I am still angry with you

Will

I didn't know how to cry, that is, I was raised thinking that I couldn't shed a tear, and that it was synonymous with weakness for a man. However, I created so many uncertainties about my life, and I hid myself inside a tight closet, pretending to be someone I wasn't, to quiet my parents' hearts, and with that I lived stuck without being able to do what I really wanted to do, to be the real Will. The one who wanted to act, dance, cry, and love a man.

Almost three years ago I met a guy who helped me to change this story. I confess that it was not easy at all, and in the beginning I thought he was an arrogant, intimidating guy who had an image of a sexy straight boy who is always going out with thousands of girls, at least that's what I believed, however, the sexy straight boy fell in love with the real Will, the one who before couldn't cry. The two started to find out who they really were, what they felt for each other, and this feeling became intense for both of them.

Almost three years after we proposed, we are still more and more in love, although life together is not easy, because a relationship is not only made of good moments, even if Nate continues with the same as before, what really makes a relationship last is a coexistence full of dialogues, mutual respect, affection, and a series of factors that strengthen the love we feel.

In this period that we are together, so many things happened, except one, assuming our relationship. I always thought it could be something easy, after all, we are famous, we have a fandom that follows us and supports our actions, both together and separately, although there are still those who do not support any interaction of ours, but most of the fans support us, that's what matters. However, our manager believes that this would entail many problems, mainly because Nate has ventured into acting in series and movies, both in Thailand and abroad, and I have ventured into showbiz, as a host, and also sporadically act in productions that really arouse my curiosity, and desire to act.

This story of continuing to pretend that we are friends sometimes annoys me, especially when I see many people approaching both of us with some sexual or amorous interest. Not being able to expose what we live, what we feel, is unbearable, especially when I want to go out, travel with him, or post something on social networks, tag my boyfriend, and instead of calling him "love", or "kitten", I have to use slang, or terms that I would use if he were really just my friend.

Instantly I am snapped out of my thoughts when the makeup artist says something to me, which I barely hear, I look at her, who repeats once more "You can go now, Will!", as soon as I hear it, I shake my head, smile and stand up, walk to the dressing room door, open it, look out, and from one side of the hallway to the other. I step out and hear someone from production calling me further down the hall, and I walk towards the studio.

[...]

— So Will, what do you think of Nate's new work, have you been following it? — The presenter opens a big smile, and asks me one of the questions that I had expected, because in every TV show, or lives that I am invited to, there is always a question of this type.

— When I have time I follow? — I answer, but the truth is that I can't follow it, his character is a womanizer, he lives surrounded by women, and his possible relationship with the protagonist is terrible, and this definitely doesn't attract my attention.

— The two of you were seen last week leaving a club together, and it caused quite a stir in the fandom and the press... — and then we went to our house, and made love all night, and if I said that the fandom would go crazy, and the world would come crashing down.

— It is a normal thing, after all we are friends, and when we are photographed together, people start speculating whether we are working on some project, or creating theories about the two of us!

She smiles, and continues to ask.

— I think for the fandom it is always good to see you together, but when will we have the opportunity to see you acting together again?

— Do you say as a couple, or in the same project?

— As a couple, right? — she asks in the direction of the audience, who respond in unison with a "Yes".

— Soon you will be able to see it!

— Ah Will, give us a date? I think everyone here is curious to know...

— I think probably early next year, after Nate finishes his current job!

— Do you already have an idea of what the story will be like?

— I can't tell you much about it, but I am sure you will enjoy it!

[...]

It has been a tiring day, and coming home after a marathon of interviews, commercial shoots, is a moment of complete delight, and as soon as I park the car in the garage, get in the elevator, and count the minutes to get home. Over these almost three years we have bought an apartment, as the one Nate lived in seemed too small for the two of us and our pet daughter, and we eventually moved to a larger property that suits our needs.

I open the door, and cautiously enter, because from the pile of messages he has sent me, he must be home, and he is upset. According to him, I talked too much about our new project. As soon as I take my shoe off next to the door, I turn and face the large, well decorated, empty room, for, there is no sign of Amélie and Nate, if he is home, she must be glued to his side, and not even bothering to greet me. What an ungrateful daughter!

I walk through the living room until I am in front of the dining room and continue down the hall, silently, until I am in front of the bedroom door, which is ajar. I glance around, and see clothes strewn on the floor, the bathroom door open, and the sound of the shower. I open the door slightly so that she won't hear, and Judas jumps out of bed to greet me, I look at the floor and see the little ball of white hair rubbing against my pants, and I speak softly, looking into her blue eyes that are watching me

— Now you fake? It's like you only have one father... Fake!

I look like an idiot arguing alone with a cat, most of the time she only pays attention to him, and practically ignores me, and I'm the father who feeds her, who cleans up her mess, who cares for her, and she prefers him, I can't judge her either, if I'm crazy about him too. I reach down, and stroke her head. I smile, get up and walk to the bathroom, and find him in the shower. His expressions seem enigmatic, and I prefer to start. First I observe his beautiful wet body, and the water running through his hair.

— I know I said too much, but I don't think we can hide that we will once again act as a couple, everyone was already speculating this, so it's not first hand news!

— Our manager, and Lily's manager, are possessed with rage, because the internet is talking about nothing else, and it will be like that for the next few weeks. Dan said that with this news my possible ship with Lily will end, and Lakorn needed this to boost the audience...

— It's not my fault if Lily doesn't have charisma, after all, she has played with many actors and none of them ever succeeded, so...

— Will, you couldn't do that!

— Okay, I'm sorry! I didn't mean it...

— Didn't you do it because you didn't mean it? You don't even watch the Lakorn to support me, you don't comment on your social networks, you're not helping me engage!

— Nate, what do you want me to do? The story is bad, it's toxic, nobody wants to watch it, and besides, Lily is not a good actress, and the couple you make in this series is horrible, with no chemistry!

— Wow, how supportive my boyfriend is!

— It's true, and I told you not to embark on this idea, but you didn't listen and thought it would be a success!

— Is it the truth, or are you just dying of jealousy?

— Me? Jealous of you? Stop being cocky, Nate!

— You are jealous, yes!

— I am not jealous, and I warned you about this project, but you insisted because you listened to our manager.

— I know, but it would be a great opportunity to be in prime time on broadcast TV, and...

— We got more audience when we acted in Fake D8, it was not in prime time, and...

— What do you mean, Will?

— I mean that when there is chemistry between a main couple, and a story is well developed, they may be in a time slot that normally no one would watch, but they end up winning the audience, the internet, and the audience goes up like a rocket, and that was the case for us and for so many other artists who made success with their ships!

— I know that, but I believe that you could help me and give engagement to the series, and what do you do? You go and say that we are going to make a couple again next year, is that how you help me?

— Kitten, I'm sorry if I got in your way! - I speak in a sly voice, which makes him a little upset.

— There's no use in playing your seduction game, Will! — he says and turns his back to me, while his body is exposed to me, I take mine to his back, caress him and ask.

— Can I take a shower with you?

— No," he says, and I step away, take off all my clothes, get into the shower stall, and close the door behind me. Nate turns and stares at me, and snorts in anger. — I said no!

— Fine, but that doesn't stop me from taking my bath!

— Okay, take your bath there! — he says and turns his back to me once more, and I wrap my arms around his waist and kiss his neck.

— You are too stubborn!

— You like my stubbornness, Nate!

— Please don't start!

— That's right, if I wasn't stubborn, we wouldn't be together today!

— I know, but I'm still angry with you!

— I didn't do anything too much, I just said that we will work together again, I didn't give any details, I didn't say anything more than that! — I speak and kiss his neck lightly, and bring my mouth close to his ear and use my sly voice to convince him. — I miss my Kitty!

— That's foul play, you know I can't resist your sly voice by my ear!

[...]

With every movement he makes inside me, I moan and feel like I'm going to explode with pleasure. His kisses are intense, his hands squeeze my thighs, and my moans come uncontrollably. He comes out of me, stands up, sits beside me, taps his leg and says "Come," and I immediately respond to his request, sit on his lap and help him fit inside me, my movements begin slowly, while he takes it upon himself to kiss my neck, and I simply melt into even more moans. He brings his mouth close to my ear.

— I love it when you moan like that, Bunny! — he says and kisses my mouth lightly, stroking my cock with intensity, while moving faster.

He decides to command the movements, I feel like I'm going to disintegrate, the pleasure consumes my body, and my moans come out more desperate, until Nate says "I can't stand it, I'm going to come!", and as soon as he says it, I surrender along with him, our moans form a single sound, and I squeeze him even tighter, as if I don't want to move away ever again, or stop this moment, it's a surrender between two fools in love.

[...]

He clings to my waist as I stroke his hair, looks up at me and smiles.

— I missed you!

— Do you miss me? — I ask, but I know that we have been away from each other for five days, due to the recording of his current work.

— Yes, I miss talking to you, kissing you, and having you. — says and kisses my mouth softly, looks at me with such intensity, and smiles. — To hear your moans, while we do...

— I know you love it, and so do I... — I say and return the kiss with more intensity, stop and speak again. — Changing the subject, will you come with me?

— Are you asking about the beach?

— Yes, I want to know if you are coming, because everyone is waiting for us to confirm!

— Baby, I told you that I'm going away the same week that you arranged with your sisters, I have tapings of the series, and I would be very tired if I went with you!

— I know it may sound selfish of me, but I so wanted to spend a few days at the beach with you!

— I wanted to too, but work calls, and I promise that when I get back we'll miss each other! — he exclaims, and kisses me again, he seems to want to deepen the kiss, his phone rings.

He stops the kiss, and I say

— No answer, kitten!

— I have to take this, I'm waiting for Dan's call about the Valentine's Day event...

Nate moves away from me, sits down on the bed, and reaches out to grab the phone from the side table. He picks up the phone, answers.

— Hi P'Dan, what's the news about the Valentine's Day event? — he asks, and listens carefully, but his eyes widen when P'Dan says something that seems to startle him on the other end of the line. — What? What do you mean I have to pretend to date Lily?