Diary

Alex Pov's

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"Why the hell you're not healing her, Maya" I mindlink her and run at high speed to reach the villa soon.

"Why are you now caring about her when you're the one who held her arms tightly and asked me not to heal her?" She scoffed. I didn't reply and closed the mindlink angrily.

Soon I reached the pack and morphed into a human. After wearing boxers, I rushed towards my room to see my girl as soon as possible.

I took a relief breath after finding Sana alright seating with the support of a headboard. She had a blood stain over her top and face.

"Moon goddess You healed her…" I mindlink Maya. "Thank you"

"I was just waiting for your message and wanted to make you regret what you said." she frowned and closed the mindlink angrily. I went towards Sana and sat beside her.

"Sano" She shuddered when I called her suddenly. tears rolled from my eyes.

"Alex" She pulled me into a hug and started crying...

"Why?" She shuttered. I hug her back and dig my face into her neck.

"Why did you leave me like that? I got scared" she mumbled and parted away from me.

"Please never leave me again like this" She cupped my face. "Kill me but never leave me"

"someone was saying to break this bond.. using words like reject me" She bowed her eyes down.

"I didn't leave you Sana neither I can... I will prefer to die before rejecting you" I lovingly wiped her tears. "You're my life and I was not saying it for a formality or to stop you from crying... I mean it when I say: you're the reason for me to breathe."

Her teary eyes met with mine and I can feel that she got scared because I left in anger. I kissed her eyelids and then sucked her tears to calm her.

"I left because I was angry and didn't want to hurt you, which I did" I sighed looking at her clothes which were covered in blood.

"You didn't… It was my mistake that I made you angry and this injury, it was because of my careless nature. I was coming behind you but slipped on the floor and my head hit the wall" She mumbled and then wiped my tears which I didn't know were falling from my eyes.

"I'm sorry for hurting you"

"Your sorry won't work... You hurt me badly Sano" I said and stood up from bed.

"You should sleep now." She held my hand before I would go.

"I'm sorry" She pule. I detached my hand from her.

"It doesn't matter Sana because your sorry won't change your thinking about me." She scrunched her eyebrow at my word and stood up from bed.

"Thinking about you? I didn't get it"

"Remember what you said before: I can't fulfil my single responsibility and give you any pleasure... I will never be able to give you what you and Dominic want from me as a mate. I don't think that I will ever be able to fight my fear and I'm sure because of this tomorrow or later you will reject me and choose someone else. It's better if you reject me now only... Please" I repeat the exact words which she told me. Her face got pale.

"Alex, I"

"Don't" I interrupt her.

"Don't explain anything because I got what you think about me. According to me, I'm a dickhead who leave his wife for such a bullshit reason"

"I'm sorry... I was not in my sense" I turned my face to the other side, not able to see her tears.

"I know I hurt you but I didn't mean a single word I told you... I got scared and uttered whatever came into my mind. above that, I was disappointed with myself…" I look at her.

"Disappointed?"

"I want to take our relationship a step ahead but I ruined it... Again my fear won. The more I tried to get out of my past, the more it came in front of me" she sat down on the bed, crying bitterly. I kneel in front of her and wipe her tears lovingly.

"The day you stop fighting with your fear and past, you will win," I said and took her hand in mine.

"If you keep thinking that you have to forget your past then how will you move on because, in one way or another, you're thinking about your past? Also please stop forcing yourself to do something in which you're not comfortable, especially for me." She looked into my eyes.

"I know how much you get scared when I come close to you. scared of hurting me or doing something which makes me feel bad... You don't need to do it. if you really want to make me happy then stay as you are without any fear." she nodded her head. I kissed her forehead.

"Remember after our first time we shared many intimidating moments and that time you didn't get scared. It proves that you're getting over your past."

"No.. if I would have got over then today I didn't push Dominic away from me" She whimpered.

"Please don't cry and it's okay if it happens one time. believe me, one day you will forget everything about your past and all you could remember is me and Dominic. I'm not saying it because I wanted to mate with you but to tell you that you will get over your past... You will win, Sano"

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she didn't say anything and attached my lips to her, kissing me deeply and passionately... pouring all her love in that case. I hold her from the waist and respond to her with equal passion. After a long passionate kiss, I parted away from her and kissed her forehead.

"change this cloth... I don't like to see you in such a condition" she chuckled at my words and nodded her head.

"You take shower until then I will ask the maid to prepare something for us and please hurry up, I'm starving"

"Okay" she replied meekly and stood up from bed then went to the washroom after taking her clothes out from the wardrobe. I mindlink the chief to prepare something healthy for me and Sana. I smiled realising we solved our issue with a simple talk. This is the best thing about my and Sana's relationship. We understand things and give a chance to another person and hear it out, rather roam like an angry hulk.

"I love you, Sano," I mindlink her.

"And what about me?" I chuckled hearing Maya's voice.

"I don't love you"

"What?" She yelled.

"He doesn't love you because you're my reason to be reborn, mate," Dominic replied, instead of me, I know Maya must be jumping in Sana's mind because of happiness. I could feel her happiness. I was thinking all this when Max mindlink me.

"Hope, I didn't disturb you Alpha"

"Say, what is the update of Richard's pack"

"Everything is good here. I found Luna's belongings but my question is should I bring them, I mean they all are kept in Richard's room and it might remind her of the past" I sighed knowing he has a point. Neither Sana nor I want anything in our life which reminds Sana of her painful past.

"no… Don't bring them except the things which belong to her mother. Look around carefully, the things which are old and stored in a special manner"

After a while, he mindlink me…

"Yes, there is a box wrapped in a beautiful wrapper and a note is written over it says: It's special"

"Bring that only... I'm sure Sana kept her mom's belongings in that box only" I replied. Sana came out of the washroom after taking shower. Her hair was wet and a few drops were falling from her head to her cheeks, following her neck, touching her cleavage, and getting lost inside her top. My throat dries up, feeling thirsty to drink all the water droplets from her smooth skin.

"Someone is staring at me" Sana smirked and went towards the mirror.

"Alpha, are you there? I found" Before Max could complete, I closed the mindlinked and went towards Sana... She flipped her hair back and it touched my face. I took a long breath, enhancing her jasmine fragrance. She grinned and pulled her crop top a little above, showing me her creamy white skin. I hissed and turned her towards me holding her hand.

"By doing all this, you're putting yourself in danger mate."

"By doing what?" she asked, biting her lower lip seductively.

"It's not good to tease a beast," I said. She touched my chest with her hand, touching my six packs.

"And what if I want the beast to take control over this human?" She said and leaned towards my neck.

"No" I moved back and took a deep breath and then exhaled it.

"You haven't eaten anything since morning... we should have food" I mumbled, staring at her lips. Only I know how I'm controlling myself right now from sucking all the water droplets from your body and tasting those delicious sweets of mine." I said pointing towards her lips.

"Alex" she called me which came out as a moan because of my words. I nodded my head negatively and turned my face to the other side. She made me look toward him.

"Not now Sana, Get ready we have to go for dinner"

"Fine as you say" she grinned and sat on the chair to get ready. I smiled seeing her bold side and also the efforts that she is putting in to get things back to normal like before our fight. She picked the comb from the table after applying lotion on her screen and lipgloss.

I hold her hand and take the comb from her. She looked at me confusingly and then smiled when I started combing her hair.

"I love you too," she replied. I didn't say anything and kissed her hair.

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After having lunch, we both went on a walk and then sat on the bench, talked to each other on silly topics, and then went silent enjoying each other's presence. Soon, she dozed off, resting her head on my shoulder. I looked at her when I heard her snoring. She usually never snores and it was enough for me to know how tiring the day was for her. I kissed her forehead and then picked her up in my arms and took her to our room then made her lay on the bed.

"Alpha, are you awake?" Max mindlink me.

"Hmm," I hummed and moved my hand lovingly on Sana's hair...

"Can we meet?" He asked.

"Wait for me in my cabin" I replied and kissed Sana's forehead then arranged a pillow beside her. She had a habit of keeping her hand on my stomach while sleeping and I didn't want her to get awake, not finding me in bed. I blew a blanket over her and went towards my cabin after closing the door.

Max was already waiting for me outside the cabin with a serious expression on her face.

"Don't tell me that another problem is ready at my door" He didn't reply and passed a diary towards me. I look at that diary and then at him, not able to understand what is written inside it that makes him this serious.