It's jealousy, so what?

Nate

— I'm the man of your life, Nate! The one who with a simple kiss, makes you hard! — He says and I look at him in disbelief. I must be dead for this kid to tell me that, like this to my face, inside my house, and I don't punch him.

— Respect me, Will! — I say, and throw another pillow at him.

— Oh, that one hurt! You take everything I say very seriously, I was just kidding you gross!

— I'm already starting to get annoyed with your jokes, and the worst thing is that I never know when it's true, most of the time I think you're bluffing all the time!

— What? Do you think everything I say is a lie? he asks and I shake my head indifferently, he approaches, I feel his gaze on me, but I prefer to look at the TV. — Look, I know I joke a lot, but not everything I say is a joke, sometimes I say anything to make you uncomfortable, because I think it's so... So...

— So what? Are you ashamed to speak? — I ask and he comes even closer, gives a light kiss on my neck.

— So sexy, kitten! — he says and my heart beats very fast, I feel butterflies in my stomach, and a pleasant feeling takes over me. Once upon a time, after hearing this, I would have pushed him away, but now I feel like an idiot for feeling this way about something so silly. I get even closer, put my lips on his, give light kisses and pull away, and look at the TV.

— Just that?

— Remember you came here to rehearse? — I ask in a serious tone as he stares at me blankly.

— I know, but now it's time for a break! — he exclaims, and he just advances towards me, and takes my mouth with gusto, and I just get carried away with it.

Will presses me once more, and I end up leaning against the arm of the couch, his body clinging to mine. Our mouths are glued together, and our tongues don't come off either. How well that damn kisses!

I lean even more on the couch, I lie completely flat, and Will is on top of me. This seems surreal. The Nate of a few years ago would never look like this in his living room, with a man on top of him. However, this Nate didn't know Will, and he didn't know how good it feels to feel that mouth on yours, the sweet smell he has, the softness of his skin when I kiss his neck.

While I take care of sucking and biting her lower lip slowly, in addition to pulling her hair, one of her hands caresses my belly again and goes slowly up to my chest. He lowers his hand at a very measured speed, I take his mouth with desire. His hand continues to take a dangerous path until it reaches the waistband of my shorts, and if I was hard before, now I think I'm even harder. Before he does anything, he stops the kiss, and I ask breathlessly.

— What... What are you going to do? — Hearing it, Will stares at me with an intense gaze, kisses my mouth lightly, stops and continues looking at me.

— You're tough, and I want to help you! — he says and it scares me. What does he want in my living room?

Will kisses me again and his hands are back on the waistband of his shorts, I tug at his hair while his mouth seems to want to devour mine, and when he finally opens the button, I hear a small noise coming from the door, but I don't care, there's something more important about to happen to me, but I hear something else this time.

— Nate, I... Oh, what... Oh my...

[...]

I don't think I needI can't say how embarrassing it was for my mother to catch us in that situation, and still hear from her that in the bedroom I would have more privacy with my boyfriend. I agreed with what she said about having privacy in the bedroom, but I still don't know what kind of relationship we have to claim we're boyfriends, we haven't talked about it yet.

The days that followed were very intense, a lot of work. The recording of the OST MV, which lasted two days, in addition to the start of scene recordings for the eighth episode. With all this intensity of work, we didn't spend a lot of time together the way I wanted, and especially today, I'd like to see him, be able to thank him for what he did, because Will sent the video with the music I made to some broadcast producers. They liked it and called me asking about the song, and if I would like to talk more about it, and the result of this conversation was something I dreamed of for a long time, being able to record my song, record an MV, and consequently get on the track. series sound.

[...]

The day of the series launch party has finally arrived! Even though I'm not a transparent person, Will is suspicious of something, I wish I had told you something about my song, but when the production people asked me to sing it at the event, I thought it best not to say anything. Ever since we left my house, he's been asking me if I'm hiding something, because according to him, I look too weird. As soon as we get to the hotel parking lot, I look at its facade and it impresses me.

— Wow, I thought it was something simpler, but is it at the Athenee Hotel?

— It looks like they want to impress!

— Truth.

As we walk slowly, I look at everything around me, it's so impressive, its all glazed facade, the doors the same way. The entrance hall looks like a castle, those that appear in movies, a huge space, marble floors, everything white and a large pendant chandelier in the middle of the space. My gaze travels all over the place, and then it hovers over Will who gives me a smile.

— Apparently you never came here?

— Do not.

— Here it is really beautiful. — He says, and smiles.

— Is too beautiful. I think that's why they sent us these white suits to look too clean!

— You know, I think you're having this soft talk, to disguise that you're hiding something from me, or am I supposed to say that you look beautiful? And it's driving me crazy to kiss you, now! — He says, I shake my head in the negative, and smile.

Before entering the hall where the event takes place, he brings his mouth close to my ear, while still looking straight ahead.

— I thought of something more besides the kiss! — he says, and I look at him and feel like I'm burning inside, and all this while photographers capture our entrance. I look in the direction of the photographers, smile, and look back at him as Will smiles at the photographers.

After an endless photo shoot and interviews, we, the cast, the production, are introduced to the definitive trailer for the series, with images taken from various scenes we've done over these months. Seeing the result of all the work we had summed up in a few minutes made me happy and fulfilled, even if we didn't succeed with this work, I know it was already worth all the energy and dedication put into it. Looking at every part of that new trailer also makes me think about how everything has changed between me and Will. We were so locked in, total strangers to each other, and now even making out on the couch in my living room has happened.

[...]

The big moment to go up to the stage arrives, I look at him who watches me with a questioning expression.

— Where are you going?

— I go to the stage. Please don't go away! I'm going to sing, and I want you to see me!

On the way to the stage, I feel butterflies in my stomach, my hands sweat a lot. I climb a few steps, smile at the musicians, pick up a guitar intended for me that one of them hands me, thank them and approach the microphone, and I see Will's curious eyes on me.

— Good evening everyone! I'm Nate Naetang, and today I want to introduce you to a song I wrote inspired by someone very special to me. This song is called Together!

Every word sung, every chord played, makes me realize how special this moment is for me, for two reasons: I'm singing my song to an audience bigger than my family; and the other reason seems obvious, I'm singing and looking at the one who inspired me. I'm mesmerized, I can't take my eyes off him, and he off of me. I don't know what the future holds, but today I'm sure I want him in my life for a long time.

When the last chord is played, I hear a lot of applause around, but the only thing that matters is in front of me, he looks at me and his smile is full of joy. I come down from the stage with a single purpose, to talk to him, and to thank him for the initiative, but before I approach I am approached by some influential people linked to the station I belong to.

[...]

Talking with the managers and agents could earn me more work as a musician in the near future, and that made me extremely happy, and I need to share this new information with Will. I look around me, many people wave at me, I return the waves, others come to greet me, I do the same, but I keep looking for him, and I can't find him. I spot Mark a little further on, walk over to him, pass between some people and tables.

— Dude, what song is this? — Mark tells me excitedly.

— Liked?

— Of course, and who didn't like it? It's amazing, but it tells me one thing...

— What?

— Who is the special person that inspired you? — he asks, I look at him, and I swallow hard. I run my hand through my hair, scratch my neck.

— Nobody, it was just the text that I was asked to speak at the time, because the music is related to the series, and the love of Wanchai and Thirasak!

— And why didn't you say that?

— Because I was asked to say that text from the stage, Mark!

— So it has nothing to do with what happens on set? — he asks and uses a sly look, and a smile at the corner of his mouth at me.

— And what happens on set?

— Ah Nate, playing the sly?

— I'm not playing the sly! I just don't know what you're talking about!

— Okay, I'll pretend to believe it! But I think you're looking for someone...

— Yes. Have you seen Will?

— I saw him in the bathroom..

I didn't wait for him to finish talking, I passed several people, tables, followed the corner of the wall, so that no one else stopped me until I arrived in front of a large brown door. I pushed it lightly and followed a small corridor, and further on I saw the signs referring to the bathrooms. I enter and I came across something that caught my attention. Will has his back to the entrance leaning his hand on a large marble sink, while a guy with not-so-Asian features, a little different from most, doesn't look Thai, or with aspects of Chinese, or Korean descent.

— Couldn't you give me your number, I enjoyed meeting you… — His question irritates me.

What audacity... Who does he think he is to ask for Will's number? I need to do something. I get a little closer to Will, touch his arm lightly.

— I was looking for you!

He turns around, and looks at me with a smile.

— Nate! Let me introduce you... This one is...

— Then you introduce me, I'll go to the bathroom! — I say, walk past them and enter the first cabin, lock the door behind me. I put both hands over my mouth and let them go. I'm angry!

[...]

— Nate, you can wait for me! I stop, turn and look his way.

— I said that you didn't have to come after me, that you stay at the party, after all, there's a lot going on there, many series being presented, many actors for you to meet, and expand your horizons!

— I didn't say that, Nate!

— And what did you say then? I ask sharply.

— I said that we need to meet people to expand our contact list, that's it!

— Oh, and that includes giving your phone number to... What's his name?

— Luke? I do not believe that! — He says and opens the car door. — You will stay there?

— I'll take a taxi!

— Nate, stop the bullshit and get in the car! — He says and I glare at him. — There's no point in you going home by taxi. We arrive together, we leave together!

I walk slowly to the other side of the car, get in. All the way to my house, I didn't say anything, he said something, and I didn't answer or show any expression. Park in front of my building. I put my hand on the door latch.

— Will it stay like this? Won't you say anything?

— What do you want me to say?

— You're angry about something that didn't happen, it has nothing to do with it!

— It has nothing to do? — He asked for his number, he seemed interested in you, and...

— So what if he seemed interested? Is this all jealousy?

— It's jealousy, so what? — I say, and he puts his hand on my face, caresses it, and wears that damn smile.

— Even if I gave him my number, and he was interested in me, the question is, is he Nate Naetang? — he asks and moves even closer to me. — I answer: No! And do you know who Nate Naetang is? It's the guy I'm completely in love with