Remembering Past

Sana Pov's

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After a huge fight with Alex, I slept in his arms and when I woke up my eyes went on watch. I panicked and immediately wake up

"Ohh god I slept so much. Richard will screw me" I mumbled and was about to stand up from the bed but someone held my hand. I looked at him and realised now everything has changed. I took a relief breath and wiped the sweat over my forehead.

"Did Richard used to misbehave with you? He didn't even let you sleep properly?" He asked worriedly.

"no... it's just that he loved to be disciplined so" I said and held his hand.

"He said all Alpha is like this... you all have to be on time and love their Luna to be on time too... you let me sleep so long. why?" I wanted to know about him, his likes and dislikes.

"I don't know about others but yes I love disciples." I smiled weekly hearing his words. so, he is the same as Richard. He will also control my life like Richard.

"Well, If I'm Alpha then you're my queen, Sano. you can do whatever you want to. It's your life and no one can order you or can control your life... only you had a right to your life. I will not interrupt until and unless you will not fall into some problem." He muttered leaving me speechless.

He never leaves a chance to surprise me with his love. Yes, love... I can feel his love, care and concern for me. He treats me like his queen. I wanted to say that if I'm his queen then he is my king but no... I can't say that to him. I don't want him to know that I love him.

Richard used to show his care for me, he also used to tell me he loves me but what he did, he left me at the time when I needed him the most and I know when I again need Alex, he will also leave me like before when Richard gave him the option.

I came out of my thoughts when he held my hand and kissed my temple then stood up from the bed. I kept staring at him.

"You go and freshen up till then I will order something for us," he muttered. I nodded and stood up from the bed and went towards the washroom.

"Sana"

I abruptly stopped when he called my name. I turn towards him.

"How was your married life with Richard?" He asked. I was dumbfounded by his sudden question.

"Why are you asking?" I asked instead of answering as I don't know what I should answer.

"Just wanted to know whether you are aware or not '' he muttered leaving me stunned. I didn't reply and went inside the washroom.

His question kept roaming in my mind. I don't know how my relationship with Richard was. I never think about it properly. I never got love in my life since childhood. When I married Richard, I was not prepared for that.. hack... I didn't even know the meaning of marriage.

Richard used to care about me, he used to tell me he loved me, he used to ask me if I had my food, he took care of my health but... But I always felt lonely despite being with him. Still, it was perfect for me until I met Alex.

Alex changed the definition of love for me. He shows me what actual care feels like, how it feels to be in love or to be loved by someone. I feel complete when I'm with him. He made me comfortable. He respects me and my decision which Richard never did. Now I'm thinking about what was between me and Richard.

"How was my marriage with Richard?" I questioned myself looking in the mirror. I started remembering the moments of my married life which I spent with Richard.

He used to show that he cares about me but he never did. he never took care of me when I was in pain and he was having me roughly. he never care to look after me when he was done with me. he never talks to me about my day. he never gives priority to my happiness then what kind of relationship do we share does it all about physical?

I never feel comfortable with him but when it comes to Alex.

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A smile came to my lips just thinking about him. I closed my eyes and started remembering the moment I spent with him. His love, care, and the way he respects everything are driving me crazy towards him.

I opened myself and looked into the mirror and touched his mark on my neck. I remember the way he was kissing me here before marking me and then he licked it. Just a mere thought of him was enough to make me wet.

I never felt like this... it's all new to me. I start touching myself thinking about him and then I put my hand in my lower and then in my panty. I was indeed wet for him. I started roughing myself and closed my eyes. Imagine him doing this to me and then I entered a finger then added two fingers.. moving in and out.. moaning his name and soon I exploded.

I breathe heavily trying my best to compose myself. I opened my eyes and looked into the mirror and soon realised what I had just done. My whole face turned red.

"moon goddess... Hope Alex didn't hear my moan" I thought and opened the door slightly to peek outside. Alex was not there. I took a relief breath and then went towards the cupboard and searched for something to wear. I wanted to take a bath before Alex came into my room and smell my arousal. That's a different story. He does not have Dominic near him right now.

Well, it reminds me of asking him about why his wolf is not near him and if Maya is ok then why I'm not feeling her presence till now.

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I took out the extra pair of clothes that Irene gave me to wear and went to the washroom to take a shower. In the shower also my thoughts revolved around Alex. I wish I met him 1 year ago, then maybe we would be the happiest couple in this world.

I would have a happy family with him. My smile vanished when I felt the emptiness of my life. I touched my belly when my baby was there. He died even before he could open his eyes.

Tears rolled down my eyes. I don't know how my relationship with Richard was but he gave me that happiness and feeling which is most precious in the whole world. Feeling of being a mother.

I wiped my tears and got out of the shower. I will not cry until I kill that moron Adrian who is the reason behind my child's death. who kicked on my stomach. I will kill him brutally.

I wore my clothes and went out of the washroom. That's when my eyes went on Irene and Alex and the way he was holding her sister indicated clearly that something is not good.

"What's going over here?" I asked and went towards Alex. He left Irene's hand.

"Irene wants to talk to you and Alex doesn't want her to come near you as he is afraid that his sister, Irene will harm his brother Mate," Stefan scoffed looking at Alex.

"I don't want to talk to anyone... Stefan let's go" Irene mumbled holding his hand but Stefan didn't stop glaring at Alex.

I don't know what Irene wants to say to me but now I don't want any hidden truth in my life. I went towards her and held her hand.

"Say what you want to? I don't like when someone hides anything from me" I said while looking at Alex so that he understood my point and let me talk to Irene. I know he is worried for me but I wanted to know what Irene wanted to say.

"Why are you looking at my brother like that? He didn't do anything. why do you always talk to him rudely" she grunted.

I looked at her and then smiled seeing her love for his brother, reminding me of my brother who has never talked to me once since today. I wish we would share the same bond as Irene and Alex.

"You love your brother a lot," I mumbled. she didn't reply to me and looked towards Alex.

"Let's talk alone," I muttered while holding her hand. Before Alex could say something I beat him "you should trust your sister."

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Alex didn't say anything after that.

"Now get out," I ordered Alex. Irene looks at me, widening her eyes and then I look at her brother whose expression is worth watching.

"someone says right, even a lion could not utter anything in front of his lioness" Alex mumbled and left the room. Stefan followed him. I look at Irene and then we both burst into laughter.

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