Our first time - Part II

Nate

The question is: "Why didn't I try this before?

Ah... I remembered, because I was afraid."

Fear of experimenting, of feeling, of exploring parts of my body that could give me pleasure, and I simply didn't know about. The worst is to feel fear for putting so many ideas in my head, and let them take over my subconscious, allowing me to live in a state of inertia, without being able to surrender to a passion that changed my way of seeing life, and seeing far beyond.

With every touch, every kiss, my body is surrendered to desire, to pleasure. Every time his fingers entered and left, I felt out of sorts, especially when he seemed to find the right spot to give me pleasure. I open my eyes and try to pull myself together, but the feeling of pleasure still takes over me, my breathing is short, it was too intense. I look beside me, and there he is. The owner of my pleasure.

I look into his eyes, he smiles, and I smile back. I wrap my hands around his back, hugging him. I want more, I want to feel even more. I bring my mouth close to his ear.

— I'm ready, baby... Fuck me! —9 As soon as I speak, I pull away, and his look seems surprised at my speech, in fact even I am, but on the other hand, this speech, this desire, and everything that I feel today, for him, did not happen overnight, there was the development of a friendship, full of sexual tension, which later turned into an intense passion, and which has been transforming itself into something more.

— What did you say? — he asks curiously.

— I want you to... You understand!

— No, there's something else... Another word. — After Will says this, I realize what I have said. Did I call him love? Shame at this hour, Nate? No, not at all!

— Is... Love? — I ask and he grins from ear to ear, and shakes his head.

— Why did you say that?

— Can't I call my boyfriend love?

— Damn it Nate, tell me when you are going to say something like that! My heart can't take so many emotions in one night... — he says, and I notice a tear coming down. And this definitely makes me even more emotional. I've recently discovered that one of the things I don't like is to see Will sad. I caress his face and wipe away the tear.

— What is it? Why are you crying?

— It's just that this moment between us is so sweet, and at the same time so full of feelings, and I'm a crybaby, who for a long time was led to believe that I couldn't do this, and a lot of things that boys can't do, that are on that invisible list that society has created. — she speaks, and her tears continue to flow.

— I know, I used to believe some things on that list too, but after the conversations I had with my uncle, Oat, and you, I'm crossing a lot of stupid rules off that list!

— Speak again!

— What?

— You know what I want to hear, Nate!

— That you are my love? — I ask, and he smiles. I move a little closer and kiss his lips lightly.

The kiss becomes intense, his mouth seems to devour mine. His hand squeezes my thigh, and I spread my legs wider so that he can fit better between them. I feel his cock, hard as a rock, touching mine. I never imagined that I could get pleasure from feeling a cock other than my own in this state. Even more, when the desire I feel seems uncontrollable.

— Will, please! — I exclaim as I feel his tongue caressing my neck.

— What do you want, Kitten?

— Don't play with me like that! I'm so horny...

— Are you sure?

— Yes! — as soon as I say it, he takes hold of my mouth again, then stops, stretches his arm to the table, takes out the metal container, and the lubricant.

I watch his every action. He puts on the condom and lies back under me, kisses my mouth once more, and then I feel his finger touching my entrance, and that feeling of pleasure comes over me again. Our kisses are intense, and I think of nothing but feeling him completely. After a while, he stops the kiss, and looks up at me.

— Are you ready?

I shake my head, and then spread my legs wider, and feel just the tip of him. I'm nervous, but I can't let him see that, or he won't be able to do anything. I pull him to me, so that he can kiss me. His lower lip sucks on mine, while his tongue plays with mine. It doesn't take long and I feel a little more of his cock. He looks at me with concern as I let out a moan of pain.

— It's okay... Do you want me to stop?

— Don't stop, go ahead! — I say, and a groan escapes his mouth as he pushes his cock fully into me.

— Can I move around? — he asks and I just shake my head in the affirmative.

His movements begin slowly. I still feel a little pain, but I need to keep going. Will lets out a loud groan. I realize that he fills me completely, but with each in and out, I continue to feel a little pain. Will is very affectionate, his mouth kisses mine intensely, goes down to my neck, my ear, as well as the words he makes sure to utter. "How I longed for this moment".

[...]

I still feel pain. The pleasure goes a little far, we change positions a few times, even on the side it still hurts, I get discouraged and wish it would end soon. I don't want to disappoint him, but I need to ask him to stop.

— Will, stop... I'm not well! — As soon as I say it, he immediately stops what he is doing.

I turn to look at him, his face has a worried look.

Caress my face.

— Sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you!

— It didn't hurt me, it just hurt and I couldn't handle it!

— You'd better be active, because you've already had experiences. It was obvious that I wouldn't know how to do it right, I... — after that I need to say something to assuage your insecurity.

— Hey, stop it! Not everyone can have a fairy-tale, perfect first time... It happens! We can try again... — I speak and pull his body close to mine, he hugs me and his chin sticks to the curve of my neck. — That's why it's important to do it with someone you trust!

He fidgets from my neck, and stares at me with a smile.

— Do you trust me?

— Of course. Maybe with another face, when I asked him to stop, he would simply increase the speed of his movements, and leave me wounded. You were very caring and concerned, as a perfect boyfriend should be. He cracks an even bigger smile, and this is contagious, and I return his smile. novel!

— What you said reminded me of the first time Wanchai and Thirasak...

— You mean how he seemed a little abnormal with Wanchai? — I ask, and stroke his face.

— I guess abnormal, would not be the right term. Thirasak was extremely wild, although he did worry afterwards, but the moment Wanchai asked him to go lighter, he didn't, and he didn't seem to hear his boyfriend's request!

— I remember that, and I also found it strange. The strangest thing was that Wanchai didn't bother afterwards either, complain to him, say anything, it was like that was normal.

Will comes closer, kisses my mouth lightly. He pulls away, and looks at me in a playful way.

— Was I like Thirasak?

— I would kick your ass if you did that!

— Would you dare to hit me? — uses a very sly voice to ask me this. I smile, rolling my eyes.

— Why do you have to play the sly one?

— Haven't you noticed? I am sly, and even more so when I am near you. — I smile, pull him close to me, and hug him.

[...]

We stay embraced for a long time. The smell of strawberry that comes from his hair makes me torpid. I am completely overwhelmed by him, feeling like an idiot in love, moved and desperate, just by the smell that comes from his hair. Sometimes I don't know what this power is that Will exerts over me, but then I remember that I know very well, I am in love with him.

I move my mouth closer to his ear.

— How about we try again? — I ask, and he steps back and looks at me.

— Are you sure?

I just nod my head, he lies back under me, and kisses my mouth lightly. As his kisses travel down my neck, I feel one of his hands squeezing my thigh. He stops, looks at me.

— Do you want me to touch you again? — he asks, and I just shake my head.

Each time his fingers enter and exit me, stroking the right spot that gives me pleasure, I only have the courage to moan, I can't do anything else, and it would even be impossible when I also feel his gentle dedication to my nipples. Will will kill me like that!

I feel that I am close, I feel the imminent orgasm consume me, he kisses me again, his kiss is intense, his tongue invades my mouth, and I am completely surrendered to this moment. His mouth moves away from mine, and I let out a desperate moan. Will kisses my neck lightly, pulls away, withdraws his fingers, and looks at me intensely.

— Won't you touch yourself, kitten? — I accept his suggestion, and he again uses his fingers on me. My breathing becomes more and more labored, and I feel that I can't take it anymore, and I let out a loud moan, and soon I feel my liquid flowing out, and Will withdraws his fingers. I close my eyes in delirium, and try to regain my sanity.

I open my eyes, and Will is lying beside me watching me.

I smile.

— Why are you looking at me like that?

— How so?

— Just like a fool?

— Isn't it obvious? I look at you like a fool, because I am foolish for you! — he speaks, I smile, and let out a laugh. — What's wrong? Why are you laughing?

— Because it's tacky!

— It's tacky, being in love is tacky, Naetang! — speaks and turns from

side.

— What is it? Are you angry? — I ask and approach him, and give him a kiss on his cheek. — Hey, sorry... It's just that I thought what you said was funny! And I'm cheesy too, baby!

I say, he looks at me, and then smiles. Your smile is something that infects me. I put my mouth on his, pull his lower lip. I pull my face away, and stare at him.

— Shall we continue? — my question prompts him to lie on top of me and take my mouth again, and our kiss reflects the desire we feel for each other. It gets more intense, and it doesn't take long before Will abruptly pulls away from me, leaving me uncomprehending until I see him tear open the metal wrapper, and then put on the condom.

He lies back under me, kisses my mouth lightly, and I feel his cock slowly taking hold of me, something is different, this time it doesn't hurt as much, and that makes me more comfortable. I feel his breathless breathing on my ear.

— Is it okay? Can I continue?

— That's the signal he needs to start his movements inside me.

My legs tremble as he moves, squeezing my thighs and pushing his cock in again. When his gaze meets mine, I see a mixture of passion and affection, I smile and he kisses my neck, and I imagine that at the end of all our moments, I will have many purple marks all over my body, and especially on my neck. His movements become stronger, and the pain is gone, I feel more relaxed, more comfortable, I hear him moaning close to my ear, and then my name in a very sexy way, and this is driving me out of my mind.

Will's movements become more pleasurable, our breaths are shallow, and another moan escapes my throat. This feels surreal, I never imagined that one day I could be having sex with a man, and feel so good. I tighten my arms around his back, pull his hair, and he says something past my ear.

— Are you enjoying it? If I do, it will hurt you. — Before he says anything else, I take his mouth with ardor, and feel him touch my cock, which is as hard as stone. He holds it in his hand and moves his hand up and down in a maddening up and down motion. I have no more strength, and the climax comes early for me, but it doesn't take long and I hear his desperate moaning next to me, and he pulls out, and falls down beside me once and for all.

The only thing I hear are our rasping breaths. I look away, and find his worried look, and at the same time tears are streaming down his face. I caress his face, and with my fingertips I wipe away the tears that insist on appearing.

— Why are you crying again, Will?

— Because I am happy! — he says, holding my hand, kisses it and then interlaces it with his own. — You have given me the most important moment of my life, you know?

I smile. I move closer to his face and kiss his forehead. I pull her face lightly against my chest, and stroke her hair.

— I know it was important to you, because it was also very important to me. — I speak, and my tears also insist on flowing. I squeeze your back in a strong hug, and if I could stay like this forever.

Before I met him, it was like I was wandering around looking for something important. The first time I saw him I felt strange, like if I found something valuable. When he entered my life for good, a lot changed, it took me a long time, until I understood that Will is my refuge.