18 - FATAL THRILL

-SAGE-

I stared at Hades while chewing on the last piece of gummy worm he had brought for me.

He was funny, caring, and undoubtedly handsome but something was off. Something kept nagging my heart telling me he wasn't a good idea.

Was it fear or embarrassment? I'm feeling weird that after years of being kicked around and rejected, someone is finally accepting me.

The crude words, the bad names, the disgusting jokes people play on me got quite normal, I got used to them but being treated like Hades treats me feels foreign.

I know Shawn loves me a lot and probably Sabrina and my father too but the love which I expected from Enrique was missing. Enrique's absence in the darkest part of my life broke something even my rapists couldn't do. And now, Hades is filling that space up. Completing me.

I wince holding the sleeve of Hades' coat tightly as Shawn and dad scream at each other.

" You can't do this," Shawn yells.

" Don't teach me what to do." Dad was outraged.

" I won't allow my sister to marry him. He's a fucking mafia boss, he is a murderer and you're making my Sage marry him." Shawn growled.

" That's what's right for her," Dad growled.

" It isn't," Shawn argued.

" Listen, brother-in-law." Hades stood up, walking casually up to Shawn.

" I'm a mob boss and I haven't got this position by playing 'snake and ladder'. I know how to play with danger." Hades winks at Shawn causing him to growl.

" I think, Hades isn't right for Sage. We'll find someone better for her." Enrique yells raising his hand.

" Like me," Elliot yells.

What?

" Yeah, I mean I can marry Sage. At least I'm better than his mob boss." Elliot rolls his eyes at Hades.

Hades lets out a little growl before he pulls me up from the couch and pulls my body close to his.

" I licked her first so she's mine." Hades smiles licking my cheek.

" What are you? Four years old ?" Elliot screams angrily.

" Whatever, I don't like arguing over things which I know I'm right about." Hades rolls his eyes as Elliot's face goes all red in anger.

" You are a motherfucker." Shawn growls.

" Thank you, my pleasure." Hades smiles.

" I think Hades is not correct for Sage." Sabrina raises her hand this time.

There we go again!

" I mean, Sage can marry Elliot and Elena can marry Hades. She likes him." Sabrina shrugs.

" Excuse me? What're you all trying to do? I'm here to marry this girl not get her married to someone else and marry a bimbo myself." Hades growls at Sabrina totally pissed off.

" Don't talk to her that way." Enrique roars.

So it doesn't matter to you when dad beats me in front of the whole family but it hurts when someone talks rudely to Sabrina.

" Shut the fuck up, gay." Hades growls pointing at Enrique.

" I'm straight as a pole, asshole," Enrique growls.

" Which pole? The pole your grandmother strips on ?" Hades winks at him.

" Listen to me, Jared," Hades growls at my dad.

" I don't care how you'll fix this but I want my engagement to be held tomorrow. My family is coming tomorrow for my engagement and if you disappoint me, I'll chop your dick off." Hades growls as dad fearfully nods.

" Please don't talk to my daddy like that," I whispered looking up at Hades.

Anger vanishes from his face as he chuckles, pulling me close to him.

" I'm sorry, my queen," he whispers kissing my nose.

" Will you make me the luckiest man on earth tomorrow by putting a ring on my finger ?" he whispers cupping my face.

" I-I." I stutter.

I can't do this. I know that a part of my heart will always belong to Enrique and no matter what I do, I can't bring it to love someone else.

Yes, Enrique left me. Yes, Enrique moved on. Yes, Enrique forgot everything about us but not me. I worshipped him. I gave him everything I had from my heart to my mind to my body, everything I had, I gave it to him and it isn't easy for me to just pick myself up and move on with someone else.

I sobbed on Hades' chest, peeking glances at Enrique but it burnt my heart to see him consoling a sobbing Sabrina. His arm was around her waist as he stroked her face.

No! What am I doing? This man doesn't even care about me and I'm giving up someone like Hades for him.

My mind begins to roll over the memories in which Enrique chose Sabrina over me. He left me when I needed him, he slept with my sister, he even agreed to marry her.

He doesn't even love me . . .

" Do you . . . do you love me ?" I whispered looking up at Hades.

" I love you more than the cookie monster loves cookies," Hades whispers cupping my cheeks.

A sob escapes my lips as I look at Enrique. His eyes held pain but mine held fire, fire for revenge. I saw the same pain in his eyes that I felt when he said yes to marry Sabrina. I knew this was wrong but my body was enjoying it, my body was enjoying the pain I was inflicting on him. I liked the pain he was in, it thrilled me to pay him back with the same dish he served me cold.

Take that Enrique motherfucking Princeton!

I wrap my arms around Hades' neck pulling me towards me before I plaster my lips on his. Hades immediately responds, wrapping his arms around my waist as his tongue battles with mine. I moan in his arms as his tongue massages the corners of my mouth.

I felt goosebumps break across my skin when he slid his fingers into my wet hair, massaging my scalp turning my nerves on as I moaned uncontrollably in his arms.

I panted heavily as we broke the kiss. Hades chuckled before pulling me into a kiss again before we broke apart.

A part of me felt free, a part of me felt careless. I didn't care what Enrique thought about me. If he thinks I'm a whore then I don't mind showing him how a whore plays.

" So is that a yes ?" Hades chuckles.

" Of course, dummy." I giggle.

" I'm not a dummy." he growls.

" Or maybe I am . . . just for you," he whispers pecking my lips.

" Okay, Jared. I'll see you tomorrow afternoon with my family. Good ?" Hades goes back to his strict voice as my dad nods.

" I'll see you tomorrow, darling. And yes, I'll send a gown for you for tomorrow evening." he smiles kissing my forehead.

" Bye," I whisper nodding.

" Bye, love. Here's my number, call me whenever you need," he whispers slipping a card into my hand.

Hades smiles proudly at everyone as he walks out of the mansion. I look back to see everyone looking at me with wide eyes except Shawn who really looked sad.

I walk up to him, sitting beside him on the couch when he places his head on the crook of my neck sobbing softly.

" You did this to get back to Enrique, didn't you ?" Sabrina yelled glaring at me.

" So? What if I did? Did I harm you in any way? You're angry that Hades denied marrying Elena, aren't you? You have a problem when I love Enrique, you have a problem when Hades loves me, what do you want Sabrina ?" I growl at her as she looks at me with wide eyes.

" He came to marry me and he will. Stop treating me like a degraded item because I'm not." I scream at her finding adrenaline pump into my veins.

Hades Romano is lethal for me. Just two kisses with him and I'm already killing people with my words.

" Sage, mind your words in front of your sister," Dad yelled.

" Leave my sister alone." Shawn roared as everyone calmed down.

" Do you really want to marry him ?" Shawn whispers holding my hands into his.

" Shawn," I whisper sadly.

" If you're doing this just for revenge then drop it, Sage. It isn't a good idea. And if you really want to marry him then I don't have a problem with him." Shawn shrugs.

Maybe, I'm doing this for revenge but I like Hades too. I'm sure Hades being Hades will have me falling for him before our wedding and I don't see an issue in it. I'll only get over Enrique when I step ahead of him and maybe Hades is the new step.

Go for it, Sage.

" I really want to marry him," I whisper.

" Good, he is a good choice." Shawn chuckles hugging me.

" Sort everything up. I don't want any drama tomorrow." Dad growls before he walks out of the room.

Josephine and Mr. Princeton give me hugs and congratulate me before they also go to their rooms.

" Congrats Sage. I'm happy for you." Elena mumbles hugging me.

" Thank you, Elena and I'm sorry," I mutter.

" Oh don't worry sweetie, I just had a crush on him. You know, every girl falls for a bad mafia boy but he only loves that one angel which is you." Elena giggles patting my shoulder.

" Thank you," I mumble hugging her again.

Elena was the type of sister Sabrina once was but God knows which witch is dancing on her brain all the time now.

" You're not worth it Sage and I'm sure Hades will realize it too." Sabrina spats at me.

" What's wrong, Sabby ? Why can't you be happy for me ?" I whisper sadly as she scoffs.

" I don't want to be happy for a dirty blood like you," she growls.

" What did you say?" I whisper as tears prick into my eyes.

How could she say this to me? We're siblings and yet she says this to me.

" Sabrina." Shawn roared.

" Fine," she yelled stomping out of the room.

" What's wrong with her?" I whisper.

" She's a crackhead." Shawn shrugs.

" Where's Elliot ?" I mumble not seeing him anywhere.

" He might be outside. I'll go check on him, you go to bed, okay ?" Shawn mumbles patting my cheeks.

" Yeah." I whisper when he leans in kissing my nose.

" I'll come later to read you a bedtime story." he winks at me before running outside.

I turn around to see Enrique standing there looking at me with teary eyes. He glares at me as I smile walking up to him.

" Does it hurt ?" I whisper rubbing his chest with my pointy finger.

He doesn't reply, instead just stares at me.

" Good because it should," I mumble.

" You're going on the wrong way, Sage. You'll regret it. You're burning yourself too in the fire of revenge." Enrique growls.

" Thank you, Enrique. I won't use your opinion either way but thank you for it, though." I smile making my way up to my room leaving him all alone there like he always leaves me.

I sigh sadly closing the door of my room as a few tears escape my eyes. I know I'm wrong but I want to do this. I love the thrill that seeps into my veins every time I see the pain in Enrique's eyes. I love the power I feel when Hades is beside me.

My father, the man who beats me like I'm a cotton doll acts like an obedient puppy in front of Hades. Hades, the man who loves me keeps the world below his shoes so why not? Why not enjoy the power and thrill he gives me instead of rotting in the low self-esteem I've had for the last two years.

Hades awakes the Sage who was killed two years ago and I love that Sage. I want her to live and to make Enrique motherfucking Princeton regrets everything he has done.

Just hope this doesn't get me to a point where I have to regret it instead of him. Hopefully, this doesn't kill me instead of killing his ego.

Hope this thrill isn't fatal for me.