Loneliness

Sana Pov's

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When I came out of the washroom, my eyes went to Alex who was getting ready for the Luna ceremony. He looked at me through the mirror and then smiled. I turn my face to another side.

He came towards me and hugged me from behind.

"Please get beautifully ready for me. I want everyone to look at my wife and curse their luck for not having this precious gem in their life and above that I want you to smile on this beautiful day" He said, kissing my cheeks. I distanced myself from him and turned towards him.

"I'm not going to attain any Luna ceremony. You can mark me without my consent but you can't force me to do anything" I screeched and was about to go near the bed when he held my hand and pulled me towards him.

He kept looking at me and I could feel that he wanted to say something or say he wanted me to understand him. I turn my eyes down.

"I was a happy person until your husband's evil eyes fell on our pack" He muttered. I look towards him. He sighed, maybe trying to prepare himself. He distanced himself from me and sat on the bed.

"I had everything.. a happy family... mom-dad and a crazy little sister" He chuckled and then looked at my side.

"My sister and I used to fight a lot but still we share everything with each other. Even when any one of us did something wrong then we both used to get scolded together by mom and dad. she was dad's favourite" He giggled and a tear rolled down his eyes.

I sat beside him and held his hand. He wiped his tears and smiled weakly. He tightly held my hand, maybe trying to calm himself.

"I went outside for my study. My father had a Lycan and a person who had Lycan morphed into a wolf when they turned 22 after meeting their mate. Everyone already guessed that I would also get a lycan when I didn't turn into a wolf on my 18 birthday. I went outside for my study in the human world and after studying there for continuous 3 years I was about to return to my pack, to my parents but everything changed"

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Tears rolled from his eyes as mine. He left my hand and wiped his tears.

"I'm sorry... These tears... I know, I shouldn't cry like this. I'm alpha" He muttered and then again held my hand.

"After finishing my study, mom- dad and Irene decided to celebrate my arrival. we thought we would spend time together... outside the pack, there was a beautiful place, perfect for spending time with family. Mom and dad used to go there casually and that day, they decided to take us with them to their favourite place. They all were waiting for me but I was a human being, not a wolf who would reach fastly. I was late and when I reached there everything was destroyed. Mom Dad's body was there in two pieces" I gasped hearing him and putting my other hand on my mouth. Tears rolled from my eyes.

"That bastard Richard attacked them with so many wolves without any alert or warning. He and his warriors killed my mom and dad brutally. I wish I could kill him one more time.. again and again but he was lucky that he got only one life."

I didn't reply to him. What can I say when I don't know anything about Richard's behaviour towards others? He always acts like a gentleman in front of me.

"he not only killed my parents but also kidnapped my sister, Irene. he used to torture her and sent me the video. He wanted me to surrender myself where I was yearning for revenge. After two days after my parent's death, I met you on the lake that day. I indeed felt a connection with you Sana but I didn't recognize you as my mate as at that time my wolf was not with me. I didn't turn 22 but I felt your pain and loneliness maybe because I was also alone like you " he said, looking into my eyes. I remember that I saw his red eyes when we met. So his eyes were red because of crying. I also felt his loneliness and pain.

"Stefan extended a friendly hand towards my pack to help us to rescue Irene and kept her safe until I finally took my revenge on Richard and destroyed his pack. On my 22 birthday, I forgot that I would turn into a wolf when there was a full moon. when we entered your pack secretly to rescue Irene from Richard's cage. I started feeling pain in my whole body" He said and took both of my hands in his hand.

"Stefan forced me to stay outside because everyone knew that it was a painful process to morph into a wolf for the first time. If I knew that you were there and fighting for us then I would never listen to him and rescue you as well with Irene from Richard" Tear rolled from my eyes hearing him. I used to blame him for not helping me and leaving me there but he was not even present there. He was battling with his life problem.

"I turned into a wolf for the first time that day. I was alone just like you... I also had no one with me at that beautiful phase of my life." he muttered and wiped his tears from the corner of his eyes.

"After Stefan rescued Irene. I sent her with Stefan so that she would remain safe. I took training till 1 month and then I attacked Richard's pack where I met you again but believe me, I didn't recognize you as my mate nor I realised that it was you whom I met on the lake as before I saw you in your wolf form and in the battlefield I saw you in labour pain. I felt a connection but Dominic didn't tell me that you were his mate. He was furious at Maya and you that you both didn't wait for us and got married to that bastard" He said and left my mind. I could see he is also hurt that I married someone not knowing that I was compelled to marry him. it was not my wish but would he believe me and above that the question is: should I believe him? What if he is also betraying me like other people in my life? What if he is also lying to me?

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There are a lot of questions roaming in my mind and there is no answer to any of my questions.

"please moon goddess show me the light of my life," I thought and closed my eyes, crying at my life which is filled with only unfaithful persons...

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