Do you want to live with me?

Will

Nate has been calling me the whole time to see if I was on my way, I'm starting to get nervous. It started when I was at my grandfather's house talking to Sunee and Lyn, and even they were worried. During the ride to his house, and now as I park in the garage of the building, he calls once again to find out where I am. The elevator takes three minutes to get to his floor, but for me it is an eternity.

I put in the key, turn the knob, and finally open the door. The room is dark, and I can just make out the light coming from the next room, the dining room. I turn on the light and call for him, who answers me. I walk there, and find a table set for dinner, with Chinese food, my favorite, and Nate sitting waiting for me.

— Wow, are we celebrating something?

— We are... But first you are going to wash your hands, come on!

— Do you have to be rude, you pain in the ass? — I complain in my sly voice.

— You like it rough, that I know! — he answers in a malicious tone, I smile, and walk towards the bathroom, next to the dining room.

[...]

The conversation flows as always, there are diverse subjects. Work, fun, parties, soccer, politics, travel, series, anime, music, family, friends, and a myriad of other things. Nate is the kind of person I could spend the whole night talking to, but I would stop to kiss, and do other things too.

— Do your parents already know that Sunee will be the future CEO?

— It seems so!

— What do you think they will do? Will they accept it easily?

— I don't know, and I hope they don't make trouble for my grandfather, or for Sunee! — I say and sigh. — So, you said we had something to celebrate, besides calling me every five minutes, so far you haven't told me anything!

— What an exaggeration! We have a lot to celebrate, the special episodes are a hit, our songs are a hit, we are a famous couple in Thailand. Isn't that something to celebrate?

— These are the reasons, but I would love to be able to assume that we are a real couple!

— Relax, we will soon do that!

— All right, but you seem to be hiding something from me, so tell me what it is? Are you going to propose this time? — I ask and he smiles.

— Not this time! If I were to ask you to marry me, it would have to be in a very special place, and in a very special way!

— Since you are not going to propose, I have something important to ask you! — I say, and he looks at me curiously.

— I also have something important to ask you!

— Then ask first, since you were full of mystery for me!

— No, why don't you speak first?

— Nate, this way we're going to spend the whole time! I know, why don't we talk at the same time?

— This is child's play, Will!

— What are we? Two children who have grown up!

— Silly.

— On three!

— Will.

— Stop this nonsense! 1, 2 e 3!

— Do you want to live with me? — we speak in unison.

— Was that your question, Will?

— Yes, I've been thinking about this for a while now. After all, we always live together, when we don't sleep together, you usually complain, and...

He looks at me with a debauched smile.

— Am I the only one who complains? Are you sure about that?

— Yeah, I think it's bad too! There is also the fact that I prefer to be here instead of going to the apartment, and you don't like going there either...

— It's not that I don't like it... I just find it impersonal, I don't feel comfortable, it doesn't feel like home! In that case, if we are going to live together, we can bring your things here today, what do you think?

— Oh Nate, not today! Shall we save it for tomorrow?

— That's fine. Tomorrow you bring your things here, and we'll turn this apartment into a...

Before he finishes his sentence, I conclude.

— Love Nest?

— I thought of the home of a happy couple!

— I prefer a love nest!

— And you say it like that? You don't even think about my feelings! - he exclaims in a false tone of sadness, I come closer and ruffle his hair, he pushes my hand away. — Stop it Will, you are very mean to me! You pay me!

— Only if it's in bed, preferably by making me moan your name... Do you accept?

[...]

I snuggle into him on the bed, and pull the quilt even tighter over me.

— Will, you're leaving me with nothing! — Nate complains, and I glare at him, using my innocent look and sly voice.

— Kitty, I'm cold!

— Who told you to stay a long time in that bathtub?

— I needed to relax! You want me to live with you, but you don't treat me right!

— The Sly Lord in action again?

— I'm not sly, I just like to be taken care of! — I say, and throw a little more of the quilt to his side, and grab him by the waist. — And you, being older, P'Nate, should take better care of your Nong, don't you think?

— How funny! Now, did you remember that I am older? — he says and strokes my face. — It's weird when you call me that, it's usually in front of people who don't really know us, or in interviews!

— What do you prefer to be called? Nate, Kitten, P'Nate or Daddy?

— Do you like to play with fire? — he asks and I let out a laugh. — You know, I was thinking about how our relationship has evolved, and how life has imitated art, and we are living like Thirasak and Wanchai, don't you think?

— What do you mean?

— Living together, doing everything together! Just like them, I want to live with you for a long time, Bunny! — he says, and I notice his eyes water. I pull my face closer to his, kiss his mouth lightly, and look up at him, and he smiles.

— Is my kitty excited? — I ask and he just shakes his head. — You know, I don't want to live a long time with you!

— What? — he asks me, startled.

— Together for a long time? I don't want to! — I say, and he stares at me, his mouth opening and closing, and seems to want to say something. — It may sound crazy, but I want forever, okay?

He smiles upon hearing my question, takes my mouth, and kisses me passionately. What we have said are promises of love between two men, or better, two boys who have given themselves body and soul to an immense feeling, overcoming so many things. Today, I am sure that I love him and want him by my side.

Always...