He was in love with someone else?

And I hated that! I hated that even after all this time she still remained in my mind, in my memories. Brielle blinked and shook her head. I wondered what she was thinking about. Maybe how fucked up I am!

"Walter Anderson once said bad things do happen to everyone; bad accidents, bad relationships... but how we respond to them defines our character and the quality of our life. I know it hurts like hell but you can choose to sit in perpetual sadness... immobilized by the gravity of your loss, or you can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift you have - life itself. You are an... amazing guy and any girl would be lucky to have you but you are being extremely unfair to yourself... "

"He said 'Zuriel Richardson' is an amazing guy"?" I teased and she rolled her eyes

"No, I said that but he did say "pain is a part of life, it is what makes us human, it shapes us and helps us just as laughter and love do, you don't have to forget her, but you cannot let it destroy you. Conquer the pain but don't let it conquer you."

The beating of my heart increased as I stared at her in admiration. My hands trembled as I clasped her fingers and gave a light squeeze. She scooted closer and placed her head on my chest. A strange emotion bubbled up inside me. Tonight, something changed. Tonight I realized how lucky I was to have her.

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I'm not ready to accept the reality. That person... meant a lot to me. I can't seem to move on. Whenever I try, I feel like giving up already. I am tired of struggling...'

'He isn't how he seems. He has been through a lot, that's why he made himself like this.'

'Love is the most overused concept in life.'

'I know how... difficult he can be but I've seen the way he looks at you and trust me, you're special to him.'

'What if someone you love hurts you and leaves you in pieces, so many pieces that your hands prick when you are trying to put yourself back together?'

Just take care of him.

2:35 am

I couldn't sleep. I was feeling too restless and too worried. I kept tossing in my bed, irritably. As I lay in my bed in the dark, my eyes wide open, I couldn't help but think about Zuriel.

After my last conversation with Zuriel, about Carly I can't be able sleep on the same room with him, I really need time, I accept this all

and I think if I would told him that I won't to go back and sleep in my room, then he would have been hurt, so when he had fallen asleep, I secretly comes out from his room

Well duh, who else am I supposed to think about? Who would've thought Zuriel Richardson had been in love and boy did he fall hard for that girl.

Carly

And wait, My brother Issac, he's also talking about Carly, whom he loves

Man, it's freaking hot love triangle but love square

I quickly sat up on my bed and put my hand over my mouth

Shaking my head, should I laugh or cry on this

Even thinking about her made my mouth bitter and I barely even knew anything about her. Why did I have a feeling that she used Zuriel to gain something? But what? Maybe, I should just try to sleep!

3:27 am

I wonder where she is. How is she? Who is she with, if anyone? Why did she leave him? From what I had gathered, he was an ideal son, friend and no doubt he would've been an ideal boyfriend too. Then why? What happened? What if it was Zuriel's fault? What if he always had anger issues and she had just had enough of it?

A part of me wanted to ask him so badly but the other part knew I would be pushing my luck if I did. He disclosed his past to me without even realising that he was telling me so I wasn't going to rub it in. I could tell it was hard for him to tell me and I didn't want to be nosy by questioning him. Maybe, I shouldn't rush it even if it takes months for him to tell me more. But he did say she has returned.

I hadn't even seen him doing any work or asking me to schedule any appointments. He was just escaping from a reality that he wasn't ready to face.

I seriously needed to sleep otherwise I would look dead tomorrow.

4:48 am

Zuriel revealed that he was still in love with her. Did it hurt that he still loved her? More than it should. It hurt knowing he would never love anyone the same way he loved Sophia, but at least I knew what to expect.

Did I?

Had I fallen for someone who didn't fall for me? 'Don't be stupid, I barely know him.' It never occurred to me that there might be people in this world whose love was not returned. One of them was Zuriel. Nothing hurts more than loving someone who doesn't love you back. Can you ever be in love with someone whose heart belongs to someone else? More importantly, how can someone still love someone after what they did?

Maybe, but I still didn't know the whole story. Sure, he could be overwhelming but the amount of care and love he showed for his special one was moving. If you meant something to him he would leave no stone unturned when showing how much he cared about you. Carly butchered who he was and left him, taking his soul, a soul who once knew how to live and love. She made him bitter and cold and the worst part was, it was the people who loved and cared for him, that were suffering the most. He was aware of how he acted, but he had his walls built so high that was impossible for anyone to reach him.

I had always considered myself a non-violent person, but people like her made my blood boil. I groaned and shut my eyes tightly. No. More. Thinking!

6:35 am

The bright numbers on the clock nearly made me pull my hair out. Talk about being a non-violent person! I couldn't believe I had spent an entire night thinking about his past! My mind was telling me not to judge her so quickly since I only knew one side of the story. It took two to tango, so maybe it wasn't entirely her fault? This was something that I couldn't agree on. I put my hand over my head and groaned.