Jealous

"You can work in my company. I can give you a higher position than you have at your company in Australia. I can also make your salary more than it. Just... don't leave the Philippines. Let's live in one house." Cedrick offered. But I was not surprised by what he said except for 'Lets live in one house'.

I pulled out a request before answering him and lowered my eyes. "I am not moving with you." I gulped.

Immediately his eyes widened. "What? I thought we were all good?" Cedrick asked.

His face can't be painted now. I read sadness here, anger, and most of all, fear. He is afraid of being separated from his son again.

And I felt a little bit guilty of that fact. Will I be the one to get in the way? Am I depriving him too much? Am I pushing him too hard? Am I testing it too much? Is my treatment of my child's father below the belt?

"We are good in terms of parenting our child. And let's not go over it. Let's maintain that friendly parenting." I then said.

Maybe I'm not below the belt. Is it below the belt that I just wants to save ourselves from pain? I am not interacting for months with Cedrick yet... And he immediately offered me to come and live in a house?

Isn't it... too early for that? Or maybe not... there is no right time for the two of us to be together. Because after all... the only reason we're talking is because of our child... Because of the child we created by accident. But if we don't have children... will we still be together like this? Will fate bring us together?

"Are you still in love with Trevor?" Cedrick asked me that takes me back to my senses. I swallowed the cold saliva stuck in my throat. Why did Trevor come in to our conversation?

"What?" I have nothing else to say but that's it. I can't even think of anything to answer. That's all, as if I didn't understand him.

"Yeah... You are... That is why you cannot see me." He arrogantly shook his head.

Is he jealous of the dead?

I narrowed my eyes at Cedrick and examined his face. "Well, what about you?" I ask a blessing.

He was surprised by what I said and slowly bowed. He sighed. "Nothing..." After he said that, he met my eyes. "Fine. I would love to respect your decision. Friendly parenting, then." He pointed over his shoulder and I don't know if it is pain that I saw in his eyes.

"I'll go now. Take care and good night..." He quickly entered his car.

I didn't even watch Cedrick make a u-turn and I entered the house first. I slept next to my son and the next day... I prepared to go to the office. I didn't want to take my son with me because Seyah was at home and Cedrick texted me to bring his son.

"Cedrick told me to bring Cairo with me." I opened to Seyah and Cairo while tying their hair.

"What?" Seyah is already frowning at the sad news because she has no one at home today.

"Really, mommy?!" Cairo asked in amazement. "Daddy wants to see me?" My son stood up and looked up at me.

After tying, I picked him up.

"Yes, baby. Why do you feel so shocked?" I asked because he was so happy as if they didn't just meet last night.

My eyebrows crossed and it felt like there was a pain in my chest when the lower smile formed on his lips, there was a hint of sadness there. "I thought daddy doesn't love me." And that's when I realized that he was really sad.

My chest pain has gotten worse, why does my child feel this way?

"Huh? Of course, daddy loves you so much. More than anything, baby." I bit his hand gently.

Cairo's lips snorted even more. "Really? But I woke up without him, mommy. He just let me sleep and when I already did... I know he left. Is daddy avoiding me, mommy?" If before it was just pain, now guilt is growing in my heart.

I fired Cedrick last night. I'm the reason why Cedrick couldn't stay here all night. I am the reason why my son wakes up without his daddy by his side. When I run away and avoid Cedrick... My son is the one who feels what I only want Cedrick to feel.

I kissed my son's forehead.

"No. Daddy's not avoiding you, okay? He just has lots of work that is why he needs to leave yesterday night. And believe me, daddy loves you." Cairo's smile drew on his lips and that's when I breathed a sigh of relief. My assurance work.

"Are we fine now?" I asked cheerfully.

"Yes, mommy."

"Yay!" I lowered Cairo carefully. "Go on, prepare your back pack so we could arrive at daddy instantly."

That's exactly what my son did so he ran quickly to the room to bring his small backpack. I sighed and sat on the sofa, remembering his questions earlier.

"See? The child is already feeling inadequate and then you're going back to Australia? As for Sherin... He already knows Cedrick. He has seen his daddy. He's been missing his father for a long time. Then you're going to keep him away? Come on... Cedrick feels fear and anger. And... your conscience will kill you for the rest of your life if you do that." Seyah told a long story.

I sighed again. "I'll think about it..." I stopped for a moment and remembered the words Cedrick told me just yesterday.

"Well... Cedrick asked me last night to live in the same house. He offered me to work on his company." I stated.

"And what was your answer?" Seyah asked curiously.

I sighed for another time. "Of course... I did not agree. I told him to maintain the friendly parenting."

"Stupida! Gosh! That would have been a cruel gift to your child! Think about it, it was the father who made the offer! Well, the other woman who got pregnant by accident is the one chasing after the child's father them. You are a dick, Sherin. You still have the urge to refuse, huh?" Seyah said to me me as if I was not her friend.

"I got pregnant by accident but I'm not claiming alimony." I chatted back.

"But your son? Don't you think he's not seeking attention?" Seyah lectured me again. "Think of the possibilities if Cedrick ever looks for a settlement. Then he found it with another woman and not with you. Then there they go, they had a child. Of course, don't forget that even though Cairo is his first child... He will still prioritize his legal family. You should not waste the opportunity while it's still early. If I were you, I would ask Cedrick to marry me so that my son would forever have his father!"

We arrived at Cedrick's company and we grabbed as usual because I don't have a license yet. Upon arrival, Cedrick immediately picked up Cairo and brought him to the small playing room inside his office. I was surprised again, why is he so fast like this?

While our son was playing inside, I was at the coffee table in Cedrick's office to help him organize the papers he was going to sign. I'm done with my duty and I'm here so I can quickly answer his questions in case he doesn't understand something when it comes to the partnership.

Just a few moments... I just raised my eyes to the door when a woman entered it. My brows slightly met. Who is she? She was wearing a red dress, it has a lower neckline enough to reveal her chest. And it's obvious from her movements that she's attracted to Cedrick. She's still benting so down so the man can see her cleavage.

I don't know and my ears feel like smoke.

I also looked away when I heard them talking. They even kissed and they seemed so close to each other.

"How are you, Mister Wagner? I haven't heard from you these past few months..." the woman began in a sexy voice and sat in Cedrick's front seat. I raised an eyebrow. Haven't heard from him these past months huh? I think Cedrick used to update her about his weekend every day.

The woman continued to speak. I think he hasn't noticed me on the side because he is busy talking and all his attention is on my son's father.

"Yeah? I'm good. You? I heard you are expanding your bar in Makati." Cedrick responded. He is really updated on this woman's life. I wonder if they used to be fuck buddies. Or maybe this girl was Cedrick's ex.

"Yeah, actually..." I pretended to be busy with what I was doing when I heard that woman's increasingly exaggerated voice. I was simply watching them with my peripheral vision and I could see how he was fondling Cedrick's arm.

"Next week is the opening of it... You are free to come... It will start at exactly 12 midnight. Don't bring others with you..." she added. Maybe she wanted Cedrick to be alone that night. So she could lay beside him.

I bit the inside of my cheek in annoyance.

"Yeah. I will surely go. Expect my appearance there. And anyway, congratulations..." And right there my chest was torn when I saw Cedrick standing up to reach for the small bouquet of red roses at his side to give to woman.

My breathing is heavy.

The woman clapped for joy. The red roses match her dress. And Cedrick might have analyzed her very well before she could even make herself visit his office. "Wow. You are so nice." The woman kissed Cedrick on his cheek.

And because of that I remembered what just happened to Cedrick and me yesterday. That lipstick mark on his back is surely from this girl.

And he still had the courage to invite us and his son to live in the same house with him, huh? I'm sure his with this girl then. And he only took me with him so that I would agree to put Cairo in his custody. How rude he is to be a father of my son.

I got up to leave the office because I didn't want to hear their conversation. I badly need a peace of mind.

"Oh! Who is she?" the woman asked when she saw me. Finally.

"Her?" Cedrick's tone of voice puzzled me when I asked. "She is... my friend." Cedrick declared. With that, I walked outside the room without taking even a short glance at them. I am fucking furious.

I just cooled my head for a while outside and when I returned to Cedrick's office, his woman was gone. I continued without looking at him and peeked at my baby inside his playroom, that's when I felt relieved that's why my smile formed on my lips.

He was eating and his eyes turned to me when he heard my footsteps. I sided with him. "You are eating." I said and wiped the side of his lips.

"You want some, mommy?" He handed me a piece of cookie. I grabbed it and tasted it.

"Daddy cooked these." Cairo said while chewing. I raised an eyebrow. Cedrick cooked all this? I looked at the food, It was plated really for a child. There is also a sandwich topped with my smile face using chocolate syrup.

I couldn't help but smile. I tried to deny it but I was happy. The effort.

"How about me? You won't ask daddy?" My jaw dropped when I heard Cedrick's voice. He was leaning on the door frame and smiling staring at my son.

"Of course I will give you more daddy! Come! Let's eat." My heart rejoices every time I listen to my son's shrill voice.

Cedrick followed and sat on the floor. He took Cairo and made him sit on his lap.

"Feed daddy." Cedrick opened his mouth, ready to give his son a cookie. They both laughed when Cedrick was about to bite, I started laughing too the reason why my son's father looked at me.

I looked away and tormented him. "That's all it should be. That little boy was sulking from you lately." I snorted a little.

"Really? Why?" Cedrick asked his son tenderly.

"Mommy..." It was Cairo's voice.

Embarrassed because I told his daddy.

"Why baby? What is it?" His father's voice got softer.

"You don't love him." I answered.

"What? Nah, I love you. I love you so much baby. Why to think of that?" Cedrick defended.

My son's vision is slowly decreasing. "It was because... I woke up without you daddy... You left immediately.." Cairo could no longer hide the sadness in his voice.

Cedrick and I face each other now. After we had a little family moment... We both stood facing each other. My arms were crossed in front of me while glancing at the door of Cairo's playroom because he might hear what we were talking about.

"You know the reason why I left... You know I can't stay longer there." Cedrick's introduction.

"Yes." I answered.

"Then why didn't you tell him about it?"

"And you want me to destroy my image with our son? No matter what I try to explain it to him Cedrick... I know he won't understand me." I felt dizzy.

"And you want my image to ruin instead? It turns out that he's sulking towards me. What if I didn't find it out? He will surely take steps away from me."

I couldn't meet Cedrick's eyes because I knew there was something wrong with me too.

"That's why I told you."

"He was sulking because he woke up without me by his side..." He was slowly shaking his head. "Why can't we just be together? Sherin... Look, tell me what you don't like about me and I'll change it..." He softened his voice at the end and held my hand.

My knees weakened even more when he came closer to me.

"Sherin..." I gasped when his chest pressed against my arm.

I stepped back. "Why should we be together under one roof?" I asked.

"Because we have a son."

"'That's all?" I swallowed saliva. Damn. Why the fuck I sounded like I was asking for more?!

"Let's be a family. Let's give the best and complete family to our son I hadn't experienced before." He sighed... And I immediately turned to him after that. Yes, he never mentioned any of his parents to me before. It's really... an incomplete family.

"I know how it feels missing the presence of a mom... I know how sad it is having no dad at your side. And... I don't want Cairo experienced that. Please baby... Let's be a family ."

Cedrick approached me again so I raised my hand. I couldn't breathe because my heart was beating so fast. I sighed before answering him.

"Fine..." I gulped. "Just... Just don't bring another woman in your house when your son is around. I don't want him seeing his dad having an affair with another woman." I couldn't look at him so he himself lifted my chin so that our eyes met.

My eyes widened because he brought his face closer. "I will never ever bring another woman. You are my only woman." If only we could say any damn thing... I'll let my panties really fall because of what he's doing now!

"Just me? Really?" I let him sense the sarcasm in my voice. "Then why did you have a kiss mark on the back of your shirt? Just, yesterday. And today. You have that woman who has a huge and healthy breast compared to me inside your office." I demanded.

I couldn't resist when he suddenly kissed me. He came closer to me while cupping my cheeks in his palms and gently kissing me. In the end... I retaliated and wrapped my arms around my son's father's neck. The private parts of our bodies were rubbing together which caused a scorching heat between the two of us.

Cedrick pulled me gently away from him, but he maintained the closeness of our foreheads and private parts.

"Move into my house later so we could continue this at midnight..." He then kissed me again as his hand traveled across my tummy, reaching for my mounds. When his hand pinched my right breast... I moaned sensually.