Chapter 42

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Ernaline was the only one on the elevator until she reached the ground floor. Ernaline didn’t want to leave because she was already loved in the industry, in the band, and above all by the people who believed in her.

When Ernaline left the building, she immediately took a taxi and drove to the condo where they were staying. Ernaline doesn't care about them anymore, she hurriedly packed all her belongings in the suitcase that Ernaline had pulled out from under the bed.

"I just want to rest and sleep but why did it end up like that?" Tears welled up in Ernaline's eyes from the restraint but they kept pouring out.

This is the first time Ernaline has experienced being hurt like this! Ernaline suddenly regretted that she had met them, that she had entered the world that did not suit her. Ernaline regretted that she loved a person named Perth Dezrail Fynrell.

Ernaline was surprised when the door of her room suddenly opened and Perth was spit on followed by Jasper, Kaizen, Kyle, and Senri.

"What is happening to you Ernaline? Talk to me!" Perth quickly snatched the suitcase in which Ernaline was holding her belongings. Ernaline was so annoyed that she threw the hangers she was holding to Perth.

"What else do you want? I told you, I don't want to talk about it anymore!" Ernaline cried in front of them all.

"Did something happen, Queen? You can talk to us." Kyle asked.

"What's going on dragon? What is Dezrail saying that you are leaving the band? We have a performance tomorrow why are you leaving?" Jasper groaned.

"Yeah, Ernaline. Are you tired of Jasper's face? We can replace him if you want so don't leave." Kaizen said with a mixture of silliness.

"You're a crazy bastard! Kaizen I'm going to punch you." Jasper.

"Quit it, you idiot. We can't resolve it if you don't shut your fucking mouth!" Senri scolded the two. But Ernaline didn't pay attention but tried to snatch her suitcase from Perth, which he took away.

"What the heck Fynrell, give me my stuff!" Ernaline's disgusting language as she took the suitcase from Perth's hands.

"No! You send me back to the band because you're the one leaving? Tell me the reason why you want to leave, Ernaline?" Perth said.

Ernaline asks Perth a favor if he can go back to the band because she wants him to feel again that this is his life! Music is his life! Ernaline wants him to be with her, sing with her, perform with her! But it seems impossible.

"What do you care about my decision? You're just a bodyguard! I can do whatever I want!"

"I'm your boyfriend Ernaline Ashleigh Montenegro! I am not just your bodyguard so stop this nonsense act of yours!" Perth said.

Ernaline threw a box containing her shoes at Perth's chest but it didn't even move. Is what she says about this really nonsense?

"Yes, you're my boyfriend. But since that Serenity came, where have you been? I can't talk anymore because Saviel isn't beside me, you even made a fool of me in the studio and didn't even bother to say hello to me or if you introduced me to that woman? Didn't you! You even dragged her for a gig when I finished? Where? I was left in the studio like a fool looking for you all! You don't remember me because your attention is already on her. I'm not an attention seeker but since Serenity came my presence has suddenly disappeared. Now, you're going to ask me what right I have not to make a decision lightly huh? Tell me!"

The men could not speak to what Ernaline had said. Ernaline is right, she will decide what she wants to happen.

"Because of Serenity, you ended up like this?" Perth asked Ernaline incredulously. Perth loosens up his grip on Ernaline’s luggage and that was her chance to steal it from him which didn't stop immediately because she had already recovered her belongings.

"You fool, Dezrail. Why didn't you mention to Ernaline that your Ex-girlfriend is Serenity? You almost got married then, didn't you?" Ernaline stopped packing because of what Kaizen said.

The man received a smash on his head from Jasper and Kyle.

"Stupid. Come here to teach you a lesson!" Kyle and Jasper dragged Kaizen out of Ernaline's room and the only ones left were Perth and Senri leaning forward against the wall with his arms folded across her chest while waiting for what she should do next.

"Kaizen is right. Serenity is my ex-fiancé but that was a long time ago. I was just happy when I saw her. I never forgot about you, baby." Perth’s face softens as he looks at Ernaline. Perth tried to reach her but Ernaline moves backward holding her things.

Ernaline's decision is complete, she will leave their lives.

She will get away.

Because it's so painful and she can't handle this kind of pain alone while they are together!

"My decision is final Fynrell and you can't do anything about it!" Ernaline passed Perth with her luggage and the guitar slung over her shoulder. Perth stopped Ernaline as he speaks.

"Try to get out of that door. you have nothing to go back to, a sensible Perth Dezrail Fynrell, Ashleigh mark my word."

Ernaline ignored what Perth said but continued to walk out of the room she was occupying. Ernaline found Kyle, Kaizen, and Jasper in the living room sitting on a couch while watching basketball on TV. They were about to stop Ernaline when she broke the center table right in front of them so she didn't do anything until she got out of the door of their condo.

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"That's the result of choosing Serenity over Ashleigh, Dezrail," Senri broke the silence of the two of them after Ernaline left the condo.

Dezrail looks up to the ceiling, he didn’t know what to do anymore. The pain he feels now is twice as much as when Serenity first left him. Ernaline left a big hole in his heart.

The three also returned to the room - Jasper, Kyle, and Kaizen. After being stunned by Ernaline's break on their coffee table.

"I’m not choosing Serenity over her Senri," he said.

"But that's how you made her feel." Kaizen seconded.

Dezrail collapsed on the bed left by Ernaline. Dezrail washed his palm on his face because of frustration.

"What are you planning to do?" Senri asked.

Dezrail looks up to his friends who are willing to hear his thoughts.

"I need your help, guys"

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A brown envelope was laid by her older brother Reiden on Ernaline's desk. She’s here at their parent’s house specifically in her room.

"What's that?" Ernaline asked without even bothering to open the envelope.

"Open it," Reiden ordered his sister but Ernaline didn't flinch to open the envelope. She already knows what the contents are, why does she bother to open it?

"If I only see dead people there, just burn that shit, Reiden Grei Montenegro," Ernaline said.

Since Ernaline came home to their house, she didn't receive guests even Sinji didn't allow her to get near her. Ernaline was also cold to talk to her older brother Reiden, act like a spoiled shit brat.

Every day, Ernaline’s older brother sends her photos of what Perth has been doing for the past few days. Ernaline didn't even attend the party, after all, she wasn't needed there anymore. Every picture her brother gave her, were the people Perth was killing. Mostly were drug lords.

Will she still be surprised?

It's Perth nature in HuPoFEL! He’s an Assassin for Pete’s sake!

"It's not a picture of dead people. It's an invitation of the engagement party of Dezrail and Serenity." Ernaline was not surprised by what her older brother said. Social media and TV broadcasts contain the faces and names of those two.

Also, Ernaline won't be surprised that the two are back together. What does she care? At the speed of events in Ernaline's life, it's like she's just watching a slide show.

"So?" Ernaline asked without even looking up at her older brother.

"You want to give him up? I know you still love him, baby." Reiden said.

Ernaline explosively dropped the ballpen she was holding on the table before turning to Reiden who was just standing behind her.

"What do you know about how I feel Reiden Grei? Can you just leave and go with the company if you also have nothing to say nice?"

"You've only been hurt once Ernaline Ashleigh Montenegro. The world won't stop to sympathize with you for the pain you're feeling. You just ignored then you've been like that? Calvin always calling me to ask when will you go back or maybe I can drag you to his company again? Because of your childishness, those sponsors are leaving and even the international concerts for your band were already canceled. Now tell me? Why do I need to let this pass if I can interfere to knock all of your senses, young lady? "

Is it childish when Ernaline gives way to those two? After all the two of them had is a past relationship.

Ernaline is always an option but never a priority.

And what does she care if they lose the project?

It’s not her fault anymore! Those who leave never return!

"Just don't regret the things you've thrown away because, in the end, you're the only one who will suffer."

Ernaline didn’t utter a word as her brother left her room. Reiden’s words struck her heart with thousands of needles. Ernaline does not know what to do.

Ernaline loves Perth Dezrail, but what would she do? They engage again!

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