Chapter 71 Her Notebook

Venice Claire's POV

My third class just ended and I didn't saw Coby at my first class. I know they decided to attend but... well, I don't care about him. Suddenly, my phone rang, I looked at it. Drena.

"Yes," I stated the moment I answered the phone.

"Claire! Cassy is horrible, she's here on the rooftop crying so we can't go in the restaurant right now." Drena said in worry.

"Okay, I'll go buy food and go there."

"Thank you Claire!" and she ended the call.

I walked towards the restaurant and buy some food. Take out of course but the moment I got out of the restaurant Coby blocked my way, a drop of sweat is falling from his face. He looked like a person who runs for miles while holding a notebook in his hand.

"Claire, have you seen Cassy?" He asked wearing so many emotions but hope is dominating.

I just looked at him wearing no emotions and after a moment he saw the food package I'm carrying. "Please Claire, tell me where she is. I really need to see her..." He pleaded desperately.

Quarrel... "It's not my place to tell." I walked past him but he stopped me by holding my wrist.

"Claire, I'm begging you. I need to talk to her. I can't lose her... please Claire, help me just this time." He begged but I don't have a heart when it comes to others no matter how much they begged. I cried begging a long time ago to my own parents but they never have ears for me... they never listen.

"I don't have the right to tell you. It's hers. Wait until she cools down and ready to listen. She'll face you." I plainly stated and took my arm out of his hold.

When I continued walking, I saw Xenon, Lucas, and Adrian at a distance walking towards us, looking cool. I can see girls at the side staring at them in admiration others are giggling and taking pictures like they are celebrities while boys looked at them in either adoration or fear.

They are really intimidating as they held so much power every time they walked which can attract everyone's attention. I walked until I faced him as they stopped in front of me.

"We'll be fine, don't worry. Can I ask you a favor?" I asked Xenon.

He nodded "Anything." He stated softly staring deeply at my eyes. How did I make this man fall in love with me?

"Don't let him follow me," I stated and he looked at my back definitely towards desperate Coby.

"Granted. Just stay safe, don't let your phone away from you." He said as he looked at me once again.

I nodded and started walking away. I knew he secretly put a tracking device on my phone. I let it stay to ease his worry and... to be fair 'coz I put one on him too. *smirked*

The moment I reached the rooftop, "It hurts Dren, I don't have the right to feel it but it just hurt so much!" Cassy said crying.

I walked closer to see Drena caressing her back softly. "Just let it out Cassy, just let it all out." She said in her soothing voice, I can see the sadness in both of them, is this how love affect a person?

"It's been two fucking years! I hate myself!" Cassy yelled more to herself. "Aaahhhhh!!!!!" She screamed getting all anger out of her. "I'm so stupid!!!" She shouted to nowhere.

Watching her, I couldn't help but ask myself again, is this how human acted when they are hurt so much? They went crazy...

"Claire! How long have you been there?" Drena asked the moment she saw me which made Cassy turned to me. Tears are coming out of her eyes but she wiped them using her hands.

"Not long. I brought your food." I said as I placed the food on the bench. This rooftop has a bench in the middle so quite good for a relaxing place.

"Thank you, Claire." Cassy and Drena said in chorus but Cassy still let out sobs.

"How do you feel?" Drena asked Cassy.

"I feel lighter. Thank you." She answered smiling weakly.

"Let's eat," Drena said preparing the packed lunch for the three of us.

We ate in silence and when we finished our lunch. Drena faced Cassy "So, what's your plan?" We were sitting on the bench next to each other and Cassy is right in the middle.

"I don't want to face him. I can't. I'm so tired of this... unrequited love." She said in sadness as her tears are threatening to fall once again.

"Does he know?" I plainly asked looking straight.

"N-no." She answered sobbing.

"Did he say he doesn't love you?" I asked once again.

"No, but I saw him k-kissing a girl." A tear falls from her eyes and Drena caressed her back again for a comfort.

"Sometimes, what you believe is not the reality," I stated standing up watching the view in front. Like, what you see through my appearance is not real... what they think they knew about me is not true.

"The reality? He's a playboy and that's the reality! I blame myself for letting my heart fall to that ignorant man!" She shouted.

I smirked "Even a monster can fall in love, how come a playboy can't?" I asked facing them. Even this monster... fell... for love.

"Wha-what do you mean?" Drena stuttered as curiosity filled her.

"I'm just stating a fact." I said shrugging "Even Dracula killed for love."

Drena breathed and faced Cassy, "Why don't you ask him? And tell him the truth... learn to know the truth as well so your heart will be on ease Cassy."

"I'll try but for now... I can't face him." Cassy said, slowly shaking her head.

"Okay, don't worry... we're always here." Drena holds her hand and softly smiled to soothe her, Cassy smiled weakly.

Coby's POV

The moment I saw her standing in shock, my heartbeat started pounding so fast "Oh, shit!" Because of one thing... FEAR. I'm afraid to lose her, I'm afraid she will avoid me like a plague, I'm afraid she won't talk to me again... I tried following her but suddenly I stepped on something...

I looked at it to see a notebook... her notebook "Cassandra!" I called but she ignored me and continued running away. I took it and ran after her but when I looked around she's nowhere to be seen.

Agh! I punched the wall near me. I can't understand myself! I don't want to love someone... I hate being hurt... I hate being played... that's why I choose to be the one who played girls.

But... she woke me up. That slapped of her woke me up from reality. She changed my beliefs, she changed me. That day I stopped flirting. I just wanted to see her every moment of my life, I wanted her to always notice my presence, only mine... so I keep on pestering her and I love to see her reactions. It was funny. She makes me laugh, she makes me happy...

Cassandra, what did you do to me? I keep on punching the wall until I leaned on it and sit down on the ground bend in one knee, looking straight.

I like her... but I'm afraid to fall in love again. I keep on pulling back my feelings for her, I'm afraid to be hurt again, I'm afraid to be played again... I'm afraid to be used again. No one can truly love me. I'm afraid to take a risk and I know I'm a coward.

Seeing her face every day, every moment is enough. I raised my one hand and suddenly I realized I'm holding a notebook. Her notebook.