Chapter 52

My sister-in-law laughs, “you know how spoiled she is by her father and uncle, a good thing for my girl to fall into a family of pure men,” my boy starts to stammer, “look at him agreeing, I just hope that the one who is on the way is the same girl.” I can't stop smiling, these exits do me very good.

Arriving at the park, we fix the children in their strollers, Loan, Francesco and Fatima come up to us, I was hoping that Kahin would come with Loan, but I was wrong.

"It’s about time," the stupid man comes out as usual, “youhave taken a long time."

I roll my eyes, “fool of my soul, I will shut my mouth and be a good boy if I were you okay?” My friend frowns but says nothing, my sun greets the babies and then us.

"Come on, it's a beautiful day," he encourages us. It gives me some resentment to see him so calm despite the pain that he cannot bear at times, and without wanting to make him fat I follow him in silence.

We laugh until we cry, my friends run around like children while Lucy and I take care of the babies.

“Good thing then,” Loan approaches, “you are bringing children into the world without regard,” he makes cuddles to the babies.

"And when will yours be?" Asks Lucelia, “you're old Loan, you're not 20 years old man.” What I see on his face is something that should never be seen in a man with a partner, contempt hurts and that it is not with us, when I look at my friend I can notice that her eyes lose their shine.

"I'm not going to have children, that's for me" he laughs incredulously.

"Come on, Panama is your country!" I look at him, still laughing, "having a child of yours is a fucking favor they do you, because those shitty genes have to be afraid of them. But what have you believed? That your sperm are so wonderful that they are not worthy of any woman? Or is it that perhaps you do not curdle and therefore the negative? My dear you can be a stupid man, but you idiot hurts in everything, you silly shit.”

He looks at everyone present and finally at me, "I swear I like how you always improve yourself and move on, I love that about you, I swear you do, but every time you say something to offend me reminds me of how viper you are."

I raise an eyebrow and smirk, “the hurtful one is even sensitive. How would you have feel if Carla had made a disgusted face and said that she would not have a child from you? And I want you to answer me,” he looks at my friend who is trying to act unaffected.

“I would be pissed off of course, a son of mine is the best thing that could happen to her.”

Stunned by what I hear, I try not to lose my temper, “blond you have beautiful eyes and a body of infarction of course yes, but do not believe that you are Chris Hemsworth's daddy.”

"Fuck, right in his empowered macho pride," Fatima laughs and we all follow.

"You're a witch Marilí, you really are, I don't know how Hamann fell in love with you and that way of your being."

Looking at him with amusement I shrug, “he likes my charm," I wink. We stopped bothering the idiot who no longer knew what to do, my friend relaxes and ignores the disdain that that idiot has made her.

"How do you feel my sun?" I ask, sitting next to him, I wrap my arm around his arm and rest my head on his shoulder.

"The usual, my head hurts a little, that tumor is screwing me up," he smiles like the fool he is.

"I hate this Fran, I want you to receive the treatments.”

He looks at me fondly, “do you want to see me the last months of my life bald, tired and sore from the whole process? Don't you think it's better to see me smile, be with you and enjoying every second of life?”

I try not to cry, “I like to see you happy and enjoying of course,” I caress his cheek, “I love you Francesco Leone, you are my favorite person and it will always be that way,” without being able to bear it anymore I let out the tears, “I thank God and life for having put you on that plane,” I smile between my tears, “you are the best thing that can happen in someone's life,” he embraces me with some force.

“Wonder, you have saved my life, you have done what many people for fear of suffering did not do, you opened your heart to me and accepted me despite my destiny,” he releases me, wipes my tears while looking into my eyes, “always look for a way to be happy, don't waste time in arguments and fights, if something bothers you say so, if you hurt someone, ask for forgiveness, but never stop living for things that you don't like, remember that there are many good things to always smile with,” with emotions on the surface, I start to cry as if I would not see him anymore.

"Here we are again," Fatima sits next to me, "Fran, you're being a bad friend, you should ..."

“Fatima please don't do it,” he cuts her off, “the decision has already been made, I'm happy I'm not alone in the world anymore, I have a wonder that makes me happy although now she's always crying, I have friends that I appreciate a lot, I have an enemy and he is Hamann, I have a little wife and a daughter,” he smiles brightly, “I can't ask for anything more, I just have to take advantage of this and wait for my moment and by the time it arrives, I want you all to be strong,” every second, the more shattered I feel. I hate life, the kindest people are the ones who always suffer the most.

"I can't handle this Francesco, how am I going to be able to give an order to end your life?" Never had a promise weighed as much as this one I made to him. "How could you ask me when I couldn't take it anymore? Will I order you to sleep with your pain?” The pain I am feeling is heartbreaking, it is difficult when you know that there is no turning back for that person you love and want in your life forever.

“I just want you to be strong, and to remember me as I am, I don't want to be remembered thin, broken and dying in a hospital bed, I won't allow it, I don't want to suffer more than I should, that's why when I tell you, you must order them to end my suffering.”

Wiping my tears I get up, "I hate having promised you something like that, I hate having to support you in this decision. I hate what is happening to you," my sun rises and hugs me tightly, I take refuge in his arms, I would never stop feeling his heat or his scent.