09

agnelo

My week has been busy and tense, I've worked a lot to resolve Olivia's case as quickly as possible, inside me there is an insane desire to see her smile with happiness and gratitude to me, as soon as I tell her that she won 't need to marry by force and much less will be in misery.

My big surprise was when I found out that the man she would be forced to marry is a long-time friend of mine, a renowned lawyer, Doctor Salvatore Ganacci, for her I did something that I think is very important, I followed him and watched his steps, nothing bad was found, not even in their daily lives and much less in the files filed by the government or sent to the fire. The man is very clean, in name.

I invited a friend from work, a lawyer, to help me with the case and try to find out something I might have overlooked, both Doctor Salvatore and Olávo Sorello, Olivia's father. She can use the methods of seduction, just as I had to use Brenda Barierre with my friend Julian.

But my biggest surprise, perhaps frustration or hatred, was when I arrived at the restaurant I had booked and I found him, having lunch with a woman, as soon as I was introduced to the woman who was keeping him company, it was as if the blood had fled from my face and my heart. stop hitting, damn I still can't explain what happened to me at that time. It was Olivia, she looked beautiful and looked happy, having lunch with the man she cried to me saying she didn't want to get married.

Had he changed his mind? Doctor Salvatore is a good looking man, when I saw them together, something strange grew inside me, an anger, an anguish, the worst feeling in the world, thinking of Olivia with someone. What the hell! It was happening again, what I feared most was happening. I was jealous of her!

I'm a piece of shit son of a bitch, I recognize that I'm no good and I never was, since my disappointment with Nora, I became this asshole that I am today, I never fell in love again, I always treated women as a sexual object and I never felt the I want someone with me, all to myself, or I've been thinking about someone for days, and this shit is happening to me now, I keep thinking about Olivia.

I said things to her, things I really regret, damn I made her cry, I hate myself for that. If she hooks up with someone or not, that's her problem, she's free to do it, but like an idiot I didn't think about it before I said shit. Even though the thought pains me, the pain I've avoided so much, I can't help being a hard-headed fuck.

Now I'm at home drinking like hell, I haven't had a drink in so long because of problems, my little problem, beautiful and with dark hair, she looks like an angel, who sees it, you can't imagine that she is capable of driving anyone crazy in bed. She went home with Doctor Salvatore and fuck I'm so pissed off what are they doing now?

Distressed and not knowing what to do, I call the only person who can give me advice right now, or at least listen to me. Julian. I take my cell phone and dial the number, he immediately answers me with the usual happiness.

"Say my friend." He greets me.

"Julian, can you come here? I really need to talk! But I only trust you!" I ask with my voice cracking already from the drink.

"I imagine he's up to something. I'm going to ask Olivia to stay with my wife for an hour." He speaks and in the background I hear a baby cry.

Julian hangs up the phone as I continue emptying the whiskey bottle in front of me. My mind isn't here, it's there in that little dark haired person that drives me crazy, I don't know what it is, I'm confused and freaking out. I can't and I don't want to like anyone more than I should, I'm more than sure that what I feel for Olivia is just a strong attraction, this has to stop, it has to end. I need to get away from her.

A few minutes later, Julian appears knocking on the door.

"I'm glad you're here. I need help." I say as soon as I open the door for him.

"Wow! You reek of alcohol!" he exclaims and takes the nearly empty bottle from my hands. "Say, what happened?"

"Fuck! I don't know. I just want to kill Doctor Salvatore, I hate him so much." I say clenching my fists.

"Who is this guy? And why the hate?" He asks confused.

"The guy Olivia is going to marry. I think she's sleeping with him, it shouldn't affect me, but I'm so pissed off!" I growl, feeling fury course through my body.

"Are you in love with Olivia, man? How long have I slept? Since when? How did this happen? What the fuck is this Agnelo?!" Julian looks at me in surprise and confusion.

"It all started when I went to take the letter you wrote to Eloíse..." In that time I told my friend everything, everything that had happened between us and how I felt close to her and how I felt when I saw her with the Salvatore.

"Fucking Agnelo, you're in love! And much more, obsessed with her." Julian speaks still stunned by everything I told him.

"Shut the fuck up, I'm not in love with anyone. I just like having sex with her, she's hot, that's all. I fucking need help, why am I like this?" I inquire hitting my head.

"You are a hard-headed motherfucker from hell! I've said it before and I'll say it again, you're in love and you don't want to admit it, your pride is too big for that. And my dear, you'll be unhappy forever if you don't value the amazing person that Olivia is. Because of a disappointment years ago, you don't believe in any woman anymore? I know very well how you feel, I've already been disappointed and betrayed by those I trusted, but Eloíse's love saved me, but that it was only possible because I let her in. If you stay locked inside that hurt there, it will never go away, it will hurt forever. People are not the same!"

"I don't know what to do, Julian! I really don't know, I feel lost! It's something I've never felt before, it's different and it anguishes me, I don't want to feel it, it's a feeling of fear of not seeing her anymore, it's weird. Damn I'm scared!" On the verge of crying I scream, but I won't.

"Let's do this, come with me to my house, get distracted, it will be good for you." He guesses.

"Maybe being alone in my state won't be a good idea anyway." I speak and stand up, with blurred vision due to alcohol, I try to balance on my feet.

Then Julian helps me to the bathroom, after which we took some of my stuff and went to his house.

olivia

"Hey friend, she's so beautiful..." I say admiring the sleeping baby after having her diaper changed by me.

"Yes, she is... My heart explodes with happiness every time I look at her, I hear her cry. God is so perfect, isn't it? It still hasn't dawned on me that I generated a baby, so perfect. It's so much love I'm left speechless." Eloise speaks with her eyes full of tears.

"You deserve everything good in life, friend. And you do, you got married, you have a beautiful daughter, you have a family and you live in love. I'm so happy for you." I say and give him a tight hug.

"And you? How is that heart?" she asks. And you know when you try to hold back the tears, but when someone asks what's going on you break down?

"Broken." I speak in a thread of voice trying to hold back the tears.

"Why Liv?" She asks with a worried look.

"I found out that I'm in love with Agnelo. He's an idiot, asshole, son of a bitch. But I love him and I can't deny that to myself. However, I'm willing to forget him, I' I'm even thinking about getting married." I speak and my friend looks at me scared.

"Marry with who?" Confused, she tries to understand, so I remember not having told her yet about my father's shenanigans. So I then spend the last hour telling her everything, including about Agnelo the last few days trying to help me.

"I just wanted to disappear!" I finish with tears in my eyes.

"My God, Liv! Your father must be crazy to propose such a thing to his daughter! The only daughter he has!" Indgnantly my friend exclaims.

"Don't worry Elô, I'm fine. I'm getting to know the Doctor better and he doesn't seem like a bad person to me." I speak in an attempt to reassure her.

"Friend, you're an adult and you already know what you're doing with your life, I'm just asking you to please take the best path, decide what's best for you, think a little more about yourself. Olivia, you 're beautiful, young and smart, you can conquer the world, you just have to want to and not be suffering for a man who is not worth it. What Agnelo said to you, you don't say to anyone, even more so to a woman, my God! You had only been with Matheus before him wasn't it?" I nod and she continues, "So you're not what he thinks you are, don't worry about it. All that matters is who you really are."

By the time she finishes saying it, my face is already a river. She's right, my friend really is right, I don't need to suffer for a man who isn't worth it, who will use my body the first chance he gets and then walk away as if nothing had happened, as if there was no way. woman who really likes him there.

I hug Eloíse and feel much better for having vented to her. But everything falls apart as soon as I hear the voice well known to me sound in the environment.

"I arrived my love!" It's Julian's voice and Eloise smiles.

"My head hurts!" Agnelo's voice grumbles. He is clearly drunk.