He Raped Me

Alex Pov's

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she was looking at me with complaining eyes. I don't know why whenever I see Sana, it seems as despite being close, we are far away from each other.

"Leave me alone," she said and tried to push me but I tightened my grip on her waist.

"How many times do I have to tell you? I'm never gonna leave you alone.. never" I screeched.

"yaa, you will never leave me like that day," she said sarcastically and a tear rolled from her eyes. I twitch my eyebrow, looking at her confusingly.

"I never leave you alone, Sana," I said

"stop lying, Alex...Richard told me everything after you left me"

"I didn't get what you're talking about?"

"Ohh so now you forget that day... well it's ok... it's not painful for you as it was for me. Why would you remember that day? My heart broke that day, not yours"

I loosen my grip on her waist as she was continuously trying to push me away. She distanced herself from me and wiped her tears. She sat on the bed and looked at my side.

"Leave me alone. I can take care of myself"

"I will not," I said. She started laughing hear me. I went near her and kneel in front of her.

"Sana.. what happened suddenly? why are you behaving like this?"

"I remembered everything back... I remembered how I had left everything for you like crazy and then what did you do to me" she turned her face to the other side and wiped her tears.

"If you can leave me that day then you can leave me again, Alex," she said looking at me with a painful smile.

"I don't know when and what you're talking about but all I can say is that. I never leave you... never" I said. looking into her eyes. She was hurt but I don't know the reason. Her eyes were full of tears stinging me.

"Would you please stop lying?" she scowled. again tears fall from her eyes.

"My mother left this world after giving birth to me. My dad never talked to me with love. He used to consider me the reason behind mom's death and for my brother, I don't exist at all... I have never been loved by anyone... I didn't even know the meaning of love. Then dad arranged my marriage to Richard without asking me even before I turned 18. The very next day I got married to Richard but I could not love him even after six months of marriage. I never loved him. He used to care for me a lot. Still, I never fall in his love. I always used to feel alone even when he was with me. I felt like I was meant to be with someone else. Someone who loved me. who cared about me. when he used to touch me, I felt uncomfortable. I used to resist him. But on his birthday he asked for his rights over me as a husband. I was so naive I gave him my everything. I was so uncomfortable but he didn't stop. We consumed our marriage. After the meeting, I realised it was all a hoax in the name of marriage. it was just his needs. He just wanted to have me.`` She stopped speaking and clutched the bed sheet.

I can feel her emotions. I can feel how much she has faced till now. I was angry that she married someone else and didn't wait for us but I can't even complain to her. She is so innocent.

"When I morphed into a wolf for the first time and went to the lake following the sound of water, there I met you for the first time. your whole face was covered with cloth except yours and Maya told me that you're my Mate." A smile broke on her lips.

Even I remember that moment when I saw her in wolf form. I saw Maya but at that time I didn't know that she was my Mate. If I knew that then I would never let her go back to that Richard. I'm so stupid. when I touch Maya for the first time. I felt a spark in my whole body but still, I didn't understand anything.

she was there… how can I be so stupid?

She was in front of me. I felt that she needed me. she was alone but still, I let her go. I wish that time Dominic was with me. I have a Lycan which I got after my 22 birthday and of course after meeting her on the lake. I hold her hand and look into her tearful eyes.

"Sana" Before I could tell her that I didn't recognize her that day she shoved my hand away.

"I only saw your eyes, yet fell in love with you. I tried hard to convince myself that I shouldn't think about you. I am someone's wife but your brain listens to you, not your heart. I fell in love with you even though I was married. Richard and my relationship were deteriorating. I stop giving effort into my relationship. Whenever he used to come close to me, I just lay down on the bed fulfilling my so-called wife duty but then I felt tired. My mind, my soul, my thoughts everything just kept revolving around you. Just you... I realised that I can't live without you. I know, I was doing wrong with Richard but still, I wanted to come to you." she said with a painful smile and tears in her eyes.

"When I was talking to Richard that I can't live in this marriage anymore. I don't love you and I wanted to go to my mate, but he refused... At first, I thought about giving up when I felt like I'm doing wrong to him but when Maya told me that you were near us. you were there in my pack, near my house and she could smell your scent. I lost all my patience. I was coming to you after fighting with Richard but what did you do? you left me. Richard told you to leave me and In return, he will spare your life. What did you do? you leave me there. you didn't think of me even once. You don't even think what he will do with me? I fought for you because of our Mate bond but you left me and after you left, he" she started shivering remembering her painful past.

"he?" I asked, trying to control my anger. He's an asshole and a man like him can cross any limit.

"What did he do to you, Sana?" I asked her again.

"he sexually assaulted me.. he... he raped me... I was screaming but he didn't leave me... he" she kept wobbling leaving me utterly shocked. I knew he is dickhead but never in my imagination did I think that he would sexually assault her... For god's sake, she was his wife…

"He raped me that day. I'm sure the whole mansion had heard my scream.. the way" she started breathing heavily and moved back on the bed...

"Please leave me.. please... it's hurting .. please leave me Richard please" she started screaming.. maybe she started remembering everything.. seeing her condition I can say how horrible it is for her. I hopped up on the bed and was about to touch her but she pushed me away because of fear

"Please don't come near me.. please.. don't hurt me.. please let me go..." she started pleading and her every drop of tears was piercing my heart. I again tried to wipe her tears but she hopped down from the bed...

"Please.. please leave me.. please Richard." my eyes widened with her words. she was lost in her past so much that she started thinking of me as Richard.

"Sana" I went to her but she moved back.

"Please stop... it's hurting... Please leave me. please" she started begging in front of me, joining her hands.

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I hold her hand and bring her close to me. She started struggling. I tightened my hold on her waist and attached my lips to her. She struggled for a while but then gave up and a tear rolled down both of our eyes together.

I kissed her deeply and passionately, showering my love on her through the kiss. I broke the kiss when she went out of breath...

"Sano" I mumbled painfully. She looked into my eyes and held my shirt in her fist.

"Alex" she whispered my name and rested her head on my chest.

"Alex" she again called my name like she was still unable to believe that everything had changed.

"Yes, it's me, queen.. your Alex. No one will harm you. No one will touch you without your consent. Relax"

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She didn't say anything. My eyes went to the door, Irene was standing there, and had tears in her eyes. She closed the door from outside and went away. I'm sure after hearing Sana's pain. she started remembering her painful past. I just hope Stefan handles her.

I broke the hug and looked at Sana. She had no emotion on her face.

"Sano.. what happened baby? Please say something... What's going on in your mind?" I asked, wiping her tears.

she didn't reply and detangled herself from my arms. She went towards the bed and sat there.

I sat beside her and tried to hold her hand but she shoved my hand away.

"Don't touch me... I'm not feeling ok? please" she sobbed and wiped her tears. I can see how much she is trying to control herself not to panic again. not to break down in front of me.

"Sano '' I called her but I don't know what I should say to her. How to calm her... how to make her forget everything bad that happened to her? how to make her feel special? I don't know anything... I don't know...

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she was sitting there shivering thinking about that bastard's misbehaviour and here I'm not able to do even a single thing. I never felt so helpless as I'm feeling today... I wish I could do something. I wish…

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