16

olivia

"You look beautiful. Always have been, really." Salvatore speaks and waves for me to sit down.

"Thanks." I say thank you and feel my face heat up.

"Want something to drink?" He asks.

"I am not well." We were silent for a few seconds. "Do you have a lot of work to do? Am I in the way?"

"No way." He smiled. "I would like to receive your visit more often."

"And how is your day going?" I try to get into something.

"It's off to a good start." He says and stands up, takes my chair and turns it so that he is kneeling in front of me. "I still haven't given up on you, I dream of the day that you want to be mine, of your own free will, since I can no longer force you to marry me."

"Look, doctor..." I try to speak but I'm cut off.

"As much as it's lovely to hear the word doctor come out of your mouth, I just want you to call me Salvatore." He takes my hand and kisses it.

"It's okay, Salvatore." I speak softly and feel a little intimidated by his proximity.

"I don't know if you believe in love at first sight, I didn't either, but I did when I fell in love with you from the first look. I don't know if there would be any man in his right mind who wouldn't fall in love with you." His voice sounds husky and sensual, at the same time that I feel an immense desire to kiss him.

"Dout... I mean, Salvatore. I don't know if I can return your feelings, but I really want you to kiss me right now."

I need this man to kiss me, to make my body want him like I want Agnelo, I'm still not well, being away from a great love or not being reciprocated is a pain that has no end, I think about crying all the time but it won't do, I don't need to grovel for a man who can't give me what I really deserve. Moving on with my life, with someone who really cares about me and doesn't just use me, seems like a good option now.

"Kiss me doctor, I want to be yours..." I ask, determined to forget Agnelo.

He smiles and his eyes shine with satisfaction, then pulls me towards his body that is already standing, and kisses me tenderly, I return the kiss and I feel his strong hands grabbing my waist, the kiss is good and I like it, he pins me against the wall and kisses me harder.

He starts unbuttoning the buttons on my blouse, and looks me in the eyes all the time, as if he expects my intervention at any second, I feel his erection press me when he starts kissing my neck and giving light bites, but suddenly I can 't, I feel something strange, a knot in my stomach and I push it away.

"Sorry, I'm feeling bad." I gasp and start breathing hard.

"What's wrong with you?" He asks worried.

"I don't know... I can't breathe properly." I speak and he takes a glass of water from an attachment to the side.

"Drink this water. Take a deep breath, go, inhale, exhale." He helps me by demonstrating how to do it and so I do.

"Thanks, I feel better already." I drink all the water and relax in the comfortable chair.

"The weather is over isn't it?" Salvatore looks at me sadly.

"Can we go out tonight, okay?" I ask and he smiles.

"Clear!" exclaims happily.

"So see you later, I need to go now." I say buttoning my shirt.

"See you later, pick you up at your house?"

"Yes." I answer and write down my address on a piece of paper.

"Fine. Come here." He calls me over and kisses me goodbye.

I pull away and smile, I wave my hand and go down the immense floors, almost three minutes I arrive at the ground floor, I go through the parking lot and I get in the car, and I drive home thoughtfully. As soon as I arrive João is cooking, I go through the kitchen and just give him a hug and go up to the bedroom.

In the dresser I bought, I look for a sheet to cover the bed, take a quick shower and lie down. A few seconds thinking about life, I end up falling asleep.

When the night comes, I get up feeling crushed, it feels like a truck has run over me, my whole body hurts, but I have to go out, I have an appointment and I can't go out. I get ready quickly, I don't feel like dressing elegantly, in fact I have a strange feeling, I'm sad, depressed, I want to stay in bed the whole time.

An hour later the doctor arrives, I go down to him who is waiting for me inside a black car, he gets out and greets me with a kiss on the cheek, and then opens the car door for me.

Hours later...

Talk goes on and on, we have a nice date, he brings me back home and that's it. I get home and Joao is not there, once again. I go straight to the bedroom, but not before taking a sleeping pill, I don't want to wake up so early.

agnelo

One month later...

Lying on the sofa in the living room with several bottles of liquor around me, this has been my fate for the last month, from the day Olivia told me that she really liked me, she even went so far as to say that she loved me , or I was going crazy and heard things. I can't work properly anymore, just drink, because my fucking heart is hurting, I already went to a doctor and he mocked me saying that my pain was psychological.

I looked for a psychologist and he told me that I should go to where my pain started, do an analysis and go to him, I never went back. I got Olivia's number, I had it, I still have the need to hear her voice, but after finding out who was calling, she didn't answer anymore, she doesn't want to hear from me anymore.

Julian listens to me but doesn't say anything else, he told me that everything he could say he had already said. Even getting her address was difficult, since she moved, I went to her old apartment, which I didn't know she was living alone with her brother, but they had moved.

I feel like I'm going crazy and nobody can help me, nor can I help myself if I don't know what I have. The only thing that comes to my mind is her, the brunette who stole my sanity. I want to have her in my arms again, the worst mistake I ever made was having the stupid idea last night, I want to make her mine, mine alone.

But I don't know where to start, I can't find her, Eloise doesn't tell me anything, I didn't call my secret services because I didn't think it was necessary to go to that extreme. I knew I was fucked the moment she sat on my cock for the first time, I knew I was going to fall in love with her.

What I feared the most happened, I avoided it, I was a son of a bitch with her, maybe that way she would pull away and the boner I felt for her would pass, but I discovered that when she pulled away, it wasn' t just horny and desire, it was passion , I fell in love with my little devil with the voice of an angel. Because, none of that passed.

It only increased, increased the pain, the sadness, the anguish, the jealousy and my madness for her. Fuck, what I felt for Nora doesn't compare to what I feel here inside my chest away from Olivia.

I'm willing to find her and make her mine, for one night or a month or years, whatever she wants. So I get up quickly and call the girl who cleans my house, take a shower and go hunting for my goddess.

I arrive euphoric at the secret investigation department and after a few seconds of searching on the company's special computer, I find the address in the name of João Pedro Sorello, it's her brother. Damn it was easier than I thought, I just needed to get up from my cachaças and go to work.

Without thinking about anything I drive like crazy to the address, as soon as I arrive, it's inside a condominium in a prime area of the city of England, she's doing very well, I'm happy for her. I ask the doorman about João Sorello and he tells me I can't enter without authorization, I show him my badge and he immediately lets me in, I park the car in the garage, but when I'm about to go down, I see her, she looks beautiful, the hair is lighter, almost blonde now.

I think about running towards her, my heart races and my eyes fill with water, but I shudder and feel my blood boil when I see Doctor Salvatore approach greeting her with a kiss on the lips.

The hatred that is born inside me is supernatural, hot tears flow from my eyes and my internal pain increases in intensity. I want to go there and beat him to the punch, how dare he touch her? On the other hand, I recognize that I was an imbecile and she is free to make her choices. Even if hate corrodes me, the pain of love explodes my heart.

She chose him, she really stayed with the Doctor.

Revolted and with blood in my eyes, the first thing that occurs to me: drink and women, I call a contact and order several drinks and a group of women for my house, loving someone sucks. Hell!

I had said, I had already experienced this pain and I didn't want it again.