Chapter 49

Ayla's Pov:

I blinked my eyes to not to let down the tears to fall, but those traitors tears kept welling up in my eyes. I clenched my jaw even if I tried so hard to not to let them fall, it's flowing continuosly. When I couldn't hold back anymore a sob left my mouth. After that I sobbed very hard holding my chest. I screamed and shouted while throwing the stuffs around.

I breathed very hard as my lips quicker, the pain in my chest is hurting me more than any physical pain that I endured.

Why? What did I did to deserve this? Just when I thought everything was going to be fine this has to happened.

I rubbed my eyes and cheeks vigorously to clear those tears, I hiccupped when I tried to hold my cries. I shake my head negatively, I don't want to think about it. I closed my eyes in defeat who am I kidding that's the only thing keeps on running on my mind repeatedly.

I sat down on the bed while putting my head on my hands. I hold my hairs in frustration screaming when those traitor tears kept falling down on my cheeks. After a while I sat back taking a deep breathe to calm down myself.

What's the point of crying again and again?

He got what he wanted and I lost to him again. My lips quicker as I tried hold my cries. I really lost him.

I thought he had changed but never in my wildest dream that I imagined he would stoop so low. For a while I thought he loved me enough to know what I want and need. I thought after this pregnancy he changed for good. I still can't believe I even thought of forgiving him at some point due to his sudden change of behavior.

As I said earlier I really thought he had changed... changed for good but I guess that was just an act to get what he wanted.

Or maybe I was in some delusional to think like that.

I looked around while thinking, I furrowed my eyebrows is he even a human? My lips quicker badly how come he could not understand what I went through or what I might went through if he keep on doing this to me.

Doesn't he have any empathy and sympathy on me? Or does he even have an emotion to feel all these?

I guess not.

He's a heartless monstrous creature who doesn't even think about what I want or what I need. To him only his needs are valuable and he only conquer that. He's a whole form of a monster and I guess I'm destined to be with this loveless creature.

A life with a devil.

My trip to hell.

It's been a week since he raped me again. I still can't believe that I mean he got me pregnant then why does he want to do that?

To fulfill his lust

Lust? Seriously that to when I'm pregnant with his child?

Just thinking about that day I feel so disgusting about myself. I can't believe I again let him do that to me. Why I'm so weak? Why couldn't I able to put up a fight against him? Why do I keep on letting him win over me?

This is so fucked up.

I feel like I wanted to die but I'm not that coward to ran away from my problem. I need to save myself and then I looked at my stomach. I clenched my jaw while stroking my bulging stomach. I don't know what I feel for this baby.

I know he's innocent but still...!!! Urgh...!!!

Everything was going well until he had to come and ruin it.

Why did he had to do that? I could never forgive him for his sins and I felt myself forgetting and giving him a chance, but he had to ruined it.

Maybe he gave me the reality check that he will never change. Now again I'm starting hate everything that's surrounds him.

I hate him so much.

My head snapped towards the front door when I heard the door bell ringing. My eyebrows furrowed with confusion who could be at this time.

Arjun?

A dreadful thought crossed down my mind. I shake my head why would he rang it if he was the one. It must be someone else, while thinking that I slowly getup and walked towards the door to open it.

The people on the other side is so impatient ones they're keep on ringing the bell.

"Wait a minute" I said as my voice are still hoarse the result of crying non stop. I cleared my throat and cleaned my face while opening it only to regret. I clenched my jaw as I tightened my hold on the door.

What are they doing here now?

What they want?

Aren't they done enough?

"I'm sorry Ayla. We're all sorry" my eyes filled with confusion when I heard them saying sorry. After seeing my confused state they told me everything that they knew.

I really wanted to scoff at them. I mean like seriously when I told them they didn't believed me but now they are.

How? And what's the point of them knowing it now? Isn't it too late?

I smiled bitterly at them life is indeed so cruel, it's so hard to trust anyone in this cruel world where all are determined to hurt you by any means. Even in the name of love they're hurting you to fulfill their fucking desire.

"Ayla, please don't do that" a voice brought me back to them.

"Please say something" Raghavi said as her eyes are moist with tears.

"Please scold us but don't be silent. Just say something" Meera said with voice full of regret.

Vani just stood there silently with a look of regret.

As of me I kept my face blank as I didn't showed any emotions on it. I don't need them in my life anymore. I seriously can't take anymore heartbreaks.

"Please Ayla, we beg you. We shouldn't have done that to you. Please believe us" they keep on repeating the same.

What an irony!

I was in the same situation once but no one believed me yet here they're asking for my forgiveness. I mean what's the use of trusting these people? Again they will do the same. They broke my trust and love I had for them into million pieces. It's so damn hard for me at that time. I don't want to go through that pain again. If only they had believed me before I wouldn't have been in this situation.

"Mmm so?" I asked them not knowing what they want from me now.

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🎶Song : Wrecking Ball by Miley Cyrus

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✨Hi guys,

✨How are you all doing?

✨Stay healthy and happy❤️

✨So how was the chapter?

✨So sorry for the delay. I was so busy and caught up with taking care of my grandma, household works and office works.

✨As you all know my grandma was not well now she's good actually better. Thanks for all the prayers and love you guys showered me with.

✨And lastly so damn sorry for making you all wait when some of you all expected a update on diwali which I couldn't do for that once again sorry.

✨Ok now coming back to the story what do you guys think? Ayla's friends are at her door steps.