Chapter 72 My Man

There is a pull that wanting me to open it. And I don't know why but, I did... I got to see the first page but when I read 'Dear Diary', I suddenly feel my heart beats faster and so I aimed to close it because I hate invading others' privacy. However, before I completely close the notebook, my eyes caught my name. I stopped and I think my mind freeze for a moment. The beating of my heart turned faster than it was earlier.

The date tells that it was written during the first day of school when we were still in 1st-year level. How did my name get here? So, curiosity made me read it...

'Hello, dear diary! Guess what? I like someone! His name is Coby De Vera.' I stiffened the moment I read it. She likes me 2 years a-ago!? I could feel heat rise up to my face, am I blushing!? And my heart... it's getting insane, but I still continue,

"He saved me from that evil man with a scar on the face. The very first moment I laid my eyes on Coby, I saw an angel! My angel!" I turned to look back from the past... 'man with a scar on the face' then I suddenly remember Leo dragging a girl towards the Janitor's Office... it was Cassandra! I suddenly feel the rage of anger the moment I realized it. That bastard!

I turned the page, it's the second day of class... "Today, I searched for Coby De Vera, and guess what? I found him but I discovered that he's out of my reach... Coby is famous and he has so many beautiful girls around him. It hurts seeing Coby with some other girls but you know? I just imagined my pretty self at their place instead of their ugly faces! Aish! I dreamed that... he looked at me! But it was just a dream because I know my boundary." Oh, Cassy... what have I done? I turned to another page but with a tear falling down to my cheek.

"Hello, dear diary! It's been my hobby to watch him every day, he always makes my day! It's our secret okay... I'm the biggest stalker of Coby De Vera. Ahh! I hate myself, but I can't stop it. I like him... no! I'm already falling in love with him! He never looked at me but it's fine, just watching him from afar makes me happy." Cassandra, why did you let yourself fall in love with a cowardly man like me? I was afraid to turn to another page but I can't help it, my hand just turned it and every time I read every page my heart clenches remembering what I'd done to her.

I always made her mad not knowing that she's the girl who secretly loves me for a long time... Suddenly, I read something that made me smile.

"It's been a long time my dear diary. I saw Coby this morning and you know what... he's kissing some ugly bimbo!! Agh! How come he saw that ugly bimbo and not me!? He's a freak! I couldn't stop myself so I slapped him hard. Yes! I slapped his face but I feel sorry though. Seeing the man I love kissing a girl just made me lost myself. Will he ever see me? An ordinary girl like me can't be with a perfect man like him." My hands clenched, mad at myself. Don't say that... I'm a coward and a broken man Cassandra, I'm not perfect. When I saw the next page a tear falls from my eyes once again.

"Dear diary, I'm so happy today. Xenon was brought back to life and Coby is so happy. But, what makes me happy the most is that I got to talk with the man I love! For the first time, I'm glad he looked at me. For years, today he noticed me... my dream just come true and I'm very much contented. I will not get tired of loving him, because thinking of not loving him, hurts." I stand up. Now I'm determined, I will fight for her. I will let all the feelings that I've been trying to stop overpowers me. It was her all along and it's been her...

Wait for me, Cassandra. This time, please listen to me. And I run to look for her... for the girl of my life.

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"Dude, please help me. I really need to see her now." I pleaded to Xenon but he's whipped. Tch.

"I told you not. Wait until later. She'll come home." He said not caring.

"Shi*! I can't wait any longer!" I kicked the nearest can I saw. We are right on the bench at the side of the field, on standby.

"Tch. That's what you get if you have feelings for a girl but you got to flirt with someone else." Adrian said looking at the boys playing soccer on the field.

"How much do I have to tell you that it wasn't intentional!" I yelled in frustration.

"Okay, as you say so. Then... her hiding from you wasn't intentional so keep your eagerness at bay, for now." He added.

"Xen, what will be our next plan? I think Marco's attention was turned to something else that's why he stopped hunting us." Lucas walked closer at Xenon who's sitting at the bench thinking deeply.

"This is a great chance to act Lucas. Find out what he's been doing. Cob- Adrian, gather all the information from our men. If possible, try to get rid of someone you can handle. Stay hidden." He ordered not even glancing at anyone of us. "And I'll do my thing." He continued.

"What about me. What should I do?" I asked.

"Resolve your problem." He said as he stands up. "I'm going. Do what you can do." We nodded and he walked away.

I looked at the two. "So, any plans today?"

"Do you have something in mind?" Lucas asked grinning while raising his eyebrow.

"Oh damn, I do." I said as I am now determined with my decision.

Adrian smile "Good."