18

olivia

When I go downstairs to find Salvatore, I can no longer look him in the eye, I am no longer me, now I am a woman pregnant with a man who will never be mine. I walk over to him and he looks at me strangely due to my delay, I need to talk, I need to be direct, I can't under any circumstances let him be deceived, he doesn't deserve this.

"We need to talk." I speak seriously and sit down in front of her.

"Did something happen?" Inquire.

"Yes, and I'll get right to the point, before we started dating, I was involved with someone else." I started but closed my eyes seeking the courage to speak.

"I know, we've all had our stories. But keep going." He says.

"We slept together and I'm pregnant." Released at once, maybe it's not the best way, but I can't keep going around.

"What?!" His expression of surprise mixed with disappointment hurts me deeply.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know. When we started there was nothing between me and him, in fact there never was. It was just an adventure." I exclaim with tears in my eyes.

"And you never wanted to have sex with me! Me waiting like an idiot thinking you were a virgin!" Scream and I understand your reaction.

"Salvatore..." I try but he doesn't allow me to continue.

"Did you just want to use me, Olivia? Tell me the truth, have you ever had any fucking feelings for me? Has everything I've experienced this last month been an illusion?" I can feel the pain he is feeling.

"Of course not. I like you, I was willing to move on when I agreed to give you a chance, I didn't know I was pregnant, I just found out! I never slept with you because I wasn't ready to deliver the baby yet. my body to another man. Please, I know it's hard to understand, and I understand that you don't want anything to do with me anymore. You are a wonderful person, I don't deserve you, I just ask that you forgive me for not being a good girlfriend when you did your best." I declare and I can't control the tears that roll non-stop.

"I don't forgive you and I never will, I don't ever want to see you again in my life, I can love you, but bearing this is too much for me, at least now I have to play my part as a man with you, it's over, no I was born to raise another man's child, you can keep the job, you managed it on your own, but forget that I ever wanted to marry you." He speaks in a harsh tone and leaves through the door, slamming it hard.

It's like I missed the opportunity to be happy one day, and yes I missed it. Shit, why didn't I take the pill?

I know it won't help, but it's the only thing I can do, cry, I kneel on the floor and I can't, I can't feel anything but pain, how I wish I could go back in time and never have fallen in love with Agnelo, never getting into that car, never even looking at it, but thinking about it, who knows what the future has in store for us? Nobody.

I'm startled when the door opens violently, I look scared and see João and Eloíse standing at the door looking around, apparently looking for me, as soon as they see me they run towards me.

"What are you talking about?" John asks confused.

"Liv, are you playing tricks on us now?" Eloise asks.

"Guys, look in the bathroom, five pregnancy tests, they all came back positive." I speak and I no longer feel as desperate as I used to.

"My God in heaven... I'm going to have another nephew!" João exclaims smiling and hugs me.

"Congratulations friend, I'm so happy for you!" My friend exclaims and the three of us do a group hug.

Within that embrace I feel protected and cherished, but my heart still aches.

"One question, I'm sorry Liv, I hope you don't take offense. This is the Doctor's baby, isn't it?" I smile as I tense up.

"Of course, whose else would it be?" João says and looks at me with wide eyes. "It's his, isn't it?" I get up off the floor and turn around.

"No. I never slept with Salvatore, this baby is Agnelo's." I confess and a great silence takes over the environment.

"And he already knows?" João asks, breaking the almost infinite silence.

"No, I just found out." I talk.

"You need to tell." Eloise adds.

"I know, he's the father, he needs to know about the son's existence, but that doesn't mean I'm going to need him for anything, I can keep getting by like I always have." I talk.

"We will support you in any situation, my friend." Eloise approaches and hugs me.

"It feels like the scene almost a year ago when we were in that pharmacy bathroom finding out that Princess Julie was on her way. The three of us together, I'll support you sister, but you need to tell my idiot nephew's father. " They both hug me and I cry some more.

"Let's go to my house, sleep there tonight." Eloise suggests.

"Yes, but I won't be able to rest until I tell Agnelo that I'm pregnant with his child." I speak as I gather some things from the living room.

"I have to go, I got off work crazy to find out what was going on with you, I even thought it was some emergency code. I'll call you later, I love you." He speaks and gives a kiss to each of us, then leaves towards his course.

"Apparently you're not going to work anymore today, are you?"

"I don't have the mind for this anymore, I need to settle this matter soon, I'm going to go to Agnelo's apartment right now to tell him he's going to be a father, I won't even give him time to say anything, I'm just going to leave, he's such an idiot that he's capable of convincing to stay and eat me again." I confess and Eloíse smiles.

"So go soon, I have to go, but I'll wait for you at my house, Julian was taking care of the baby for me to come here, today my protection ended and I convinced him to let me go out alone." She speaks and I smile at their care.

"Then I won't, you must be climbing the walls, was today the day that ended?" She nods. "Forget it, tomorrow I'll go!"

"Do you really think there won't be tomorrow again?" I am surprised by the audacity of my friend who was a saint in my eyes.

"I'll think about your case, I'm not ready to hear moans from other couples yet." I joke and shrug.

"The last time you and Agnelo were at my place, do you think Julian and I didn't hear anything in the next room?" I cover my face in embarrassment.

"Ah, you know it's not..." I stammer not knowing what to say.

"Don't worry Liv, I'll be waiting for you. I have to get back to my baby girl now, and my husband. I'm gone." She gives me a kiss and walks out the door.

I take a shower to relax, put the tests in my bag and go to Agnelo, on the way I think about what I'm going to say, I also think about his reaction, it's impossible not to feel martyred by the reaction of Doctor Salvatore too, I'm so sad for him that my heart hurts.

Upon arriving at the building, I remember everything that happened between the two of us in that place, going up in the elevator I feel my heart racing and the butterflies in my stomach consume me, I haven't felt that for a long time, it's the consequence you have when you're in love.

When I stop in front of the door, I hear muffled music coming from inside, I take a deep breath and ring the bell, damn I'm shaking too much, in a little while I'm going to freak out here. I ring a few more times and finally the door opens, but when I think I'm going to look at the big handsome man I thought I thought, I see a half-naked woman with a glass of drink in her hand.

I push it and go into the apartment, which is a mess, there are several naked women dancing on the table, couples making out in various corners of the house, I walk around looking for Agnelo a little longer, have I entered the wrong apartment ?

My answer comes next, when I look up to the balcony and see him making out with a woman, the tears that burn my eyes don't compare to the disgust I feel when I see that there's another one sucking his cock, I can' t hold back the urge of vomit that hits me and I throw everything I ate out, right in the middle of the son of a bitch's room.

The little incident seems to have gotten everyone's attention, as the music has stopped and everyone dancing and having sex in the corners is looking at me now.

"Where's the fucking music?" The bastard's voice hits me and I want to die. "Olivia?" I'm not looking at him, but he seems to have finally seen me.

I shake my head hard and hurry out of here, I feel disgusted this way, disgusted by the scene I just witnessed, I'm going to raise my baby alone, what kind of man throws a midweek party with lots of sluts, he has sex with two women in the middle of everyone.

Sure, there may be those kinds of people, but that wasn't the image I had of Agnelo, if there was still a trace of hope that we'd have something, someday, that ends now.

"Olivia! Wait!" I hear his voice follow me and I run further pressing the elevator button but he manages to catch up.

"Let go of me, please." I ask softly.

"I need to talk to you, listen to me, I thought..."

"Forget I was even here." I give a pained smile and step into the elevator.

I put my hand on my stomach and say: "You don't deserve to have a father like that, I'm sorry, I'll try my best to be a nice mother to you, my little grain."