Burning Painful Memories

Alex Pov's

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"It's Luna's diary... I don't want to read it but to check whose diary it is, I read the first page and the next few pages... I'm sorry" He mumbled and a tear rolled from his eyes.

"Max" I was shocked to see him crying like this.

"She faced a lot in her life. Please make sure to keep my little sister always happy" He said and left from there before I could say something. I looked at the diary and then the side in which Max went.

"What is written in it that made him cry," I thought and went inside my cabin. After settling on my chair, I opened the diary and started reading it.

"My old diary got filled so I am starting the journey of my life from this new page. This is not just the beginning of this diary but the beginning of a new phase of my life. Dad decided my marriage with an Alpha about whom I heard only bad things and the worst part is, I can't deny marrying him because he never asked for my opinion. He just fixed it"

I read the first page and found a strain of tears. I turned the page but strangely it was empty. I turned a few more pages and found a page with a few lines written on it.

"Why doesn't Richard understand me? I felt sick when he touched me. It made me uncomfortable and when I tried to move away from him, he started using his Alpha power which hurt me. Sometimes, it almost made me ask him: does he love me but then I stopped myself, remembering that he is the only one who cares for me and I can't afford to lose him."

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I moved my finger to that page, feeling the emptiness she was feeling at that time.

"I can't handle this anymore... Again I bleed today when he took me. I was feeling pain in my core and my stomach aches badly... I'm feeling like I will die today because of this pain... Don't know where he went after having me. I even tried to call him but he wasn't picking up. I'm trying to cope with this pain."

That page was filled with her strained tears. She must be in terrible pain, Don't know how terribly that bastard treats her in bed. I turned the pages and found another written page.

"Again he came home after getting drunk. He smelled so terrible that I felt like puke. I controlled myself, unlike the first time when I puked on his shirt. I still remember how shocked I was to see him drunk and when he came close to me, I puked on his shirt because of the shity smell. I thought he would go for a shower or apologise to me but he did the complete opposite. He held my hand and took me to the washroom then asked me to wash his shirt. I was so shocked to react and then he shouted at me angrily which was enough for me to understand that he was serious.

I cleaned his shirt and after that, he fucked me roughly in the washroom. I was pleading with him to stop, telling him that it was hurting but he didn't listen to me, and then I felt unconscious. Today also, he fucked me after getting drunk and it hurt terribly. I don't want to bear this all day... I wish I could go somewhere away from him but I know he won't let me go and if he caught me then I don't know what he will do to me. Every day he says he loves me and his cares prove to me his words but why can't he stop drinking and yelling at me? When he yelled at me, I got scared seeing his wolf on the surface who used his Alpha aura making me shiver in fear. I wish he stop this otherwise he is perfectttttt"

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I closed my eyes, realising why she got scared when I raised my voice even a little bit. That bastard used his Alpha aura despite knowing that Sana was human at the time. I turned the page, surprisingly there was no gap between the pages.

"hii diary, yesterday only I met you... See, today I came again. Tomorrow I will be eighteen and then Richard will mark me. Finally, I will be known as his wife. I hate it when he called me a slave but after he marked me, I will ask him to call me, mate... I'm so excited"

This was the first page that had no tear strain. I smiled and moved my finger on that page then turned it.

"Today I'm eighteen. a new year of my life and on the first day only I felt my life turn upside down. Richard took me just before midnight after getting drunk."

I tightened my fist after reading it. If Richard was alive then I would have punched him in the face. I started reading further.

"And then I morphed into a wolf. I was feeling so lonely at that point of time. no one was there for me to tell me what to do and how to feel and then I met that handsome gentleman. I saw his eyes only but those eyes made me forget to breathe for a while and at the same time, tears rolled from my eyes, seeing the pain and loneliness in his eyes. I want to hug him. I was staring at him when Maya, my wolf, told me that he is my mate. My whole world was shaken by her words. Mate... My mate... I forget everything for a while until his friends accuse me of being an intruder. I nodded my head negatively and waited for him to tell them that I'm his mate but no response came. I told Maya that I'm married to someone and she broke down with me. That man securely dropped me at Richard's pack border and also guided me on how to morph into a human. When I returned to my room, Richard was sleeping and Maya started fighting with me. In all this, I didn't realise when Richard woke up and started coming close to me. I pushed him a little which made him furious and misbehaved with me which made Maya angry... They both fought and for the first time, Richard slapped me then he started hurting himself. Somehow, I solved this issue but I came to know that my life will go like this only."

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I turned the pages and found other written pages.

"I'm feeling bad for doing this to Maya... I don't want to take wolfsbane in my drink but I know if she sees how Richard behaves with me in bed then she will either kill him or do something wrong. I can't take this risk."

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There were many pages filled in which she wrote how she was crushing between Richard and Maya. How they both got into a fight and then she had to take Richard's side and overpower Maya. Many times she blocked her or drank wolfsbane so that she wouldn't get to know about Richard's abuse in bed. Everything made me realise why she panicked when I and Dominic went a little rough with her.

Surprisingly at the end of each page, she writes about me… Thinking about me, how I'm and how would I treat her if she was with me. It made me feel special and then on the last filled page of a diary she wrote how Richard raped her… I was not even able to read it fully. It was so painful and also she wrote that I abandoned her.

The surprising thing is that she wrote that she will take divorce Richard and move to human territory away from him. I wanted to know what happened and why she didn't get a divorce but after that, she hadn't written anything. I looked up at the door when someone knocked on it. I wiped my tears and stood up to open the door.

"Alex," I smiled seeing my mate in front of me. She hugged me...

"Good morning." She mumbled. I look around and realise the Sun has already risen.

"Good morning" I replied and kissed her head. She looked at me.

"When did you wake up and why didn't you wait for me to wake up? I wanted to see your face after opening my eyes" I chuckled at her words and pulled her cheeks.

"Next time, I will stay in bed until you wake up"

"No need for that… I was just messing up with you" She chuckled and kissed my cheeks.

"Were you crying?" She asked.

"No... Why would I cry?" I smiled nervously.

"I can smell lies" I was startled hearing that. "What happened? you can share" She clamped up when her eyes went inside. I followed her gaze, she was looking at her diary. I cursed myself for not keeping it inside the drawer before opening the door.

"It is my diary" She mumbled and crossed me then picked up the diary in her hand.

"Max brought it last night" I replied.

"And you were reading it the whole night?" I nod my head.

"Alex" She groaned and then looked at a diary.

"I only wrote the bad moments of my life in it" She chuckled and went silent for a few seconds.

"I'm sorry for reading it without your permission" I mumbled. She didn't say anything and passed me a sad smile.

"You decided to divorce Richard then what happened?" I asked the question which was bothering me.

"When he lied to me that you abandoned me, I cried in his arms and later realised that if you did bed to me then he wasn't a saint. I was preparing a perfect plan like where I will go after divorcing him and many more things but I came to know I'm pregnant with his child and then everything changed. His behaviour towards me.. everything" She replied. I nod my head. A maid knocked on the door. I turned and found her standing with a lighter and a bottle of kerosene in her hand.

"Thank you" Sana mumbled to her and took it from her hand. I was looking at her confusingly, not able to understand what she was up to and my eyes widened when she started to spritz kerosene on the diary and then burn it with matchstick.

"Sana, what are you doing?"

"Burning the painful memories of my life" She mumbled and held my hand.

"I don't want to destroy my present by remembering my past. For me you're important and if you're with me, I don't want anything else" she mumbled and kissed my lips... I respond to her with equal passion.