Chapter 30 Feelings

Venice Claire's POV

They are taking me again to the Clinic and again I get out of their hold when I sensed no one in the area. I put my hood on. Cassy has been yelling at me until now.

"Hey! Where are you going?" She yelled following me. Drena is silent behind us.

"To our room." I simply answered.

"Don't you even feel any pain!?" She asked as she looked at me up and down many times. Shocked to see me in a good state. I ignored her.

"You should just let her hit me! If it's not for the Insigma fighters, she might have killed you." She stated but the worry is evident in her face.

"Insigma Fighters?" I asked.

"The four of them Xenon, Lucas, Coby and... Adrian. They are the best of the best fighters in this academy. They're known as the Insigma Fighters because of their fame." Drena explained with sadness in her voice as she looked down.

"Can you please tell me what's going on!?" She asked the moment the door of our room closed. "You two seem to ignore me like, there's nothing happened!" She yelled. "And you!" She pointed out to Drena "Why did you just let Daniela beat her!?" Then she pointed at me.

Drena lowered her head.

"I told her." I simply stated.

She was taken aback "What!?" She asked.

"I made her promise not to interrupt my fight." As I lay down in my bed, I did it every time I don't want to hear scoldings from anyone.

"I didn't even see a fight in there!" She scolded.

"Let's prepare for our next class now." I stand up and decided to walk towards the door. Tch. She wouldn't stop.

But someone held my wrist, stopping me. I looked at her. Drena. "Not now." She looked at my eyes intensely.

"I know you are putting an act, so stick with it." She said with a serious face "For days." She continued.

She's right. It would be suspicious if I go around without bruises or I go around feeling nothing. I nodded and go back to bed.

"Oh no, don't ignore me!" Cassy throws her hands in the air looking frustrated.

"Look at me, Cassy." I'm serious now, there are so many things in my mind especially that Xenon... He has an effect on my body!

She looked at me "Now, explain." She said using her serious voice.

"Ask another question about me and by tomorrow I'm gone," I told her the words that I know can stop her.

She was taken aback. Suddenly, her face turned sad "I'm sorry." She looked down. I can sense Drena looked away, her hands clenched.

"Go to your classes now," I demanded which they immediately obeyed.

I closed my eyes and hear the door opened and closed, they went out silently. I needed pain, right now. My body is now starting to be hysterical.

I immediately changed in my sweat pants and shirt and wear my rubber shoes. I took a small backpack with me which consists of The Silencer suit and black hooded Jacket.

I went out for a run. I ran far away and let The Silencer take over, when she gets back to sleep I looked around to see that I'm still in the forest. I am now wearing the suit as I looked at the time 10 pm. I run towards the big tree and take out my black Ducati.

I took out my cape and changed it with my hooded jacket then I started the engine. The moment I reached the City proper, I looked around searching for the highest place.

Then I found a tower near the tall buildings, it is the tallest I've seen. There's a clock near the top and a circular platform above the clock. Perfect.

I parked my black Ducati at the bottom but hidden for anyone to see. I started climbing, no one can see because it's dark and I'm wearing dark clothes.

I need a place to think, and this is the best place I know... The highest place.

The moment I reached it, I breathed deeply, feeling the air, but I can't feel it. I'm numb. Feelings are not with me anymore.

One can say it's cold but I can't feel cold. One can burn in the fire but I don't because I can't feel it. One can feel pain and my body yearn for it, but the feeling of pain is not there. My body just wants to have it, it's my drug.

I want to stab myself but I can't. It happened before at the mansion, I stabbed myself many times but my mom became hysterical the moment she knew about it, so she made me promised to stop. And I did... for her. So running nonstop is my only option, running is vigorous.

Feelings. And then I remembered.

Earlier I felt my blood boil, I know it's anger. 8, 10, or 11 years ago? I can't even remember when did my body stopped reacting to anger. All I know is, my body never reacted to any emotions anymore nor felt it.

I know the meaning of friendship but I don't feel it, I just stick to its meaning.

The only thing I know that functions properly is my mind, it controls my body. Emotions don't control it anymore and... Pain charges my body to maintain my mind in proper function. But earlier it reacted.

Why? It's because of him. Xenon. What's with that guy? I have to find out.

That Xenon guy. He can help me back what I've lost. I took the circular metal out of my pocket which I still have from 7 years ago. It's from him, probably.

Speaking of that Xenon guy, his smell passed through my nose, just now. I looked around to see one of the rooftops not far from me, probably 90 meters away. I put the circular metal back in my pocket, it's always been in my suit.

There's a man in a black sweater up there with a sniper gun talking in a walkie-talkie. It's him, Xenon, the smell is coming from that man, so it's definitely... him.