Only if I can sleep cuddled with you!

Will

— Even if I gave him my number, and he was interested in me, the question is, is he Nate Naetang? I say and get even closer to him. — I answer: No! And do you know who Nate Naetang is? He's the guy I'm completely in love with!

— Truth? Didn't that guy catch your eye?

Sometimes I think Nate is too insecure. It is not possible for someone who has had so many love experiences, especially with women, to behave like this. From the start I was clear about what I feel, and he acts like a jealous fool who doesn't believe what I say. I know I sometimes joke about things too much, but I only do it because I know he likes it.

— Are you seriously asking me this?

— Will, I...

— Nate, please! I already told you I'm in love with you. How can you doubt it? — I ask and caress her face. He looks at me like a stray dog. I smile.

— Sorry, Will! I was blinded by jealousy, I know this is a little silly, but...

— Nate, we're together, I'm in love, and I think you feel the same way about me too, don't you?

— Of course I am! — He exclaims, moves even closer, and glues his mouth to mine. His kiss is light, tender, and then he pulls away. 'Don't you want to go upstairs?'

— I do, but can I sleep at your place?

— He can...

— Look, don't think I'm having ulterior motives, okay? My parents traveled,and my sister is having a sleepover for her friends. — it's partly true, but I also want to sleep cuddled with him

[...]

— Why are you taking that mattress? Will I sleep on the floor? — I ask as I emerge from the bathroom, wrapped in a towel. After taking a hot shower, Nate throws a bucket of cold water on me, and my desire to sleep in his arms feels like it's not going to happen.

— I think it's better this way!

— Oh no, you let me sleep at your place, and you want me to sleep on the floor?

— Will, I find it a little difficult...

— Difficult? Nate, sleeping is very different from having sex! I ask to sleep at your house, and you want me to sleep on the floor? I'm not a colleague, a stranger.

— Okay, you're right! We are together.

It doesn't take long for him to put the mattress in the closet, and he returns, approaches the bed, retaliates, puts a sheet for me on top of the pillow, sits on the bed and leans on the headboard, and throws his sheet over his legs. . He looks at me, and I touch the towel tied around my waist, and his eyes go wide and his mouth open.

— Will, what are you going to do?

— I'll wear the clothes! — I say and use a slightly mocking smile. I drop the towel for good, and he has a "Gay panic." He turns his face away as I let out a laugh. — Nate, you're so silly! Look... I'm wearing the shorts you lent me!

He finally looks.

— Holy shit, you're so annoying... And that's a pair of underwear, you idiot!

— Are you going to tell me that you didn't want to see me naked?

He looks at me indignantly.

— Fuck you, Will!

— Only if it's with you! — I say, he looks more outraged and throws the pillow at me, and I keep laughing. — Calm down kitten, I'm kidding!

He shakes his head and turns away. I take the opportunity to sit next to him on the bed, and he stares at me as if I've done something more wrong.

— What's the matter now, Nate?

— Will you sleep shirtless?

— I always sleep without a shirt on, but if you want me to wear it, I...

— Not alright!

— I was thinking...

— Here comes bullshit... What is it?

— The series premiere will be on the same day as my birthday!

— Wow! Really! And there's a recording of a react from the first episode on the day of the premiere. Have you ever thought about what you're going to do on your birthday besides commitments?

— I still haven't thought of anything!

— And your parents? Won't they do something for you?

— I do not know. Since the day of the discussion, the situation between us has been a little shaken, we barely speak...

— I'm sorry for you.

— All well!

— We could do something for the day, I don't know... Something you like, like eating at that restaurant in Watthana, or taking a walk like that. What do you think? — he asks, and I watch him closely, and something comes to my mind.

— Could be... You know what I remembered?

— What?

— From your birthday, when I sent you that cake, and you made an emotional video call all emotional to thank me...

— I wasn't thrilled!

— I was... And it's no use lying! You even confessed, and you were embarrassed when you said it was your first time getting a cake from a boy.

— I didn't say that!

— Said yes! It was so cute to see you all excited... — I say, I get a little closer, and I give him a kiss on the neck, and then I lean my head on his shoulder. — You know Nate, I thought you'd never give me a chance! When our first kiss happened, and you told me it was wrong, that you were straight, I felt a pang in my chest, that hurt too much!

— Sorry about that, but since I met you, it's like I'm rediscovering myself. In the end, I'm twenty-two years old, and I've always been interested in girls, and suddenly a silly boy starts to turn my head, my world and everything I believed in is no more!

— I'm not silly! I exclaim, take my head off his shoulder, look at him, and he looks at me in a way that leaves me completely lost. I touch his lips softly, and he reciprocates with more intensity, and I feel his tongue brush mine. The kiss gets more intense, I pull his hair lightly, and he breaks the kiss.

— Fine. I want to sleep!

— In the best part you stop?

— It's better this way! Now, I'm going to sleep... Good night! — he says that and just lies down, and turns his back on me. I'm starting to think Nate can't help himself. Let's see how long he can take this joke?

I lie down, throw the sheet under my legs, turn onto my side and lightly wrap my hand around her waist, and squeeze. Which instantly annoys you.

— What are you doing?

— I'm hugging you! — I say and rest my chin on his shoulder.

— I don't want to get away!

— Stop being boring, kitten! Why are you like this? What does it cost to let me sleep next to you?

— No. Get away, before I push you!

— Damn, why are you so ignorant of me? You don't know how to be affectionate. I think I should have given Luk my number, he seemed kind. — I say and walk away from him. Perhaps what I said might have some effect. He turns and looks intensely at me.

— Are you crazy? Give your number to a stranger?

— He's not a stranger, he's part of the station's casting, and he's going to debut a series...

— Ahh... Because of that he became your friend, and are you going to give him your number? — he asks, and I feel how angry he is at what I said.

— You're funny! At the party I even said I wanted something more than a kiss, and I come here and you won't let me touch you. It seems that since that day on the couch, you've become terribly afraid of me.

— None of that, I didn't get scared of you! Me me...

I know it's hard for him to get used to all this news, but we need to create greater intimacy, things couples do when they're alone. I don't just talk about sex. I feel that if I don't take the initiative, nothing flows. I get up, grab my shirt and put it on, then grab my wallet and my car key.

— Where are you going?

— To my home! — As soon as I speak, I walk to the door, and before I touch the knob, I feel his hand grip my arm.

— Wait...

— Why? After all, I was the one who insisted on sleeping here. I'm bothering you, nothing fairer than leaving!

— Will, stop being dramatic! Come... Shall we lie down?

I step closer, face him, wrap my hands around his neck. I use a very sly voice.

— Only if I can sleep cuddled with you! I can?

— It's ok, you can sleep! — He says, and I give him a light kiss on the lips. — But it's only for sleeping!'

— I know. The pervert here is you, kitten! I thought of nothing but a good night's sleep! — I say, I burst out laughing, and once again I give him a light kiss on the lips, before he says something against me.