08

olivia

I don't know why the adrenaline is taking over my body, my hands are shaking and my heart is beating like a drum. Calm down Olivia. You don't owe anyone anything, Agnelo is an idiot who just wants your little body. I speak to myself with the failed intention of reassuring myself.

"I already had the immense pleasure of meeting this young lady." Agnelo speaks with a sarcastic smile on his face. "I also want to introduce you to my partner, Stefany Andrade." My heart starts beating faster than before and a lump starts to form in my throat.

"What an honor, my friend! I wish the couple happiness." Doctor Salvatore exclaims smiling with his sympathetic face.

Couple? Does Agnel have anyone?

"Good afternoon, how are you?" The woman with generous curves and blonde hair speaks smiling.

"Good afternoon. Well, how are you?" I return my sympathy when I glance at Agnelo and he looks at me reproachfully.

"I am great." She says and I smile.

"Excuse me, let's sit at our table." Agnelo says and shakes the Doctor's hand. Then he walks over to me and gives me a long kiss on the cheek, I feel my whole body shake because of that simple gesture.

"Good lunch to you." Salvatore nods smiling. "Would you like to order dessert?" he asks me.

"Sure, order whatever you want, I need to go to the restroom, excuse me." I don't wait for answers and walk quickly towards the sign that informs the place.

I feel my face burn and my blood boil, I think I'm sick. There's a lump in my throat and the difficulty in breathing is a lot considering the violent beating of my poor heart. Shit, does Agnelo have anyone? How could he? I have a huge urge to cry and scream, why is it hurting? It's so bad, damn it's so bad.

When I go into the bathroom, I wash my face and accidentally a few tears fall, it's always like that, I hold back as much as I can because I know that if I let the first one happen, I won't be able to control it anymore. With all this I come to the unfortunate conclusion that I'm jealous, and I find out the hard way that I'm in love with Agnelo. Maybe I already knew that when after the first fuck I couldn't think about anything but him. When my stomach contracts like thousands of butterflies, my heart that turns a drum inside my chest just without hearing that name.

I try to compose myself and go back to acting normally, I wipe my tears and leave the bathroom taking a deep breath. Just as I'm about to close the door, someone pulls me and pins me against the wall.

"What does that mean?!" Agnelo exclaims in a low tone, holding me tightly in my arms.

"Let me go, you're hurting me!" I ask with tears in my eyes but he doesn't let go.

"Fuck! He's the one your father wants you to marry." He speaks furiously.

"Yes." I answer.

"It wasn't a question, I already know that because I'm already taking steps in your case. But what's the use of me trying to bend over backwards to help you, when you cried in my arms begging not to get married and then I'll see you in a passionate encounter with the one!" His voice is hard and it hurts.

"You didn't say anything to me for a week, you didn't get in touch to say anything! I thought you weren't going to help me anymore, so I decided to act on my own. " I explain and try to break free of his strong grip.

"Acting on your own by giving it to him? Like you did to me?" His words sound like a stab in my chest. It hurt Agnelo.

"Let me go now, otherwise I'm going to scream, let me go!" I ask, controlling my voice and making a huge effort not to cry.

"Tell me Olivia? Did you have sex with him? Has he already seen and entered your pussy? Fuck answer me!" His words brought so much hate to my heart that I broke free of his grip and slapped him hard across the face.

"You're an asshole! An idiot and a jerk! Who are you to talk about having sex with someone when you're having lunch with your girlfriend, wife, whatever the hell she is!" I exclaim and look around to see if anyone is watching.

"She's a fucking co-worker." He explains.

"So what? When the Doctor said congratulations to the couple you didn't deny it, I bet you had sex with her, tell me Agnelo, did you put your dick inside her pussy?" Reposted with the same question.

"No, hell! I didn't fuck her, Olivia, I got blood in my eyes as soon as I saw you having lunch with the man who intends to marry you." His voice is low this time.

"I don't understand. What got into you? Why did you act like that? Why Agnelo? You hurt me. You think I'm going to go out and have sex with anyone? That just makes it clear what you think about me." I speak in a soft tone with teary eyes and an aching heart. "Excuse me, you don't need to get involved with this matter anymore, let me handle it myself. Good luck with your life." I speak and walk away, his gaze is empty and indecipherable.

"Olívia..." He calls trying to grab my arm, but I break free of his grip.

"And one more thing, if I want to have sex with the Doctor, I'll do what I want, I have no commitment to anyone, the body is mine and if I feel like it, I'll say it just like you : I'll give it to you!" I exclaim with hate in my eyes.

"You won't..." I leave him talking to himself and approach the Doctor.

"Doctor, can you take me home. I'm not feeling well." I ask as soon as I arrive and find the man sitting playing on his cell phone.

"What do you have? Do you want to go to a hospital?" he inquires.

"No, all I need is my bed. Will you please take me?" I ask one more time.

"Sure, but don't you want dessert? I just ordered." He says.

"Can't we take it?" The pin.

"I think so, just a moment." He speaks and calls the waiter.

The next moments passed in a blur, my ears were just ringing and I just wanted to disappear, disappear, liking someone hurts, if I could choose who I fell in love with, I would never choose that asshole Agnelo, he hurt me like no one else, what he thinks of me offends and depresses me. Doctor Salvatore constantly worrying and asking me if I'm okay, the only answer is nodding.

"It's delivered." Next thing I know I'm already lying on my bed with the Doctor by my side. "I hope it gets better, I'll come back later to see how you are." He says and gives me a kiss on the forehead.

"Thank you Doctor." I speak and smile. Why couldn't I just fall in love with this handsome man right here? Did he have to be a good looking bum?

"I'm worried. Are you sure you don't want to go to the doctor?" He insists once more and that's when a brilliant idea comes to me.

"I'm fine, really. Listen Doctor, don't you feel like kissing me?" I ask and he smiles in surprise. Maybe kissing him can make me forget about Agnelo and the best kiss in the world.

"This is much more than obvious, I want to do everything with you, but I respect it, I can marry you against your will, now, being intimate would never force you." He talks and I think it's funny of him.

"Kiss me Doctor." I ask gently and he widens his eyes.

"Are you sure miss?" Warily he asks.

"Yes." I confirm and he approaches my face.

He touches our lips gently and slowly takes mine with affection, it is a slow and delicate kiss, there is no lust or anything sexual in this kiss, it is an incredible and sweet kiss. Gradually he deepens the kiss holding my face, I also hold his neck and kiss him passionately, I like this kiss, maybe I can kiss him more often. Then I break the kiss and the Doctor is looking at me with satisfaction and triumph, there's a glint in his eyes and he smiles at me, I smile back and start kissing him again.

A vain act of forgetting a man who had already done a lot of damage inside me, anyway, since when the Doctor leaves through my bedroom door, the person who enters and lives inside my head and heart is Agnelo, I hear your words still in my ears and it hurts more than I want to, I can't contain it and tears roll in insistence. Shit, shit, shit.

I hate you as much as I love you, Agnelo.