Arjun, your wife is waking up" some elderly voice said while moving something on my stomach.

"Baby, look at me" he said in his most tender voice that made me stunned for a second. Did he even had that in him? It's so hard to believe. Why is he being so nice now?

"Oh look there's the fetus. Can you see it? And its healthy too" I opened my eyes as they continued to talk.

A what?

"Fetus?" As if he read my mind he also asked the same question.

"Oh sorry I conveyed in medical terms. In pregnancy a fetus is nothing but a unborn baby in the womb. When it formed we called it embryo from conception until the eighth week of development. Since she's in too close to week 13 and till the baby is born we call it has a fetus"

It sucked my breathe when I heard the word pregnancy. So I'm really pregnant. I closed my eyes at the loss of my words.

I have a mixed emotions flowing through my entire body but it's anything not an happiness.

"Oh ok ok doctor. Is everything ok alright? Why did she fainted and is the baby ok"

"Yes, Mr. Arjun the baby looks healthy however your wife is not. She's so weak and she needs a lots of nutrition. She looks so pale and malnutrition. If this goes on it will also affect the baby soon. I'm surprised how she managed to hold it this long"

"Oh why doctor? How did it happened?"

"Well she looks so stressed over something. She needs to be taken care of and also right now she needs lots of attention and love from you. That's something every single pregnant women expects from her husband. Don't make her upset over something. Take care of her and the baby will be fine too."

I mentally scoffed when I heard what that doctor told him. He just nodded his head while he took the prescription and appointment order to get my medicines.

After he left I waited for 5 minutes to ask the doctor one thing that has been bugging me since the moment I got to that I'm pregnant. I gulped hard before opening my mouth.

"Doc- doctor I need to ask you something" I asked her while shivering badly as I fiddled with my fingers.

"Hey Ayla, relax... relax... First take a deep breathe and calm down. You need not to be afraid of anything. No one is gonna do anything to you" she said smiling at me warmly as I nodded at her and did what she asked me to do "Ok good. Now ask away. What you wanted to ask? What is it?

I couldn't help but again anxiety took over me. I shake my head clearing my thoughts while taking a deep breathe again "Is it... Is it... Is it possible for an abortion now?" When she heard what I have asked, her eyes got widened while she stared at me in utter shock. She did not expected that question I guess.

"Mrs. Arjun, I- I..." She stammered before clearing a throat. "What do you mean? Abortion? Are you aware of what you're asking right now? That's a huge step. I mean how could you even ask such request. You do know that right in India it's illegal to do that. We both could go to jail for doing such things. There are certain conditions are allowed for abortion. In your case it doesn't apply any of those. If you want an abortion you could have been prepared. Does Mr. Arjun even know about this? He looked happy why are you doing this. I can't do that sorry Mrs. Arjun" She kinda yelled in a low voice while glaring at me

I got panicked when she asked whether Arjun knows it or not. I got up immediately without thinking much. "Mrs. Arjun, be careful. You can't just get up like this and look I know you don't want this child but you can't be ignorant like this. It will affect baby" she said scolding me.

"Doctor, please listen to me. Don't tell this to Arjun. He will definitely do something. He will go insane if he got to know about this. He's not what he's. He- he- ra-" I got cut-off when the door burst opened suddenly.

I got scared for a second thinking it was Arjun but I calmed down when I look at those people infront of me.

"Oh my god! What happened to my princess?" my dad's panicked voice echoed through the room as he came towards me holding my face.

"Good god you scared us to death when Arjun said you got fainted" my mom cried while side hugging me.

My brother looked at me "How are you now?" I hate it when he looked at me with that look on his face. It's like he's here being forced by someone.

"Yeah I'm good" I mumbled uninterestedly as I don't want to them here right now.

"Doctor, what happened to Ayla? Why she is looking so weak?" My dad asked the doctor as I closed my eyes fearing whether she will say everything.

"Mrs. Arjun is 12 weeks 5 days pregnant. Congratulations! You guys are soon going to be a grandparents" she smiled at them.

My parents got shocked when they heard about this. I know what's running around their mind. It only been 3 weeks since I got married to him but I'm already 3 months pregnant. I feel so ashamed right now even though I don't care about them still it makes me feel dirty. I looked down as I couldn't even able to look into their eyes.

"Ok, I'm going to go now. I have rounds to check up other patients. Thank you and Mrs. Arjun take care. Will see you in the next check up" she looked at me still with that look of disappointed in her eyes.

After she left "Ayla, what is this?" My mom asked me while looking at my dad she continued "How are we gonna say this to our relatives. How could she be this careless?"

Before my dad could opened his mouth "Hi Aunty and Uncle, I thought you would be happy but why are you scolding Ayla. If anything I'm responsible for that" when she said that I turned my head towards him while shock evident on my face "We are in so much love so it happened"

"Arjun" I yelled at him and just like that my anger took over me. How could he talk so shamefully infront of my parents. This guy has no filter in his mouth.

He immediately came towards me saying sorry repeatedly. I just brushed off his hand around me. I can't deal with him. Infact I can't deal with anyone right now.

"Aunty, see you just made her sad. Doctor said she can't get upset or else it will affect the baby. I hope you all understand this and respect our decision" he said while taking my hand in his helping me to stand.

"Son, it's not like that. We are happy for you both but the thing is it happened before marriage so everyone will talk bad about this matter that's why her mom got worried" My dad said while trying to make Arjun understand the situation.

Arjun shake his head "Uncle, they all can only speak bad or gossip about this. They are not gonna take care of our life. It's our life we will decide what's best for us so if you please I'm gonna take my wife home"

We left them in the room and came towards the reception hall. He helped me to sit down carefully all the while I looked at him. He acts so different right now. He's taking care of me as if I'll break anytime soon.

"Wifey, you sit here while I take our car from the parking lot. I'll come and pick you up. Don't go anywhere ok?" He said while cupping my face in his palms. I nodded my head at him he smiled as he placed a kiss on my forehead before going out.

My parents soon came they looked at me trying to say something but then they left without saying anything.

I sighed in disappointed what I even expected from them.

"Mrs. Arjun"

I got stiffened when I heard that voice again. I slowly looked up to find that doctor infront of me. I trembled when I think about her telling our little encounter in that room.

"Hi doctor" I said while getting up slowly.

"Look, I don't know what made you to ask me such questions but listen one thing. I won't say this to Arjun or to anyone. I'm not doing it for you. I'm doing it for your husband" my tensed muscles got relaxed after hearing her but my eyebrows furrowed in confusion why because of Arjun. As she continued further it only disappointed me "That husband of yours loves you so much. The way he got excited and takes care of you makes me think he doesn't deserve a person like you" I gritted my teeth when she said that.

"There are many couples out there can't able to get pregnant and here you're blessed with a child and asking for an abortion. Please don't think about it. It's a god's blessing" I closed my eyes and just like that the idea of abortions flew away. I'm not that cruel but situation is making me think like that. I know she's guilt trapping me without knowing the full truth.

I keep on telling myself that she doesn't know anything.

"Doctor, he's no-" before I could complete she cut me off saying

"But whatever listen I just want to convey one more thing to you if the pregnancy has exceeded 12 weeks and is below 20 weeks (first trimester) it's illegal to abort the child and also after 12 weeks, you can only have an abortion in exceptional circumstances. Only that are legal. I don't see any of those category falls under you situation so I suggest you to drop this idea"

I just stood there defeated while listening to her, she continued "Don't puts your life at risk and also it will seriously harm to your health to danger. So don't even think about that" she said sternly while looking at me.

Before I could reply Arjun came making me look at him with fearful eyes "What are you both talking about?" I gulped hard not knowing what to say. Did he listened to our talking?

Oh nothing Mr. Arjun. I'm just asking her to take care of her health. So I asked her to not even to think about skipping her meals." She said lying to him.

How smoothly she lied.

"Oh ok I'll take care of her. Thanks doctor" he said while placing his hands on my waist he took me out of that hospital. I let out a breathe as we came outside and very soon we reached to his place my hell.

The place he calls home is the place I call hell.

My hell.

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