Chapter forty six

Victoria John Philip

"Well for starters, you are pregnant  and its not my baby."he said looking at me deep in the eyes.

"But-."I opened my mouth to talk but the sound of the door stopped. My son walked into the room with his mouth hanging in the air.

"Mum?Dad?." I xavier said in shock walking into the room. I have never been so secretly ashamed in my life.

Thankfully the bedsheet was closer to my body so I wrapped it around me and Noah was already wearing his boxers or else this would have been much more embarrassing.

"Honey it's not what you think." I said calmly while deep down I was in a state of emergency panicking. Honey? That words left a bitter feeling in my mouth. I was a false word making me a false mother and the look on my son's face as I said that word he thinks the same too.

"It's not what you think."I repeated, I couldn't bear to look at Noah face as I spoke because I could feel his hard glare burning the side of my face.

"So it's not what he thinks."  Noah said and I turned to look at him. The look on Noah face wanted to contradict my words. It was all his fault,he had said earlier this was a mistake and he was right ,this was a mistake and shouldn't have happen.

"What do you mean,it's not what it's  look like,you said you wanted nothing to do with him,and  right now what I can see you both are sharing a bed and I don't want to talk about what happened."xavier said breaking I and Noah staring contest.

"So how you share beds with random man and it's not what it looks like." Xavier spat with his arms crossed. He looks so mature like a sixteen years old boy than a nine years ago.

" Enough, xavier, I'm still your mother so you better respect me."

" Oh,now I'm xavier not honey."my son said snorting.

I couldn't recognize my son ,his eye looks so evil.

" Xavier son ,can you wait for us downstairs why we changed." Noah said to xavier in a loving tone.

His face morphed into a large smile like he hadn't be glaring at me just now.

" Ok,dad."he said and skipped down happily.

What did fuck just happened.

I watched as Noah picked up his trousers from the ground and to wear and said nothing.

"So you are not saying anything."

"What do you want me to say Victoria,I maybe in love with you but I'm not stupid. Like you said to xavier,it's not what it looks like,we are just two mature adult having sex." He said with a smirk and took his shirt on the chair walking out of my room leaving me naked in bed.

Stupid, stupid, stupid Victoria,how could you behave like the naive girl you once where ten years ago.

I stood up from the bed ,the bedsheet still wrapped around my body as I did the walk of Shame to my bathroom.

The cold water hit my skin and I suddenly wish the water could wipe away all what just happened. A part of me felt like an idiot for stopping Noah from leaving when he brought me back from the hospital and there after having sex with him.

And a larger part of me ,the foolish part regretted nothing. As I wash my body I imagined Noah hands in replace of my own , making me let out a loud frustrating sigh and walked out of the bathroom wearing a towel tho time. This pregnancy hormones were already getting to me, making me feel honey all the time.

I slipped into a black dress and looked at myself in the large mounted wall mirror. The dress I wore was red and quite short,the lace like material clung on my skin and showed off every curve that was capable of driving Noah crazy.

The neckline deeped incredibly low showing all the outline and curve of my breast that left nothing to the imagination and I paired my whole look with a strappy black heels.

If I was being truthful to myself I looked like a complete cheap slut,and that was the whole idea tonight. I wasn't going to pity myself and cry like my eyes out like a high school teenager.

No I was going to go to the club ,get a couple of drinks to make myself feel better,I don't give a flying fuck about Noah and xavier

You don't give a flying fuck about xavier and Noah alright but what about your unborn child,the poor innocent baby has done nothing wrong to you.

I still don't care,the child was still a product of Noah but I knew a couple of few drinks here and there won't hurt. The child could understand right?.

I picked up my purse together with my phone and car keys from the table. I wasn't going to need a driver today,I just wanted to me alone in the car playing some loud music and be free for once in my life.

I walked down from the stairs into the living room. Noah was still present but he was making some calls which seems important with the look on his face. While xavier paused his x-box game glaring at me.

What his problem.

I ignored the both of them and walked towards the door. I couldn't wait to be out of their presence.

"Why the rush, Victoria,have you forgotten we have some important issues to discuss with our son?" Noah said from behind me making me pause on my track,his phone was no longer on his ear but now in his hands.

" It's can wait while am back ,I have some important meeting to attend."I said not turning back and continue walking. I was almost closer to the door.

"What kind of meeting are you going to dress like that?."he spat ,I knew he wanted to say'dressed like a slut'.

I sighed and turn around in frustration, can't he just let me be.

" I don't see how that is your business,but if you want to know ,yes the meeting is very important and this the dress code ,now good bye."

" You know you are pregnant,you shouldn't go out dressed like that especially when that child you are carrying is my-"

" Mum is pregnant?."my son asked interrupting what his father wanted to say.

What was Noah going to say before xavier interrupted me.