14 - DON'T LEAVE ME

-SAGE-

'' Sabrina ?" I gasp when she turns towards me.

" Oh my God, Sage you're back ?" she smiles.

" I was so worried for you." she says sadly.

I nod at her but the bunch of hickeys on her neck made me lose my sanity . . . again.

" Not so worried enough to visit me ? But it's alright, I see you're too busy." I let out a little chuckle though my heart was screaming in pain.

" Why are you being so bitter ?" she snaps angrily.

" I'm being bitter ? Your little sister was admitted in the hospital and you couldn't take time out to visit her. Instead you were busy fucking Enrique who. . ." I trail off sobbing as she glares at me.

" First of all, you were in the hospital because of your own deeds. Who told you to slit your fucking wrists, huh ? I did ? No! Secondly, who is Enrique to you that you're crying so much about it ? I just told you yesterday to let him go and move on but your retarded mind doesn't even get that right." she yells.

My knees began trembling as I saw my elder sister who I always thought of my second mom become someone I didn't even recognize. There was fire and jealously in her eyes and I couldn't understand why she would be jealous of me.

" What's going on ?" Enrique walks out in only his jeans, frowning at Sabrina but his eyes widen upon seeing me.

" Sage is accusing me for stupid things." Sabrina yells.

" Seriously, Sage ? The house was quiet and peaceful for two days until you decided to come." she spats.

" Sabrina, why are you talking like this to me ?" I sob.

I didn't want anything more except Shawn, Elliot, Sabrina and Enrique. They were the ones I confined myself with and dying seemed a better option than bearing their hate right now.

" Why am I talking like this to you ? You always go around complaining that you're so unlucky but truth is that you're a lying b*tch. Yesterday too, you did it all to gain attention and postpone our engagement. I know it all, Sage. Shawn loves you so much that he runs after you like a puppy without caring about me. Elliot is head over heels in love with you. Elena, my bestie keeps blaming herself for all this all the damn time. Everyone runs after you and yet all that attention is not enough for you ?" she screams pushing me back by my shoulder.

" I didn’t do this for attention and . . . and Elliot doesn't love me. He has a girlfriend." I sob as she scoffs.

" You're lying, Sage. You know it all but yet you pretend to be the innocent one." she scoffs.

" Sabrina that's enough. She isn't well." Enrique mumbles trying to push her away.

" Let me speak, Enrique. She has everyone wrapped around her pinky even you." Sabrina yells as Enrique growls.

" Tell me Enrique, why were you sobbing her name in your sleep last night, huh ? Why did you moan her name today when your c*ck was deep inside me ?" she yells.

" Sabrina enough." I yell sobbing at her crude language, as I hit my fist on my room's door trying to open it up.

" No Sage, listen to the truth. His c*ck was inside me just like it used to be inside you." she smirks. I pull my hair slowly sliding down on my floor wailing in pain.

It felt as if someone had pulled my heart out just from my chest. Enrique slaps Sabrina, an echo sounds in the empty halls as Sabrina sobs in pain.

" Saw that ? My fiance slapped me because of you." she screams.

" Stop. Mumma would not like this." I whisper pulling my knees up to my chest.

'' Know what she won't like more ? You ! She would be so disappointed in you, Sage. Look at you, you're so dirty and disgusting. She would hate you for what all you have done if she was alive." Sabrina yells.

"I hate you Sage. You're a bloody attention seeker. You take everyone's love and attention and there is nothing left for me. Just wait, you nasty b*tch, wait till Enrique marries me then I'll teach you who I really am." she yells stomping away from us.

I sob trying to calm my shaking body as her words repeat in my head like a broken tape.

Would mumma be disappointed in me ?

Am I really that dirty and disgusting ?

Am I only an attention seeker ?

" Sage, get up." Enrique mutters trying to pull me up from the floor.

" I didn't." I whisper.

He nods gently, pulling me to his chest. Enrique pulls me up into bridal style and walks in his room. My hands shook as I clutched his shoulders tightly.

" I didn't." I keep chanting as he keeps nodding.

" I know." he whispers.

" Sabby hates me ?" I whisper.

Was it a question or a statement, I didn't know but my heart really wanted someone to deny that.

" She is just jealous and tired of all this. She'll be fine soon." he whispers putting me down on the bed.

" After you marry her ?" I mumble.

" No. You want water ?" he asks gently.

I shake my head holding his hand in mine.

" Dont marry her, Enrique." I whisper.

He sighs staring down at where I was holding his hand.

" Sage, why don't you sleep ? You seem tired." he mumbles but I shake my head rapidly.

" No. Listen to me Enrique please, I . . . I love you. I know I'm not the very best for you but I love you with all my heart, I've always loved you." I sob as he strokes my cheek gently.

" Sage, please." he whispers.

" Enrique, please don't push me away. I'll be better for you, I'll dress up better for you, I'll be beautiful for you, I'll correct my every flaw just don't push me away." I whisper as he shakes his head trying to stop me.

" You can beat me, Enrique. Beat me, slap me, punch me, yell at me, do all you want but just . . . don't leave me." I sob cupping his face in my small hands.

" I'll do everything you like but please don't do this. I'll even . . . I'll pleasure you if you like." I sob getting on my knees.

I try to unbutton his jeans when he takes a step back, his eyes were teary as he looked down at me.

" Don't make it more difficult for me than it already is, love." he whispers picking me up, placing me on the bed.

" Enrique please, I'll do everything you like. I'll be good in bed, I'll do everything you want me to just don't g-"

" Sshhh , enough little one." he whispers placing his finger on my lips.

" Sleep, Sage." he mumbles pushing me down on the bed.

" Please, just." I sob as he gets in. He pulls me on top of him, placing my head on his chest.

I sob on his chest as he hushes me slowly, caressing my hair.

" Sleep Sage, sleep my little baby." he whispers stroking my back.