Akash guilt

Akash Pov

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"Where is Dharani?" Avinash asked me.

"She is sleeping in my room" I told him.

"What happened Akash? Your watchman told me. You took her to hospital. What happened to my sister? " he asked making me gulp.

"She was-------" I told him everything. My rude behaviour towards Dharani and Dhruv came home and trying to molested her. So that's the reason I'm taking her to hospital.

As soon as I finished telling him everything. I got one hard punch from him making me stumbled on my feet.

"How dare you?" he shouted at me and started punching me.

"Stop punching me, if you remember then you too hurted her so much" I shouted at him and he left me.

"Yes you are right. Me and my family is not less than you. We treated her like a slave in our home. You know what ?my father used to whip her, my mother used to scold her and me, I was more cruel than them. But now enough, I realized my mistake and I will not let my sister suffer anymore. I will come soon once again and I will beg for her forgiveness. I know my sister will forgive me. But till then if you try to harm her then I swear it will be your last day on this Earth" he threatened me and left the home.

I went to my room and saw her sleeping peacefully. Doctor told me, she will get her conscious in morning.

Avinash words are ringing in my ears. But my question is why Dharani is married to me? First I need to find out the answer. I knew who can give me the correct answer.

My Dad

I went to his house. I reached his house within 2 hours and rang the bell. Ram uncle opened the door. He is working here as maid. Uncle greeted me and went away.

I went inside and started shouting "Dad, Dad!".

"Oh god! Stop shouting young man. Don't give me heart attack in this old age and what did I do to get such a lovely visit from my lovely son?" Dad asked sarcastically coming down from the staircases. I looked at him annoyingly.

"I'm here to get some answer from your mouth? Please tell me the truth Dad" I asked him sternly.

"What answers son?" Dad asked me innocently.

"Dad why did Dharani agreed to marry me?" I asked him seriously. But Dad looking at me silently without answering me.

"Will you please tell me what's going on in my life? I asked sounding serious. Dad sighed.

"Fine I give 10 lakh money to her uncle to make marry you" Dad replied in one breath.

"Wait! What? Money but why?" I asked him being stunned. Dad took deep breath.

"Son listen, Dharani is very nice girl. One day, I saw her she was going towards temple. On her way, she saw a old lady accident nobody help her that poor lady all are simply watching. But Dharani made her way and carried that poor lady in her arms and she helped and gave first aid treatment to that old lady and gave some money for her medicines. All this was seen by me. I was mesmerised by her soft heart as well as touched by her gentleness .

So I thought this girl is perfect for my son. I am sure you will also like her . Firstly I collected all information about her and soon I find out Dharani's father is my close friend and they died in car accident and I came to know my friend daughter is Dharani. She is living in her uncle house. I investigate her uncle, he is money minded man. I knew how much cruelty her uncle had shown on such a innocent soul. So, I was determined to make her my daughter-in-law. so I gave 10 lakh money to her uncle and make her married to you son", Dad said.

"Dad you are unbelievable" I shouted making him to close his ears with his hand.

"Dad, how can you give money and brought her like this to marry a complete stranger?" I asked him. I couldn't believe this he did this. Dad looking at me sadly.

"I'm sorry son, but I don't have any other option left", Dad said softly. I huffed looking at him.

"Atleast you have to told me the truth Dad" I told him angrily and walked out of his house.

I drove off from his house back to my house. On the way I stopped my car and banged my hand on the steering wheel in frustration.

"Shit Shit Shit" I screamed. I realized in that hurting her wasn’t right and I cursed myself for treating Dharani so badly. I wish this didn't happen.

It's obviously my fault. I'm not a human. My nasty behavior became so painful for her. I regret those times when I hurt her not only mentally but even physically. She was innocent. I'm regret for the hurtful things I always say to her. I'm regret for everything I put her through in past 2 months. No one deserves such treatment. I thought I was the victim in this marriage because Dad blackmailed me to marry her, but when in reality she is the one who went through hell. I wanted to say sorry to her, I will do anything to make up to her.

I just feel so much guilt. I know, what I did was wrong. I insulted her, tortured her and slapped her but she never raised her voice infront of me.

Atlast her outburst came to my mind. I know, I cross all the limits she already told me about Dhruv but I didn't trust her words. I scolded her and slapped her.

Oh god! I am so cruel.

I started the car and drove off back to my house. When I reached home, I immediately ran to upstairs. Then I entered my bedroom and saw Dharani was sleeping peacefully on my bed.

My mind recalling what I did to her. I felt so terrible. I'm sick of myself

She is like an angel but I'm her devil.

I moved my hands to her face to push away a strand of hair which was falling on her face.

What I did was very wrong, I don't know what, got into my mind. My heart ached at the thought that she was tortured by me mentally. I looked at her feeling really sad.

What I did to her was beyond the torture demon gives in hell. Even the slightest thought of the sins I did to her, makes my heart burning in regret. My heart burns whenever her teary eyes cloud my brain.

I can’t rid the guilt from my heart .Taking her hand in my hand, I caressed her hand through and kissed it.

"I'm sorry, I promise to treat you like my Queen, I'm so sorry for hurting you so much", I whispered looking at her sleeping face.

I wiped my tears with the back of my hand but that didn't stop them from flowing. I stand and went to my study room I am very angry on myself, I look myself in the mirror, feel so much shame. It was my fault, I cursed under my breath, jerking back my arms I hit the mirror again, and again, and again until the glass broke into million pieces blood smeared my knuckles, I screamed in frustrated anger mixing with the increasing pain, landing on my hands and knees, tears streaked my face, but they are tears of my monstrous behavior towards her.

I am miserably failed in the department of humanity.. she said I ruined her life, she don't want me in her life. I was blind, before but now I can see the truth. My heart is really very sore. I just feel like the biggest jerk in this world. I am bad person, I don't deserve her forgiveness, I am cold hearted devil, I am a devil. I destroy her life completely. I am a devil.. Argh.. I yelled out of fury.

GUILT Small word with big effects. Something that is burning me from inside then something that makes me hate myself.

Akash, someone called me from behind I turned to see there standing is my..............

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