Twelve

"I know all of this is fucked up because you're my fucking step sister. I shouldn't want you or fell attracted to you but I can't help it Genie" His eyes are no longer gentle. "I know you don't feel the same way but I need to get the words out now"

"Why?" My voice is a little quiver.

"Why what?" He asked

"Why are you telling me all of this now?" I repeat. I'm confused and feeling sick right now. "Why did you have to tell me all these Ryder?"

"Because that's the way I feel" his voice is calm.

"I thought you hated me"

He laughs. "You believed that?"

"I've never been myself around you Genie. You turns me on so fucking badly that I hated you. I hated the fact that you get to me and makes me feel in the way I've never felt before"

I'm stunned into silence by the new revelation. The guy who had made my life a complete hell is actually attracted to me.

"Since when?" I couldn't help but ask the one question that has been on mind since he started all of these. Did he woke up today and decide to take an interesting him. If this is a play, he better stop now.

"Since the day I set my eyes on you"

What? My head is spinning and I couldn't think well. I feel like I would pass out any moment.

"That's impossible. I clearly remember the words you said to me the first time"

He had clearly told me he'll ruin my life which he did. For no reason he picked up on me for three solid years. Everyone in school avoided me like a plague. He ruined me. He ruined the future I ought to have.

He nodded his head in agreement meaning he remembered what he said. "That was because I was fucked up okay. I hated a lot of people, hell I didn't even have friends. But when I saw you, you moved something in me and I hated the way I feel anytime I see you in class." He said gruffly.

"I even stopped coming to class because of that. I was afraid I'll see you had so something stupid. I wanted to keep you away from me and that's why I started to act mean"

I remained silent as if Ryder didn't just drop a bomb right in my face. I felt the urge to push him away and tell him he's sick. I want to snark him hard on the chest for saying something so unlawful. I want to wake up to the beautiful sunset and realize it's all a dream. I want him to laugh and say it's a prank.

"Say something please" he whispered.

"You can't mean that" I say taking a step away from him and raising my palm up to put some space between us.

"You don't understand what you're saying. You're my fucking stepbrother for heavens sake" I said raising my voice.

"You're not my sister. We aren't siblings Genie" he takes a step closer. "And who do you think care about these things?"

"But I do" I say, finally losing my calm. "you can't just throw it out like that on my face about your feeling and expect me to do nothing"

" If you love me you wouldn't have bullied me. If you had whatever feeling you had for me from the start you wouldn't have started those rumours about me. For years Ryder. Three fucking years."

"Genie, I.." he reaches out to me but I pulled away before his hand can touch me.

"No Ryder, let me finish speaking" I say. "I had no friends and even had to choose a school that is thousands of miles away from my mom just to get the hell away from you." I finally say feeling rage all over my body.

"Look, I can't take back what I did okay. I can only amend what I have right now and prepare for a better future." The look on his face tells me to believe him.

"But … you're my Stepbrother" I managed to say finally.

"Fuck! Who makes up these bullshit rules ugh. I'm not your god-damned brother." He shouts. He takes a deep breath then exhales. He runs his tongue over his bottom lip then lowers his voice again. "We're not related. Besides we didn't find out about this stepsiblings relationship until a month ago. I didn't even see you as a sister. You were just some girl I hated because of the way she makes me feel. "

He waited for a while waiting for me to speak up but I didn't. It felt like my tongue was tied. " I've said what I needed to say and now you know what I think of you. You didn't need to feel the same or do anything. I only call you out here to make get my feelings out" with that he storms past me while I watch as he descends the stairs. I waited until his back fades into distance.

Once again I feel good of emotion.

Empty.

Defeated

Devasted

I felt like I'm in the center of the world. He can't just say he likes me and leave like that. Gathering all of the strength in me I ran after him. I ran two steps below before I finally sighted him.

"Ryder wait!" I shouted. My breath coming in gasps. He turned and looked up then stopped.

I couldn't read the expression on his face. He only stands there not saying anything. His shoulder rising in a sync as he watches me descends the stairs.

"What now?" He ashed breaking the lingering silence between us.

"Can you kiss me?" My question took him by surprise. I'm also taken aback myself by my sudden request. I didn't know what I was thinking, it was like some spirit possess me. My head won't stop spinning and the only thing my mind could think of right now is the feeling of his lips against mine.

"What?" He asked his mouth hanging open.

"Just distract me" I say but it came out as a plead.

"No, Genie I won't just be a fucking distraction…." I didn't let him finish before I claim his mouth. As my lips touch Ryder's lip, I felt a sharp intake of breath. I have no idea of what I am doing but I can't stop. He takes some seconds before he finally kiss me back. His warm tongue runs along mine in a perfect sync. I can feel the metal from his lip in the corner of my mouth. At one point, I rubbed my tongue gently around the ring on his lip as he closed his eyes. He moaned gently into my mouth. My mind is no longer thinking and I feel my whole body ignites by this sudden sensation. Without thinking my hand went around his neck pulling him harder against my chest while my fingers find their way into his perfectly curled air.

He kiss me with so much passion and my heart starts to race, my moans against his lips matched perfectly with his groans against mine. I pushed my body into his and felt his erection press against me. I didn’t care about any of the consequences in that moment. I only want to feel in the moment.

We were so lost in the moment that we didn't hear someone climb up the stairs. Ryder's heard her before me as he pushes me away from him suddenly. I whimper at the sudden lost of his lips and was about to ask why he stopped abruptly when I heard her voice.

"Oh my God!"

Shit!