Fourteen

~ RILEY~

For a moment everything turned pitch black then suddenly I'm a six year old sitting in the backseat of a Suburban with my father arguing with my mother who is sitting in the passenger seat, the two of them so caught up in their argument they failed to notice an incoming truck of timber driving on the wrong lane.

Since I was three I've been bipolar, I've been refusing to communicate with anybody other than my parents who I rarely speak to. I have a feeling of inertia almost every time and I hate it when anybody disturbs my peace eventually this led to violent fits of anger.

When I was six I got into trouble because I stabbed a boy with a pencil for calling me a weirdo. My parents were consulted and they were scolded by my principal because of my behavior, blaming it on bad parenting and suggesting therapy sessions twice a week.

The tension in the car was heavy as a wet blanket as my father drove us home, He was breathing heavily because of the anger building up in his chest.

"I really don't know why he would do such a thing, it is your fault Margaret for letting him watch violent movies" My father said angrily.

"Don't even try to blame this one on me Franklin, if you had been there for him as a father he wouldn't step out of line this much".

"I can clearly see where he got his attitude from, anyways I'm going with the principal's advice about the therapy"

"I will not allow someone else tell me how to raise my son" My mother snapped at him.

Their argument got more intense, my father no longer had his eyes on the road so he didn't notice the truck driving on the wrong lane. I opened my mouth in an attempt to to warn him but nothing came out.....I just froze.

Crash!!!.

I was the cause of it, the cause of their deaths and ever since then I've been constantly haunted by this experience, in my dreams, in hallucinations I am reminded of this horrible incident. Whenever it happens I just freeze and lose touch with reality.

"Riley...."

"Riley!."

I faced her angrily,"What?!."

"What's up with you?."She asked and her grey eyes caught my attention.

"It's none of your business, leave me alone."I yelled.

"What the hell is wrong with you?! , are you mad that I won?." She questioned.

"You won, so what?!."

"So this is about the game."She smirked as she folded her arms.

"It's not about any damn game , just leave."

"I won't."

I groaned , "Can you just fuck off already?!."

Her facial expression hardened into a glare , "Another reason why I despise you , son of a bitch!."

She stood up to leave but I pulled her back angrily,my jaw clenched.

"What the hell did you just call me?!."I tightened my grip on her wrist.

She groaned, " Let go of me right now!."

She struggled to break free.

"You are hurting me!." She cried.

"You have a sharp mouth , don't you?!."

"I said let go!."

Her palm made contact with my face as a hot slap landed across.

My jaw hardened and clenched my fist.

I won't hit her , I can't hit her.

She backed away as I stood up.

I didn't say a word to her , I left her and headed upstairs.

The reason I got mad at her , the first day we met was because she wanted to make me cause an accident again but this time , it wasn't my dad.

~IVY~

"Babe , are you going to Jason's house party tonight?."I asked Asher, my boyfriend.

"Yeah."

"I want to come."

"Why?, You aren't invited." He frowned.

"But he's your friend and I'm your girlfriend , why can't I come?."I questioned.

"You can't come because you will make things awkward for me."

Ouch.

"How?." I whispered in a sad tone.

He scratched the back of his neck, "Antisocial teens don't go to parties , you will want me to always be around you throughout the party and you will think everygirl I talk to or talks to me , we are going to end up doing something." He explained.

I couldn't say a word to him.

"Okay." I faked a smile and walked away.

He left for the party later and I decided to make my night not so boring without him.

It was already two hours into the party when I checked the time.

Tessa called me.

She was the only friend aside my cousin that I had and sometimes I tend to drift away from them but they are always there to make my life social or something like that.

"Hey , bitch."

"Hi , bitch bitch." She greeted back across the phone.

"What are you doing?." She asked.

"Watching Netflix and about to eat popcorn." I answered her.

"That's boring , why aren't you at the party?."She inquired.

"Well , Asher said I won't fit in because I'm antisocial." I blurted out.

She hesitated before replying.

"I'm at the party right now , why don't you come, let's have some fun." Her voice feigned excitement.

"Well , that's sound like a great idea , let me put on some party clothes , give me 15 , I will be there."

"See you soon , bitch." She hung up.

I couldn't stop smiling , I was going to surprise Asher tonight , only for this night , I will try to socialize and have fun , I won't make things awkward for him.

I put on a strapless top and short leather skirt that had slit at the side.

I smiled and decided to grab my jean jacket , I dont like exposing my body.

I grabbed my bag and car keys , I locked the door , I was so lucky my parents travelled for their so called business meeting which ended up as trip because obviously billionaires always waste time.

I bribed the maids and driver and security guards to let me go out because I told them , I would be at my cousins'.

I hopped into my Range Rover that my dad got me for my birthday.

Finally , no driver or maids to treat you like a child.

I drove to the party , it didn't take long before I got there since Jason's house wasn't far away."

I saw Tessa waiting outside , she stopped talking to a tall guy and ran to hug me.

"Hey , you ."

I admired her French braids, "I like what you did to your hair."

"Thank you." She blushed.

"You are looking sexy tonight." She touched my boobs since I was braless.

I knocked her hands off.

"Don't pull that gay shit on me." I jokingly warned her.

Yes , Tess was bisexual , sometimes she likes boys then she switches to girls.

It took her time before she could open up to me because she thought I would stay away from her because I didn't want her to throw any advances on me.

I actually supported her and stayed with her , although one or two times , I acted gay with her but I wasn't.

We have never had sex before , just pecks on the lips although , she and my cousin , Jess had a one night stand.

"But they are soft to touch and they are looking bigger than ever.." She whined.

I rolled my eyes at her , " Fine , you can, only because you are drunk."

"Yayyy." She happily pressed them.

The things I do for my bestfriend.

She stopped eventually , when she was done playing with my boobs.

I wonder how I never felt a sweet tingly feeling by what she did.

Maybe because I'm straight asf.

"Where's Asher?." I questioned.

She stayed quiet , "About that..I didn't want to tell you because I was scared , you might not concentrate while driving.."

"Yeah , go on , did something happen to him?." I inquired.

"I saw him making out with a girl." She dropped the bombshell.

My heart literally broke like if I wasn't human , you would hear the sound of a glass heart shattering.

"Making out?." I squeezed my eyes shut because tears were already welling up.

"Yeah and you wouldn't want to know the girl."

My eyes were still close, "Tell me who?."

"Jess."

No , no , it can't be.

As soon as I opened my eyes , tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Which Jess? , It can't be my cousin?." I faltered.

"Ivy...."

I looked at her , sadness clouded her features , her eyes held pity.

Here , I thought I was going to make my so called boyfriend have the best time of his life but I didn't know that the douchebag , the guy I trusted , the guy I took as my best bestfriend , the guy I thought what we had was well , the same guy who acted as if he cared so much about me and my mental health was having the best time of his life with my cousin , Jess , the girl who took as my sister when Ivory died.

The thought of Jess made me remember Ivory , I missed her so much.

Why did you leave me ?!.

Everything flashed , the night they tried to use to defibrillator to bring her back but they couldn't , I lost her .

I stayed away from everybody because of the shock , I lost my bestfriend , my other half , a part of me was gone forever , I had nightmares and I had dreams when I saw her and whenever I woke up , I would always remember that it was just a dream.

I took Jess in because she was there , she acted like a sister figure but I guess she was just acting .

" Where are they?."

"Upstairs, about to if not having sex right now." She responded.

I pulled her into the house and she took me to the room , I looked at his friends , they had shocked facial expression.

Betrayers!.

We got upstairs and I stood in front of the room, I took in a very deep breath even though I was boiling inside.

If I didn't calm down , my parents would probably see their daughter on TV in handcuffs or in a hospital.

I opened the door , I knew it wasn't locked , both Asher and Jess had the same habit of not locking the door while having sex.

They both turned to look at me with shock and fear in their eyes.

She covered her body with duvet.

"Babe...."

I raised my hands to stop him.

I laughed and sniffed , "So this is the reason why you didn't want me to come to the party? And I thought I was the problem."

"You made me feel being antisocial was a disease and here I am, planning on having fun with my so called boyfriend ."

"Big joke , that's what I'm , my boyfriend is having sex with my cousin!." I yelled and she flinched.

"Jess , when I look at you , I just want to murder you because right now , I hate you so much!." I bellowed.

"It's not my fault , that you couldn't tame your boyfriend , he's wild and he needs someone who can match that." She found her voice and commented.

I looked at Asher.

He didn't look remorseful but he was trying to act that way.

"I'm so stupid." I told myself.

"What did I ever do to you?." I begged him to speak.

"Ivy ,I'm sorry that I made a mistake , you were never the one for me , I was only keeping you because I didn't want to increase my body count , I never loved you , when I first had sex with Jess , I couldn't stop , that's where I started falling out of love with you."

It all made sense from the point , he started acting cold towards me and Jess always coming around.

This wasn't the first time , they were having sex.

I didn't know what to do , I couldn't fight her , the last time I fought a girl , she had head injury because I hit her head with a stick, they pressed charges against my parents and almost ruined their name ,I promised not to harm anybody again.

I was on the verge of losing it and going all psychopathic but there was no use , they weren't worth.

"Enjoy."

I turned and walked away.

None of them felt remorseful over it , how could they be so heartless.

Tessa had to come with me because she was scared of what I would do alone.

We packed my stuff out of his house and went to hers.

I cried myself to sleep .

PTSD didn't give me a chance to move on because I kept having frequent vivid flashbacks.

It made sense , why would a hot jock like Asher ever be loyal to a girl like me.

I'm a mess.

There was a time in our relationship , I actually got scared and didn't trust him because I thought he would leave soon but when he stuck around , I changed my opinion on that.

But now , I guess my insecurity were correct , overthinking never lies.

I was only surprised by how Jess could be so fake and evil.

Tessa was there to support me , at some point I thought she was going to betray me too so I drifted away and became so cold and rude but she stuck around.

When I met Riley , I instantly hated him because why the hell would he look like Asher.

Everytime , I looked at him , he reminded so much of Asher and I didn't want to let a second Asher get into my head and heart.

* * *

I woke up , wanting nothing more than leave his house and go back to my dorm even if it means facing Kim.

I'm caught between the devil and the deep blue sea.

If Layla and Madisyn thought that leaving just Riley and I alone for a night would make us magically become friends or even worse , fall in love then they are just swimming in the ocean of fantasy.

Last night , things happened and I slapped him , I didn't want to but I just had to , he was being rude for no reason and he hurt me.

We slept in separate rooms , I or should I say , we had lectures this morning.

I planned to take a cab or an Uber to campus because I knew better than to try to be friendly with him.

I got dressed in my well ironed skirt and white long sleeve shirt.

I grabbed my bag and headed downstairs.

I met him and I just wanted to sneak out with his knowledge.

"Where do you think you are going, poisoned Ivy?." He interrogated me in his deep voice.

I paused and slowly turned around.

I took in the sight of him,his long sleeve shirt was completely unbuttoned, I could see his toned abs.

His hands went to his shirt as he buttoned them and then to his belt to buckle them, he raised his head to access me.

I forced a smile,"Good morning to you too."

Last night....it made me realize alot of things, Riley was actually a lonely teen and whatever made him freeze and break away from reality and even made him angry was something serious but my dumb self couldn't understand yesterday.

He scrutinized me with his eyes , he licked his lips and his mouth curved into a smirk.

"Don't you think that skirt is too short, my love?..I wouldn't want other guys trying to eye fuck what's mine."

Yours?...His?.

I rolled my eyes as I groaned in frustration, "It's too early for us to bicker but don't call me love and I'm not yours." I corrected him.

"I will and can call you whatever I want..., Ivy." The way he pronounced my name.

"Riley...."

"Yeah."

"I'm sorry....I'm sorry about last night , I shouldn't have.."I started apologizing.

"Oh , it's okay , I'm the one who's supposed to apologise , I was unnecessarily rude." He stated.

Did he just apologize?!.

Wow...

What happened to Riley Anderson, I think someone replaced him with a twin or even worst , a clone last night.

My facial expression which held shock was enough to make him laugh.

"Surprised huh?."

"More than..."

He shook his head, "Come on , let's go , we don't want to be late." He said as he grabbed his car keys.