13 - DEAD HEARTS
-SAGE-
I wince as a burning smell takes over my senses. Rubbing my eyes with the back of my hand, I open them slowly to find myself in a hospital room.
Oh shit. I'm alive.
" Sage."
I whimper at his loud voice, he was sitting near the bed with my hand in his. Shawn's eyes were puffy and his face was extremely pale.
Guilt hit me like a tsunami. I am the reason he is suffering. If I just wasn't here then probably things would have been better.
" Shawn." I whisper.
He jumps up from his seat and engulfs me into a tight hug. I rub his back slowly as he cries loudly like a baby.
" I thought you'll leave me . . . just like mumma did." he sobs loudly with hiccups.
" I . . . sorry." I whisper not knowing what else to say.
" I would have died if something had happened to you." he sobs.
" I'm fine now." I mumble as he cups my face, peppering it with small kisses.
" I nearly died for a moment, Sage." he whispers resting his face on my shoulder.
" If we were twenty minutes late, we would have lost you." Elliot, who silently came in growls at me.
" Sorry." I whisper.
" Sorry won't help it, Sage. Promise me and promise your brother who acted like a maniac the moment he saw you with all that blood, that you won't try this stunt ever again." he grumbles kissing my knuckles.
" I promise." I whisper.
Well, promises are made to be broken. I won't be the first person to do that. I rub my wrist gently, there was a white cotton gauze wrapped around it.
" Where are the others ?" I ask as they frown.
" Josephine was here during visiting hours and others are busy in the preparation for the party tomorrow." Elliot winces.
" They didn't come ?" I inhaled a lungful of air staring at their face.
Was I not worth their time ? Am I that useless ? Was I not even worth a day in their lives ?
" Sage, they all are busy or I'm sure they would have been here." Shawn tries to out a small smile on his face but fails.
" Yeah." I whisper.
" Since you're awake, I'll go call the doctor and then we'll go home." Elliot chirps walking out of the room.
I rest my head on Shawn’s shoulder, closing them in fatigue. The physical pain wasn't there but the emotional one to not see my family members by my side broke a huge part of me.
Who am I talking about ? I'm broken anyway. No one cares about me because I'm broken, I'm tainted, I'm dirty, I'm a sl*t, I'm a disgrace, I'm horrible, I'm pathetic, I'm not worth anyone's time or love.
My eyes flutter open again, my head was heavy with a throbbing pain and someone was stroking my back gently.
" Thank god she is safe." Elliot's voice sounds. Shawn hums in response rocking me back and forth on his lap gently.
Elliot was driving the car while talking as Shawn kept humming at everything.
" I can't believe out of all people, Enrique acted the most craziest." Elliot grumbles.
Shawn hums again but yet, there was a hint of anger even in his humming.
" I mean, he actually acted as if he cared for Sage. Saw the way he was yelling at everyone ? He is such a great actor." Elliot scoffs.
" Or maybe he does." Shawn mutters breaking the silence-fast he was practicing.
" Excuse me ?" Elliot growls.
" That man left our Sage when she was dying. It took him ten minutes just after hearing the doctor to decide that he doesn't want our Sage anymore." Elliot yells.
" I know but isn't it weird that the love of so many years broke in just ten minutes? I mean, if he was just acting then it would have faded in just a few months but their relationship lasted so many years. I find it difficult to believe that he actually did that." Shawn sighs.
" Even yesterday when he saw Sage, covered up in all that blood. I saw the real Enrique in him, he was yelling and pulling his hair, he was screaming at everyone not to forget that his eyes were teary." Shawn says as Elliot groans.
" Maybe he was just acting, Shawn. Enrique is an as*hole. If he loved Sage so much then why did he leave in the first place ?" Elliot huffs.
" I don't know and honestly, I don't want to know that either. All I'm happy about is that my baby sister is safe and sound in my lap and that's all I always ask for. I don't care about Enrique or his reasons, I'm never letting him near my sister again." Shawn says cuddling me tightly as if I was a teddy bear.
I pretend to wake up by yawning and stretching my arms to put their talk to an end. I didn't want to hear more about Enrique, it just hurt my heart more and more.
" Hey baby," Shawn mutters.
'' Are we home ?" I whisper placing my head on his chest.
" Nearly." Elliot smiles.
Back home, there was another scene going on. The whole mansion was decorated heavily with flowers and lights and so much more. I wince as I felt thorns piercing my heart upon seeing each of the flowers decorated for them.
" You want me to drop you off at your room ?" Shawn mumbles holding my hand in his.
" No, I'll go," I whisper running up the stairs.
All I wanted to do right now was to get under the covers on my bed and cry myself to sleep. I was already too disappointed that I'm alive, Shawn and Elliot can't be running after me every time, I'm ruining everyone's life with my useless self!
I wipe my tears trying to open my room's door when Enrique's door opens, shockingly instead of Enrique or Ethan, it was Sabrina walking out.
In only a wrinkled white shirt, scattered hair, and a lazy smile on her face.
Sabrina was in Enrique's room, with messed up hair and a wrinkled shirt!
