Chapter 61 Nate Pakilamero

<Mia>

When did I ever use my brain? Why do I always seem to be in the wrong? Nothing I do is right. I'm just sitting here on the sofa, where I slept while waiting for Ethan to come home, but it's already morning and he's still not here. Where did he spend the night? He's never been like this before.

Maybe this is how he feels when I don't come home. Waiting for someone who doesn't show up. I think I'm being karma.

I didn't mean to hurt him. It's not my fault that I couldn't let go of Yunnie back then. I didn't cheat because before I got married to Ethan, I already had a girlfriend.

Why do I feel like everything is my fault? Out of ten things I did, I made a mistake only once, but that's all they see.

I let out a deep sigh. I need to find Ethan.

"N-Nathan?" I was taken aback when he called out my name. What is he doing here?

He glanced around the living room.

"What did you do to my twin brother?" He asked me with a sly grin. I felt fear because of his dark aura.

"Do you know where Ethan is? Is he with you?" I asked hopefully.

"Ethan wants to divorce you. He sent me to give you the divorce papers and told me to tell you to leave his house."

I couldn't utter a word in response. Why is he here? Does Ethan not want to see me anymore? Is that why he sent his twin brother? My mind is racing with thoughts. I've been overthinking since last night. I'm scared that Ethan might leave me and give up on me completely.

"N-Nate, can I please talk to Ethan? Please, I want to explain," I begged him. I held his hand, but he pulled it away.

"You're aware that I don't like you for my twin. And it doesn't make sense to explain your side. You cheated on my twin twice. Ethan is so hurt, and you want to see him? My brother sent me because he doesn't want to see you and wants to cut ties with you. You've hurt Ethan so much, Mia. You know he loves you deeply, and yet you keep hurting him. He's a human being, not a robot. He has feelings too. Do you know how painful it is for me to see him like that? Because of you, he lost consciousness!" He shouted at me, clenching his fists.

"N-Nate, please, I'm begging you. Just let me talk to him," I pleaded. Did he want me to kneel in front of him?

"Stop bothering my twin! He can't handle the pain he's feeling, and that's what hurts the most! He lost his consciousness because of you! We already have family problems, and you're just adding to his burden!"

I stepped back at his words. Is Ethan feeling unwell because of our family problems?

"Please, Kuya Nate, I'm begging you. Just let me talk to him," I pleaded with tears in my eyes. Does Ethan want to divorce me because of everything that happened? I want to explain myself to him.

"You can't just allow her to hurt my twin! She doesn't deserve him! And you, why are you here?" Nathan said as Ate arrived with her husband, both of them smiling at me.

"What are you doing here?" Ate asked Nathan, concerned. She was trying to hold him back, but her husband stepped in to calm him down.

"I'm here because my fucking twin is in the hospital because of that woman!" Nathan pointed at me.

"What happened to Ethan?" I asked, worried.

"Why do you care? You don't care about his feelings, do you?"

"Hoy! Nathan, watch your language when talking to my sister! Just because you're handsome doesn't mean you can act that way!" Ate scolded him.

"So, Mia has the right to hurt my twin?" Nathan fought back.

"Hoy! I'm getting tired of your attitude! You don't even know what happened! You don't know what Mia's going through, so stop judging her!" Ate defended me, and I held onto her hand to stop her. I knew her; she wouldn't back down from a fight.

"I already know from what I saw how hurt my brother is. Why do you know everything that he did for that woman? Ethan is working so hard to support her, even compromising his own health, and what does she do? She's giving away the money he worked hard for to her lover! That was so fucking unbelievable! You're so good at cheating, Mia, you took advantage of my twin's trust. You're ruining his life! You're not good for his mental health! You're breaking him while he's building you up."

I fell silent after hearing his words. Ate and Pops have been dealing with our fights all this time. I'm tired of all the arguments, of all the judgments. Can't they see? I developed trauma because of them. Every time I want to say something, they get angry or disapprove. Why would I even try to tell them when I already know their reaction?

I feel suffocated because Ethan isn't here. Huhu.

"Walking into Ethan's life was a fucking blessing for you, but you still act recklessly. You have gold, but you still want a pebble. You're lucky to have Ethan; he never neglects you. Do you know how he defends you to Pops, huh?" Pops doesn't bother me now, which is unusual. I can do whatever I want without someone barging into the house or getting angry at me.

With each word he spoke, my conscience weighed heavily on me.

I didn't engage in an argument with my sister because she would just get angrier if I did. She always thinks she's right and never makes mistakes. She's a perfect being.

I went outside when someone rang the doorbell.

"Hi," a woman with shoulder-length hair greeted me. She was shorter than me and wearing heels, brown trousers, and a white long-sleeve polo. She was accompanied by a young boy, who looked about five or seven years old.

"Is Ethan here?" She asked me hesitantly.

Who is this woman?

"Hi, may I know your name?" I asked her sternly.

"I'm Joy, and here's his white coat. He left it in case he needs it," she said, handing me the white coat the child was wearing. It had "Dr. Mendoza" written on it.

"And please tell him that Etheus is looking for him," she added with a smile, glancing behind me. I took the coat from her and asked her to leave. Who does she think I am, a liar?

Why does she have Ethan's lab coat? Was she with my husband last night, which is why he didn't come home? I paused in my steps as I thought about it. Is Ethan cheating on me? Is he getting back at me for what I did?

I know everyone around Ethan, and this woman is the first time I've seen her, yet she brought Ethan's lab coat. I tightened my grip on the white coat.

Ethan has another woman. I entered the house, my heart shattering with pain. It hurts so much. When I was with Yunnie, I never felt hurt like this. I found myself clutching my chest.

Why does love hurt so much?

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<Nathan>

"Where are you going?" I asked Ethan sharply as he took the keys to his car.

"Going home," he replied shortly.

"Are you going crazy? You're not going home, and you're going to leave Mia," I said firmly.

"You're not my mother to decide for me."

Why is this guy so stubborn?

"I'll go home and hear her explanation. If our marriage is f-fake... I'll let h-her go," he stammered, looking around.

"Have you finally come to your senses? You're not stupid anymore?" I asked him, descending the stairs. He was wearing my clothes since he had none, and he stayed here overnight. He lost consciousness from crying so much, struggling to breathe.

"I love her, and I know she loves me too," he said, looking at me.

"Damn it! Ethan, haven't you realized Mia's actions yet? She's making you feel unimportant. She trampled on you, dressed you up, loved you, did the laundry, married you, cared for you, protected you, but what did she give back to you? Huh!"

"I'll go home."

"Motherfucker!" I hissed.

I didn't believe that he would leave Mia, knowing how infatuated he is with that woman. He made her his whole world. I hate women because they are so fickle. They're given everything, but they're never satisfied. Damn it!