59. Why me!

“Please." I was able to mumble but she smirked the most. She has no pity on her face.

“After this, you will learn your place .... You are an animal so you have to live with animals, you don't belong here. We are tired of seeing your ugly face every day, it is making us sick!" she spat and was about to pour the water on me. I closed my eyes ready for the worst as my heart was beating so fast. I can't stop her, there's nothing I can do, two strong hands are already holding me down. I wonder if I will survive the pepper water if it is poured on me.

Before she could pour the water on me, I heard someone holler from the crowd. “That's enough!"

I slowly open my eyes just to see Alex walking towards us.

Wait, is he here to save me or am I hallucinating?

“Alex, why are you stopping me from teaching her a lesson? She deserves it." Kiara said, sounding a little bit confused.

“I was the one she fell on and not you Kiara, so if anyone has to punish her it will be me," he replied coldly and turned towards the students. “Now everyone can leave, the show is over."

The students couldn't spend another minute there. He's the Alpha heir with Alpha blood, no one can defy his orders. They all left disappointed because the show was cut off.

“And you," he said to me. “Leave here this minute or I might change my mind".

My jaw dropped in awe. I hope I am not dreaming, did Alexander just save me now? Just a while ago his eyes were full of anger looking at me but now it is kind of a pity. Those beautiful green eyes of his are staring softly at me. It got me confused, what happened?

I can see the anger on Kiara's face, she felt insulted. She glared hard at me before leaving with her band girls.

I felt relieved though I was injured by those students, I hate them all especially Kiara, they are my worst nightmare. I glanced at Alex, he wasn't looking at me..... If he finds me disgusting why then did he save me or maybe he has a humanity left in him and is not like those students.

“Thank you." I mumble but he ignores me and walks away. At least I'm happy that he saved me.

I left the school and went home. I can't have lectures in such a messy state and it is all because of those students. When I was going home, my mind was wandering. That was when I was able to remember something. I can remember the spark that erupted through my skin when I fell on Alex and touched his skin. I felt it in a second and didn't process it well because I was shocked when I fell on Alex. Mates feel spark whenever their skin touches.

Is Alex my mate?

My eyes widened in shock. How is that possible? Though I expected it, now that it is a reality I felt hurt because I know that Alex will never accept me.

I don't have a wolf, that's one of the reasons that I'm weak so it will be hard to know if Alex is my mate or not. But he has a wolf so I'm sure he will know if I'm his mate. Did he know? Was that why he came back to save me? Still he didn't accept it and I'm sure he will never accept it.

Why does this hurt so much? I don't think I will ever be happy. The man I love is my mate but he will never accept me.

When I returned home the door was locked. I pressed the doorbell countless times but no one opened it. I don't even have a spare key. Maybe mum is not at home. I will just wait outside. I waited outside till evening time, Mandie and Clair returned home afterwards.They ignored me and pressed the doorbell and the door was opened for them.

Wait, mum was inside all this while. Why didn't she open the door for me? And here I am starving all day thinking no one is at home. I even called her but she didn't pick her calls.

“Welcome home my beautiful princesses," she greets my sisters and pecks their cheeks.

“Mum you were inside, why didn't you open the door for me?" I asked but she ignored me.

This is unbelievable, did she hate me this much to lock me outside the house. She didn't even care if I was starving.

“I couldn't possibly let you inside my house with you looking that way. Gosh! those smells are just too much ..... Just move back a little, I don't want you to fill this place with your bad smelling aura and besides we are having a visitor tonight and you are not in any way needed in this house so leave, go find somewhere else to sleep." She spat out sarcastically about walking inside the house but my voice stopped her.

“Why are you doing this mum? Why do you hate me so much? I'm your daughter for crying out loud, I am not the one that creates myself! You brought me into this world, I am your daughter. Not just Mandie and Claire, I am also your daughter!" I holler tearfully. I've had enough. I'm tired of pretending that all is well when nothing is well.

“You are not my daughter idiot, I don't know how you managed to enter my womb and you shouldn't be asking why I hate you because it is obvious. I hate you because you are so ugly and you irritate me. I should have let you die the day you were born. You should be thankful to your father because he was the reason you are still living today. I regret that I left you to live and it is so embarrassing to call you my daughter. Just think about it, how can I present you to my friends, if you are in my shoes will you do the same! I guess the answer is no because no one in his or her right senses will accept an ugly thing like you. I just wasted a whole nine months carrying you in my womb. You should be thankful that I haven't thrown you out of this house after your father's death!" She blurted out resentfully and slammed the door.

I stood like I was electrocuted. My eyes are already filled with tears. I clutched my chest, it is just so painful and I don't think I can bear it anymore. I just stood dumbfounded staring at the closed door with the pains piercing and cutting through my heart, the tears won't stop rushing out. She regrets giving birth to me, she regrets not killing me. She said all those hurtful words to me without batting an eye. I try to find my breath, but I think it is gone. I'm finding it hard to breathe. The heaviness in my heart has taken my breath away.

I heard chuckling and laughing from inside. She doesn't even feel remorse for what she told me. She meant what she said, it wasn't a mistake saying all those things. I couldn't hold back the tears, I let myself cry out loud, clutching onto my chest trying to ease the pain.

This life is just so unbearable for me, so unbearable..... There is no point for me to live anymore, no one needs me in this world, not even my own family. I thought one day mum will change and learn to love me but it looks like there is no hope for me, she will never love me... She wishes that I'm dead. She and my sisters hate me so much.

I just can't take it anymore, I just can't. No I can't take this, I can't bear this pain is too much. It is tearing my heart apart. I'm sorry dad but I'm too weak to fight the world, besides I am dying slowly everyday because of the hurtful words I hear from people. And this makes it the worst, hearing mum say all those hurtful words makes it the worst. I don't think I will be able to live anymore, I just want to come to you in heaven and I also have a lot of questions to ask goddess. Why did she create me to be so ugly?

….

I stood at the extreme end of the bridge, just one more step from me I will fall into the ocean. My eyes are already swollen from crying and I feel so weak inside of me. Ending my life is the best option, I really need to get some rest.... I need to be far away from all those monsters. From this world and all the pain it gives .

This is the only place I can scream out my sorrow and the only place I can find peace.

“Why me!!!!!!" I scream out loudly. I won't hold back anymore. I've been longing to do this for years now. To scream out my pains.

“Why me? Why me?!" I mutter, I've lost the strength in me for screaming for so long.

This is the best thing to do, killing myself is the best option. I am tired of living and there is nothing to live for anyway. Why should I fight when there is nothing to fight for, I have no strength or courage and I can't bear this pain anymore. I close my eyes as more tears pour down my cheeks.

I will do it. It is for the best.... Killing myself is for the best. I can't handle the pain anymore.

I slowly took some step forward, I lose my balance thereby falling into the ocean