Her full forgiveness

Cedrick and I finished talking so I took him to his room. But before I went to sleep I thought maybe he wanted to change his clothes so I got up again and went to the guest room but when I got there, he wasn't inside so I went to the room on the side of the kitchen where I could hear the faint sound of the automatic washing machine.

"Uh.. hi... I used it. I haven't happened to ask permission because I thought you were already asleep." Cedrick immediately explained while I stared at him.

I couldn't speak right away and looked at his body. He was only wearing a white towel that surrounded his hips. And I guess he wears nothing but white towel because all of his clothes were already inside of washing machine.

"Yeah... I'm actually going to ask you about that since I have no men's clothes to lend you. I guess... you did the right thing. You're okay I guess... I'll be right back there." I pointed over my shoulder.

He immediately nodded so I rushed into my room and closed it like a teenager who was terrified of skin friction. I was holding my heart because it was so fast. I saw Cedrick tonight with only a white towel around his hips.

And his muscles are very evident... His abs perfectly shown and those hair that runs down his abdomen are damn... It makes my panties fall off.

I shook my head and slapped myself. If imagined sexy things, it's like I don't have a child! But... Is it wrong to be attracted to my son's father? I mean... Yes. I really don't hate Cedrick. I forgave him already. But I promised myself not to go against the boundary. To maintain a friendly parenting relationship but not to go with the romantic one.

But seeing him tonight... I seemed like wanting to be laid.

I wonder how big his penis is now.

And I slapped myself again for thinking that thought.

The next day, Cedrick and I went to the hospital together. Today is the day when my son will receive a blood transfusion. I did nothing but continue to pray. I hope... Everything will be fine and later or tomorrow... My Cairo will wake up. My son I love very much.

We are currently in the room and Cedrick's blood is being drawn. My chest was pounding very fast because of the nervousness and I was restless. I stayed next to this man because my son was in the doctor's hands.

"Don't worry... Everything will be fine. Our son will wake up sooner. Calm down..." Cedrick said gently while holding my hand, the nurse was still taking his blood. I nodded and I must admit that I was reassured by what he said, especially when he held my hand. The heat coming from his hand seemed to cause all my fears to melt away.

Then... I don't know if Cedrick weakened after taking blood because now he was still with me, standing by my side while looking out the window. He had just finished taking blood so he was still holding the part of his body where his blood came out earlier.

While thinking and looking at the surroundings. Cedrick retreated closer to me... My hair rose as our arms touched each other. I tasted the man and I knew he wanted to say something.

"Uh... Did Cairo know he has a dad?" he asked me shyly.

I couldn't explain it but there's something that went into my heart when I heard of his question.

Maybe now he is nervous about what might happen when Cairo wakes up. Will he be surprised when he sees him? If it will scare him? If he gets angry because of the thought that he reached five years old without his daddy? Or he will be happy because he will know that his daddy was the only man he played with before he was taken to the hospital.

I sighed. "Of course... I never erased you in his mind." I said first.

I feel that Cedrick is looking at me now but I don't look at him. "When we're in Australia... He always asks about you. He was always like this..." I crossed my eyebrows to imitate Cairo's look and tone. "Mom! Where is daddy? Come let's go home to the Philippines... I wonder if he was currently having a hard time to carry my cars. I wanna help him." We both laughed. I shook my head while laughing. "Well in fact, he was born in Australia but he called the Philippines as his home. He hasn't even been here and just now..." A smile drew on my lips.

"I should have prepared boxes of toy cars so he would believe you..." said Cedrick.

"Nah. You don't have to do that. I'm sure when he sees you..." He's listening to me and it became intense. It's like... he also wants to know how his son will interact with him when they meet for the first time. "I'm sure when he sees you... He will forgot the toys... He would probably bring you to his play room in Australia just to be his playmate. I saw then how sad and envious he was of his friends when he was with they are their daddy. And I want to torture myself for letting him feel that. Because I put my fear first... my own shamelessness... It turns out that his father accepted him rather than him. I really hate myself for depriving him of t-that." My voice broke at the last line.

I couldn't stop my tears from falling when Cedrick hugged me. My shoulders started shaking as he muttered words that melted my heart.

"Don't hate yourself for carrying our son for months. Don't hate yourself for giving birth to him. Don't be enraged for being such a strong woman, playing as the mother and the father when he's still an infant. Don 't torture your feelings for letting my baby grow in your womb despite all my doings to you. You are the best mom of all times, baby. And nothing else can compensate you for that." For now, both of us were tearing slowly.

He lifted my face with his two palms and pressed our foreheads together. Both of our eyes were shining in tears. "I love you..."

I slowly averted my eyes at him and brought my gaze onto his chest.

"Thank you, Cedrick..."

The next following days, Cedrick and I worked hard to watch over our son in the hospital. Cairo has also been moved to a room because Cedrick prefers a bigger one, which is why he has been responsible for all the hospital bills since the very first day.

We've spent the night here and it's not enough to call it home. There were so many foods and fruits on the bed side table that you would think we would eat a lot.

And finally, after a day, Cedrick and I woke up completely.

I was very happy and I wanted to hug him very tightly but it was not allowed so I only gave him light. I didn't immediately shock Cairo with the news and I explained everything to him first.

I can still hear my son's laughter because of what his daddy was telling him.

"Really, daddy?" my son asked. My heart was so happy watching them both. I didn't even see Cairo when he was talking to Cedrick. As if they had known each other for a long time. Cedrick is the same, he really treats my son as his own.

Because he seems to know it better than me because he was the last to tickle my daughter. He knows how to make a Cairo Sarquez laugh!

I stopped thinking. My son's surname is my surname. If Cedrick volunteers to add Wagner to Cairo's name... I won't stop him. He has the right to claim my son. For now... I will not be the one to initiate that topic and I will let him.

We both held Cairo's hand. I was on the left and Cedrick was on the right and we both played games with our baby's finger.

"Daddy has a lot of toy cars for you. You should get well baby, hm? So you can play with daddy. Don't you want that?" My heart flattered every time I said the word 'daddy'.

Cedrick didn't really hold me back yesterday.

It seems that he really wants to recover and his people. I'm just getting wet on my face because of its size if I spend it. But that's up to him, this is his son. That's the cost! I was at a loss because of how expensive it used to be, eh! Charot! I love it so I don't sell it.

When my baby Cairo was finally released from the hospital. The three of us had fun. We go out every day because that is my son's request. To bond with his daddy. And of course, I don't want to oppose that. It's only asking for a day compared to the year they broke up.

We went to the cinema to watch cartoons. My son likes watching the movie titled 'The Cars' since he is fond of vehicles with four wheels. Cairo is in the middle of us and the

they talk about father and son. We haven't been able to go to the arcade yet because my baby is still in the process of healing, so for now, walk and eat.

"Daddy I wanted to learn to ride that one!" Cairo shouted in a small voice when he saw a plane flying.

Cedrick and I both laughed again because I doubt that will be his next passion. Cars were not usually the first for him to like. It was all the motorcycles until it was transformed into cars. And I would like to warn Cedrick with that. "Don't worry. The next thing he will buy you is an airplane." my teasing threat.

The two men with me laughed at me. "Then why not buy my son one of it then?" Cedrick looked at Cairo. He raised an eyebrow.

"Really, daddy? You will buy me one of those planes?" Cairo was amazed by his daddy's promises.

"Why not? If it will make my son happy, why not buy it?" Cedrick. I know he is a billionaire so what he says is not impossible to happen but I am afraid of this man's prices. I stood up and temporarily moved to the other side of where Cedrick was sitting to whisper.

"Don't admit what that is. You already bought a lot of toys there. You are spoiling your son too much." I emphasized the word 'your son' so that he could feel it.

"Okay okay fine, honey. You are acting like a strict mommy now." I was not going to pay attention to what he said but I heard the word 'honey'. Why is he like to call me with various sweet call signs? Is my child's father flirting with me?

"I really am strict. Especially when it comes to that." My eyes narrowed as I pointed at Cairo.

After we watched the movie, we went out to eat. In the end, Cedrick bought Cairo a toy again when our son saw it at the mall. We are going out where his car is parked while eating ice cream. I hurried the food to support my son, because his shirt was getting dirty.

When we arrived at Seyah's house, the woman was not there so it was just the three of us. The father and son are playing again and they are now driving ahead in their remote control car. I heard every giggle of my son and his father's laughter like music to my ears.

My heart is jumping.

"That's enough. Eat now guys." I told while slowly placing the tray on the coffee table. The two men immediately turned to me. Cairo immediately came over and grabbed a sandwich. I took the face towel from his kit and wiped his back because he was sweating profusely.

When I looked back at Cedrick and the situation was the same so after I wiped my son's back and asked him. Cedrick agreed to let me wipe the sweat from his back but when I sat there, I saw a kiss mark on his shirt, and his back. It was lipstick that came from a woman's lips.

I felt something in my chest so I threw the towel behind him. "Do it yourself. You can do that. You're old." I said out loud and approached my son.

Even without looking at Cedrick, I knew he was staring at me with a frown now, confused by my sudden behavior.

When it got late, Cairo fell asleep so tired that Cedrick and I were the only ones awake. I don't understand and I still feel heavy and it's like the anger I feel towards him has come to life. I just took Cedrick outside and before he got into his car, he peeked into the house where my son was, and later returned to me.

There is concern in his eyes. "Are you still moving to Australia as soon as your off to the partnership?"

I sighed and nodded. "Yes... My work is in there."