Chapter 44
"Chandria, aren’t you getting tired?” He asked me tiredly.
“Because of me.” He pointed at himself.
“I am already to what you are doing! I am tired of hiding from you,” he burst out, “and don’t you have any shame? You keep chasing me; you are the woman, for Pete's sake!”
Why would I feel embarrassed? I am proud of him and won’t feel sorry as long as it is about him. He is not yet my boyfriend; I am already proud of him.
“I won’t get tired o them,” I murmured; I promised myself that I won’t ever get tired of him and won’t give up until he didn’t love me back.
He closes his eyes deeply, and when he opens his eyes, his emotions change. I can’t read what’s in his eyes.
He looks at me from head to toe, and I am uncomfortable with how he stares at me.
"Haven't you wondered why I haven't had a girlfriend?" my hair rose in his voice.
Why is he not having a girlfriend? He is not gay, or maybe he is picky? Or he's waiting for the right woman?
Brother Kienzo is already married; about his twin Enzo, I never heard that he had any girlfriends. In contrast, Kyle has a girlfriend, and he is just hiding her.
Maybe you won’t have a girlfriend that easily because of work. Keran is just busy in his career.
"I am a little bit submissive. I don't do, girlfriend."
I am not shocked by his revelation.
"I don't have a girlfriend, but I have a lot of flings, and they can stir in front of me. Can you do that?" He looked at me.
"Can you do that, Chandria? Are you willing to do what I want you to?" he challenged me while smirking.
What should I do?
"You can be my girlfriend, but are you willing to send me nudes? And be available whenever and wherever I want?" I swallowed. His tone changed to a scary type.
I nodded at him without thinking. I am a desperate woman who will do everything for him just like I saw.
“You can’t do that.” He yelled out.
For Keran, I can do that.
“If I did it, would you be my boyfriend?” I am teary-eyed.
I love him, and whatever he wants, I will do it for my love for Keran.
"Before that, I want you to strip in front of me," he muttered Straightforward.
"Show me your body." he rechallenged me while looking at my body. I am still wearing my clothes, but his stares are undressing me.
"You can’t do it. You can leave my room and don't show your face again," Keran said coldly.
"I will do it," I said without feeling any more,
“Give me an assurance that we will be in a relationship if I do that.” I need his assurance.
"Let's see. If you are satisfied and behave yourself, I might marry you." it gives me hope.
I need to give my best.
I started to undress my tops, and Keran was waiting for me to undress them.
I finally remove it, and he is staring at my chest.
"Not bad." He nods his head multiple times while looking at my body.
"Remove all of it. I want to see you naked." my dignity is defended in my performance.
He patiently waited to remove everything from me.
“If you can't do it, don't force yourself-" I pulled my bra, and he smirked like a demon.
He looked down there, and his eyes told me to remove it too and showed him what was inside of it.
I can’t believe that I am doing this thing.
I close my eyes while removing my undies.
I can’t look at him; I don’t have the confidence to do that. I can’t look at his reaction. I haven't shaved down there, which makes me feel shyer.
I gasped when he suddenly pulled me and lay on his soft bed. He lay me without any care. He never cared for me.
His face ended up in my chest, and I didn’t know what he was doing. He is kissing me there while I felt his finger down there doing something.
"K-keran…"I weakly muttered his name.
He has thin yet long fingers.
This feels so good.
"Hmmph." I moaned when he added another finger.
I am not in myself, and Kieran's doing in my body is still in processing.
I like what he is doing; it feels good.
I don’t know what he is doing and feel I will go crazy. His fingers and kiss make me crazy.
He pushed me back, and suddenly, he inserted something.
I wanna cry in pain; what is he doing in my body?
"I'm fucking your asshole, and you're still a virgin. This is safe," he told me while doing something behind me.
I wanna cry.
"Ke-keran…" I’m crying while calling his name.
I don’t know if I still have a face to show him.
I feel so dirty.
I can’t stop myself from crying.
For my love, I let him do whatever he wants in my body as long as he is happy with it.
"Keran!" My heartbeat was fast when I heard someone knocks on his room door.
It’s good that I locked the door.
"Keran!" I scream his name again.
"Kiki…" I called him while crying.
Why is he acting strange? Why does he look mad? I can’t read what’s running inside his head, and he stares at me blankly while his eyes are sore and darkened. His jaw is moving.
Did he find me and worry about me?
Does he was the one who saved me?
He doesn’t look happy seeing me.
What’s wrong with him? He is scaring me with his aura.
"Who's that man?" he asked coldly, and his eyes became emotionless. He is confusing me.
He is looking at me coldly; he has become different.
"Who the hell is that man?!" I almost jumped when he yelled at me. He is shouting at me.
I don’t understand him; who is he asking about? We are just two here. Is he seeing someone that I don’t see? I hold the bedsheet tightly; he is scaring me. Maybe there’s a ghost here.
He sounds mad; he should be worried and ask what happened to me, right? If how’s my feeling?
“I don’t know who you are talking about. Are you seeing a ghost? We are just two here.” I almost stammer.
I accidentally look at his fist. His veins on it showed up because of the force he was using. He is clenching his fist.
Is he mad? If he is angry, this is my first time to see him mad. What is he mad for? Kiki is getting crazy again.
Did I do something while I was asleep? Maybe I have hidden power when I am sleeping and do silly things.
"Your ex! So, you have a fucking boyfriend!" He slams the one table here, making me tremble at his action.
I roamed and was in a private room; the aircon was cold and felt fresh.
It is not yet my time to die; I still have a mission in this world.
"It’s L-Lorex?" His chest moved, and his breathing became heavy. He wants to punch someone based on his looks.
His stare darkened again; he didn’t like what I had muttered.
"You're a cheater."
He said it hurts me.
"We already broke up. I break up with Lorex addict."
Does Lorex is here a while ago? How did Kiki find out that we were in a relationship?
"Kiki, let me explain." I tried to reach for his hand to hold, but he moved it away.
I’m not a cheater; it’s not my fault if Lorex was enchanted by my pimples.
"Damn it, Claire!" His voice roared in the four side corner of the room; this room is tiny. I hope they won’t hear his voice outside.
I broke up with Lorex, and it’s not my fault if he doesn’t let me go.
Kiki is mad at me for real. I don’t know how to calm myself; based on his reaction, you, no one, can tame him, even me.
Why did he find it out too early? I’m planning to tell it to me when I am ready. I’m just waiting for the right timing.
"Claire! Tell me the truth! How many months you had been together, huh?!" he yelled at me. His veins in his neck showed up. That’s how mad he is.
He is mad, and it makes me nervous and scared. I never thought that Kiki would be angry because of it. It’s not my plan. I didn’t plan that accident, and my intention is pure.
I made him mad.
"Kienzo, let me explain." this is insane.
" I broke up with him, but he didn’t want to let me go; I wiped my tears on both cheeks.
“Believe me, he doesn’t want me to let go… please… already broke up with him.” I sniffed.
"This is bullshit! You cheated on me!"
I trembled when Kiki punched the white wall.
"Fuck it! Now, don't you show your face in front of me again!" He kicked at the table, and fruits fell down.
Kiki said and walked out of the room. His heart is full of hate right now. I should tame him.
I was startled when he slammed the door. He is becoming aggressive; I am lucky he didn’t hurt me and suppress his anger a little.
When Kiki disappeared, the door opened again, and I saw Manong Rodger. He didn’t say anything and picked up everything that had been felt.
Even if I found out I had a girlfriend while we were married, I would be mad and feel hurt.
I understand him.
He told me that he loves and is just about what he discovered, but it still hurts me. I don’t want us to fight.
I’d rather be hurt than him. I don’t want to hurt him because he treated me well and was kind to me.
