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Crispin's POV

The rest of dinner went smoothly, the conversation flowed effortlessly. Of course, there was the awkward and thick tension between us and Carter. I found myself looking over at him hoping to get something from him. But I knew that wasn't our relationship anymore. And this tension between us was going to be there forever.

But it's something I am going to have to get over. But not for a very long time.

I spent a lot of time getting to know Koa and Tino and I can see why Dieter and him get along so well. Dieter and Koa were similar in many ways. And Tino, well he was a ball of goofiness and jokes. I truly don't think I've ever laughed that hard before.

At first, I wondered how the dynamic between Koa and Tino could be possible. They seemed opposite of each other. But the way Koa seems to calm him down, and Tino brings out the soft side of Koa. It made sense. They were truly perfect for each other.

They only briefly shared a bit of their past and how their relationship blossomed. It was evident in what they did share that they had gone through much adversity. It made me look at them in a different light. And I could only hope that one day, once all of this is past us. Dieter and I can be in a place where we can be carefree and in love like them. Though for me, I have one of those done already.

It took time, but I am in love with Dieter. I am.

I should have realized that the moment I knew I was choosing him over Carter.

Only love can make you do such a thing.

But now it was more so did he love me?

It felt like he loved me, he did things that showed that he loved me. But it was still hard to gauge. Plus I never thought I'd be one to say I love you first. Yes, ridiculous. But I had always hoped that my mate would plan something big and romantic and profess their love for me that way.

I watch too many movies.

Knowing Dieter, I would have to say it first.

Now all there is left to do is figure out, when and how. I of course want to tell him before I tell him I'm pregnant. In the chance that he does feel the same, I would think he is only saying it because I am carrying his pup. Though I know it has to be soon. Within the next few weeks, I would start to show. Since werewolf pregnancies are only six months and I'm already a month in. Which is already wild to think about.

I hope Dieter isn't pissed I didn't tell him.

"You're in deep thought." Dieter chuckled as he dried his hair with a towel and he had his pajama bottoms on. I didn't even notice that he had come out.

"Sorry, I was--just--" I could barely gather my thoughts as he turned around and I saw just how good his ass looked.

Suddenly I couldn't remember what I was thinking before. All I knew was that I wanted to bend him over and feel his round cheeks in my hands.

When was the last time I even did that?

I wracked my brain and as I went back and thought about our past encounters, my dick twitched in my shorts. The memory of me riding him, the time in the courts, and even before then. I guess it's been a while since I've had my way with him.

I've got to fix that.

"Hello, earth to Crispin." Dieter laughed as he leaned over the end of the bed. Using his arms to hold him up.

His slightly wet hair was still sticking to his face, and his chest was glistening from the lotion he had put on. His eyes were slightly hooded which indicated that he was tired, but they were borderline as fuck me eyes. He looked fucking delicious.

Focus Crispin. Focus.

"Hi," I breathed out. Trying to stop my lust-filled gaze. But it was incredibly hard. I wondered if this heavy need to be with your mate would somehow fade over time. I doubt it.

"Well, hello." He spoke with a smirk on his face.

"What were you saying? I promise I will listen this time."

"All I said was it feels like things are becoming good for us. Slowly but surely, I feel we are finding ourselves in a great place. That's all."

I couldn't help but agree. Things were finally falling into place for us. We took our time getting to know each other, really learning and accepting things and the parts of ourselves that we hid. If I want Dieter then I have to want everything that comes with him. And these past few days I've learned to accept and...love those parts of him.

"Do you feel we slightly bombarded our friends?" I asked as the recollection of the day came back.

"What do you mean?" Dieter stood to his feet and crossed his arms over his chest. I had to quickly look away before I got sidetracked again.

"We could have discussed before asking them to be you know standing. That is a big responsibility, we should have asked them separately and made it a thing." I shrugged leaning deeper into the bed.

"A thing?" Dieter teased with a smirk.

"A ceremony of some sort."

"That seems a bit dramatic does it not?" Dieter then decided that it was the best time to crawl into the bed and position himself to where he was hovering over me.

"No, I don't. So we will have to do something for them." Dieter just hummed in agreement as he looked me over. He took his bottom lip between his teeth and he bit on it. Causing my dick to wake up again.

"No, no!" I pushed him off of me and he hit the other side of the bed with a bounce.

"What?" He laughed as I moved from underneath the blanket to look at him.

"I know that look. And you're not topping me again." I pointed my finger at him and of course, Dieter leaned forward and tried to bite it.

"Crispin--"

"No, Dieter. You've topped me more than I have you. You're depriving me. And that's not fair." I'm sure my face held a slight pout as I looked at him.

"That's not my fault." He moved his hand and positioned it behind his head, unintentionally flexing his bicep.

"Then who's is it?"

"Yours," Dieter said with a giant smile, which took me aback slightly.

"How?"

"You just haven't been in your dominant energy. That's all." He shrugged as if telling me this was no big deal. But my not being in my dominant energy was a change for me. And something I don't think hasn't happened before. Until now.

"Well, this is quite embarrassing," I murmured and moved to lie down beside him. My face inches from his. Dieter let out a heavy laugh as he looked over at me. Goddess, he was handsome.

He leaned over and wrapped his arm around my torso. I tensed hoping he wouldn't notice the ever-present small roundness of my stomach. If he does he doesn't say anything. He just stares at me with a goofy smile and he starts to lean over to kiss me. But right as he is about to press his lips to mine, I let out the wettest, loudest burp in my life.

My eyes went wide as I realized I accidentally burped in his face. I waited for a response with a look of disgust something. But all Dieter did was laugh even harder.

"I'm sorry." I tried to hide my chuckle but a few slipped out.

"Goddess I love you." The words slipped out of his mouth so easily, that to another ear it would have sounded like we had said those words to each other numerous times. But no. I was stuck in place. Stilled with emotion. For a moment I thought I would see some panic in his eyes but no. He looked at me and there was nothing but truth and love in them.

Dieter loved me.

"Say it again." I breathed out. I found it very hard to find words at this moment. He rolled over to his side to where he was now fully facing me. He moved his hand to cup my face and stroked his thumb across my cheek.

"I love you, Crispin Jafir. I always will." My eyes began to water with overwhelming feeling. His words curled around me in a way that was so comforting. It buzzed through my veins and made me want to roll over and bathe in it.

"I love you, Dieter Romanoff."

I leaned forward and smashed my lips to his in a bruising kiss. So much love flowed between us and in this kiss that it was drowning out any and everything else I could be feeling right now. My hands found their way to his hair and I pulled and yanked as we continued to devour each other. I rolled us over to where Dieter was straddling me and I was lying flat.

I moved my hands to his waist as Dieter put his full weight on me. The kiss was hot and every nerve ending in my body woke up and was begging to be put out.

I moved my hands down to where I was now gripping his ass. I was inwardly thanking the goddess for him wearing thin pajama pants. I could feel his excitement against my stomach and I was also erect and alive. Dieter moved to where his ass sat perfectly on top of my dick and I let out a soft groan.

Getting fucked is amazing.

But nothing is as wonderful as a tight hole.

And I desperately needed a reminder of how good it feels.

Dieter pulled away from my lips and began kissing up and down my throat. Taking his time to suck and bite on certain parts. I couldn't help myself as I moved my hands underneath his bottoms and was happy to find out he wasn't wearing any boxers.

I palmed his cheeks and gave it a firm squeeze and Dieter let out a gentle groan that vibrated my neck.

Soon we were both a panting mess, both needing more than heavy kissing and squeezing. Dieter rutted against me, grinding himself on my dick. I could feel the precum leaking from me as he did. With every movement, my fingers drifted closer and closer to his hole. I moved my pointer finger and I brushed over it. He let out a deep moan just at the faint touch and wanted to fill me.

"I want this hole," I whispered against his lips. I circled my finger against it which caused him to move against me faster.

"Then take it," Dieter said with a moan, and that's all I needed.

I removed my hand but only for a moment as I began to suck on my fingers. Dieter watched intensely as I coated myself. Once it was slick enough I moved them back underneath his waistband and in between his ass.

I circled his hole once more as a warning before pushing fully into him. His hole stretched beautifully around my finger and I was itching to be inside him. I moved in and out of him slowly and Dieter was already a mess. He was gripping the sheets and breathing hard against my neck.

But instead of adding the second finger as I pulled out, I pushed all three in. Dieter let out a soft whimper as his hands went to my hair and he pulled. Goddess, I loved it when he whimpered. It was a rarity which made it my most valued currency.

I moved quickly, twisting and thrusting my fingers in and out. Ever so slightly hitting his spot that drove him crazy. I kept going until my fingers moved without resistance to his tight walls.

I rolled us over and Dieter was now on his back I moved quickly to take his bottoms off and mine followed ensuite. His dick was a bright, irritated red, and his balls were heavy. What a sight to be seen.

I crawled back on top of him and he immediately wrapped his legs around my waist. My lips crashed onto his yet again. I lined myself up, no longer wanting to waste time. We were both needing release and I was happy to give it to him.

"How do you want it, baby?" I asked as I licked the shell of his ear and in return, Dieter shivered under my touch.

"Hard. Fast." He panted as his grip tightened into my sides, his nails digging into my skin most beautifully.

"Your wish is my command."

I lined myself with his awaiting hole and I pushed myself in. I didn't go slow. I didn't give him time to adjust to my length and thickness. I shoved myself right in. Just like how he wanted. Dieter let out a hiss that quickly turned into a moan once I was fully seated inside him.

I waited only for a moment before I began my excruciatingly fast pace. The bed was rocking with each thrust and I was scared it was going to break. But I also didn't care enough to stop. Dieter's face was a bright red, pleasure covering it. His lips parted as I rammed into him, and he took it so good.

I was surprised at myself for how well I was keeping up. Dieter met each thrust just as hard and just as fast. Even though it was rough, our love was bleeding out in each motion. It was hot and heavy and put us in our bubble as we showed each other just how much we loved each other.

My breath began to quicken, and my chest got tight. And as I looked at Dieter his face was contorting in a way that looked like he was in pain. Which meant he was close too.

"Cum baby. Cum all over your chest." I whispered and Dieter mumbled something that made absolutely no sense. And I couldn't help but chuckle at his attempt to speak.

Dieter's nails dug deeper into my skin, drawing blood but I didn't care. I could feel myself begin to throb, my release so close I could taste it.

"I--I--" Dieter stuttered out but was cut off as ropes of cum jetted from his dick and coated his chest. I was next. My vision went blurry and ecstasy filled my body as I filled Dieter's hole up with my cum. So much so, a lot leaked out covering my dick again.

"I love you," Dieter murmured against the side of my head as we both tried to catch our breath.

"I love you."