Chapter 29
I kept looking back and forth between them as neither of them moved but all I could focus on was my stomach grumbling for food and my mouth watered at the smell of pastries.
Bad timing, Emma.
"Uhhh...I'm gonna get some food," I tried to excuse myself, not knowing if Austin wanted me to stay or not. Claire said she wanted to talk with him alone and I felt like an intruder.
"Stay," he said in a stern voice, his hands, gripping my waist tightly.
"Austin..." Claire started but he interrupted her.
"What do you want?" he hissed in anger, trying to keep his voice down as we were surrounded by people. Thankfully, the music was distracting them from noticing us.
"I didn't expect to see you here. I just want to tell you how sorry I am," she had a sad look on her face which made me almost feel bad. Austin scoffed in response, pinching the bridge of his nose.
"Sorry? How did you even recognize me? Was it by my name? Did you suddenly remember that you had a son by this name? A son you forgot about," he spat, making her cringe at his words. I felt so awkward, standing beside him.
"Can we please talk alone?" she flicked her gaze to me. I tried to pull myself from him but he didn't let go of me.
"She is more important to me than you and she is not going anywhere," he stated, sending shivers down my spine.
"I know I left your dad for another man, Austin and I can't justify my actions. I was so young when I had you and I was stupid. I wasn't in love with your dad anymore," she admitted honestly, not meeting his gaze, "I tried to reach out to you and in fact, I came back to New York last year only for you," she paused, her eyes tearing up and I felt him intake a sharp breath, "Your father never let me see you. He told me how much you were mentally affected and I felt so bad. I was a horrible mother to you," she sobbed. No matter what she said, I couldn't sympathize with her.
"No shit, you are a horrible and selfish person. My father did the right thing. You shattered us completely," he replied, his voice breaking a bit. I rubbed his back with my arms, trying to comfort him, not knowing what else to do or say.
"You may think I never cared enough to come and see you but I was ashamed of myself and I was a coward," she sniffled and he ran his hands through his hair.
"Listen, I can never forgive you for what you did. I'm just so fucking mad at you and you have no idea what I fucking went through, you never will. I hope you are happy with the life you chose over our family," he replied, with no emotion in his voice, making her cry more. He pulled my hand and walked away in the other direction, taking long strides and I literally had to run to catch up with him.
"Austin...my heels," I complained as he kept dragging me.
"Shit, sorry baby," he stopped, carrying me bridal style and went towards the beach.
"Put me down, I'll walk," I stated but he seemed to be lost, his mind was elsewhere. He finally placed me on the sand and I removed my heels, loving the feel of the beach sand against my feet. He sat down, pulling me on to his lap. I placed my hand on his chest and could feel his heart beating so fast. We both remained silent, listening to the soft waves, lapping against the shore. There was something about the beach that always made me calm. I kept running my hands through his luscious hair while he rested his head against my chest, playing with the ends of my dress.
"What are you thinking?" he asked in a deep voice.
"Do you think you could ever forgive your mom?" I asked carefully, afraid that he might get pissed again.
"I don't know, sweetheart. Maybe one day," he sighed against my chest and I nodded in understanding.
"How are you feeling?"
"Better actually, I feel like I got some kind of closure, at least she was honest and felt sorry." He muttered, caressing my face, "I'm glad that you were right next to me. God knows, what I would have done if you weren't there," he looked into my eyes, intently and I gave him a small smile.
"Like I said, we will get through this and everything together," I kissed his forehead, making him close his eyes, "I'm hungry," I whined after sometime.
"Hungry for me?" he smirked, kissing my neck and I closed my eyes, enjoying the feel of his lips, brushing against my skin.
"I--I want food," I bit my lip, trying to control the moan that was threatening to escape my lips as his fingers grazed against my bare thighs.
"I just saw you eating two slices of cake with, Ashley," he pulled back and laughed, kissing my cheeks.
"How did you know I ate two slices of cake, stalker?" I narrowed my eyes at him.
"Well, would you rather prefer me looking at other girls instead of you?" he asked with raised eyebrows.
"Fair point," I smirked and got up from his lap, pulling his hands, "Come on,"
"Alright, I'm coming." he chuckled and got up from the sand.
We joined everyone and I started filling my plate with food while he looked at me weirdly.
"Uhhh...are you gonna eat all of that?" he asked with a concerned look on his face.
"Yeah," I rolled my eyes and we both sat down. I kept eating like a pig while he rested his chin on his arms and kept staring at me with a small smile on his face, "Stop staring at me. I told you I was hungry," I glared at him and he chuckled, holding up his hands in defense.
"You are so cute," he sighed, loosening his tie. Just then, Ashley came over to our table and handed Jane over to Austin.
"Take care of her for a while, Austin," she said in a rush and was about to walk away.
"Hold on, clean diapers right?"
"Yeah," she grinned, smacking his head and walked away. I laughed at the scene in front of me and looked at Jane who looked so cute, wearing a pink frock that matched my dress and had a cute bow on top of her head. Austin started rocking her in his strong arms and I couldn't help but think of him holding our baby. Our baby? It was like a light bulb went on in my head.
Fuck, fuck, fuck!
I pushed my plate aside and stood up immediately. I started to feel dizzy and excused myself to got to the bathroom. He gave me a puzzled look but nodded. I dragged myself to the washroom, my vision blurring. I was eating a lot and was feeling tired always. I started counting the days to my period. Fuck! I kept a track of it on my phone which was in my room. I groaned in frustration and held the sink, closing my eyes.
Oh my God, what if I was pregnant?
Austin would freak out. Heck, I wasn't ready for it myself. Maybe one day but not now. Even though, playing with Jane was all cute and fun. The reality of it was scary as fuck. Okay, it was just a possbility and I could be wrong. I quickly washed my hands and took a few deep breaths to calm myself. It was going to be fine. I came outside the washroom and saw Austin pacing outside, making me jerk in my tracks.
"Hey, are you alright? I was worried out there," he rushed towards me, cupping my face with his warm hands and I nodded, not meeting his eyes.
"Let's go to our room," I said in almost a whisper and he immediately wrapped his arms around me and we both made our way towards the resort.
"Where is Jane?"
"Jake took her, I'll inform them that you aren't feeling well. Don't worry, sweetheart." He kissed the side of my head and I nodded, "It must be the food you ate, you will be fine." He assured me as we entered our room. I rushed to pick up my phone from the nightstand and quickly checked my period cycle.
"Austin?" I called out to him and he came closer, wrapping his arms around my waist. I swallowed hard, not knowing how to break it to him.
"What is it?"
Fuck it, here goes nothing!
"I think...I think I might be pregnant,"












