Love Yourself

Sana Pov's

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I looked towards Alex who was not having his food but kept moving his finger around the plate. I know he is enraged at me and was controlling himself, sitting beside me so that I will have my breakfast properly.

"Have your food instead of staring at me" He scrawled.

"How can I have anything when you're ignoring me like this?" I asked. He didn't say anything and stood up from the chair. He was about to go but I held his hand.

"I will have my food if you also eat your dinner instead of staring at the plate," I said. He glared at me but didn't say anything and sat on the chair. He started eating and without any delay, I also started having my breakfast because I know if I do not eat then he will also stop having his food, and more than this I don't want to anger him more.

After finishing the food on my plate, I was about to stand up but he held my hand and served me more. I looked at him and was about to argue with him but one glare from him was enough for me to shut my mouth and eat silently.

Somehow, I finished the food. I held his hand when he was about to serve me more.

"I'm full… now I will burst out if I had anything" I mumbled. He shoved my hand away and stood up from his chair. Before he could go somewhere, I held his hand.

"I thought you cheated on me and that thought was killing me from inside with every passing second that's why I thought to kill myself at once" I confessed and looked toward him. "I don't know how and from when but you become important to me" I finally tell him what he is for me. At first, I was scared that he would take advantage if he came to know that he is important to me but then Irene's words roamed in my mind. If I want to give this relationship a chance then I have to trust him.

"Sano" he mumbled and again sat on the chair beside me, holding my hand.

"You know what attracted me to you?" He asked. I look at him and then nod my head in no. He smiled and kissed my knuckles.

"Why are you so cute and innocent?" He chuckled and then kept one hand on my cheeks caressing them with his thumb. I closed my eyes feeling his soothing touch.

"The thing that attracts me towards you is your pure heart, Sana... you're pure soul" He mumbled. I opened my eyes and looked into his eyes which was showing me how much I meant to him.

"You're perfect except for the thing that you don't love yourself"

"Love yourself?" I mumbled in confusion.

"Yes... You always care about others, and always crave love from other people. In fact, you make another person a reason to live your life. You love others more than yourself, that's why your heart always gets broken." He whispered and a tear rolled from my eyes.

"First you made Richard the reason to live your life" Before I could argue with him, He bit me off "Don't say no because despite his abuses you were living with him then what else proof do you need to accept this? He forces himself on you and for his happiness you accept him. Not only that when he rape" he clamped up. all the memories of my past came in front of my eyes.

"You forget him, that's why you were bearing his child," he scoffed.

"I didn't," I said and wiped my tears. "After that day, I became pregnant with his child. I didn't forget him just accept him for my child"

He laughed sarcastically at my words and believed me it was hurting me terribly.

"You accept him for your child. why? You weren't good enough to take care of your child?" He scoffed and the realisation hit me.

"I... I" I tried to defend myself but not a word came out of my mouth as I realised how wrong I'm that time.

"Why do you need someone else, Sana... You're enough for yourself. I know Richard lied to you and I'm sure you must be broken down after hearing that I abandoned you and Richard took advantage of it"

I was out of words hearing him as I know whatever he is saying is true and I didn't even realise it.

"you make your child reason to live your life ahead after your breakdown thinking that I cheated you and when your child"

"Please no" I interrupted him and nodded my head negatively. "I don't want to hear those words, please… I can't" I mumbled and took a deep breath, trying not to break down in tears. My hands went to my stomach.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scratch your wound," He said and extended the glass of water towards me. I drank the water with his hand without saying anything. After keeping the glass he wiped my tears and then water droplets from my lips.

"After all the things, you made me your reason to live your life, and yesterday because of a misunderstanding you were about to take your life." He groaned. I bow my eyes down in embarrassment.

"Why can't you love yourself, Sana? Why do you always need someone else?" He asked.

"I... I never think like that" I said truthfully. He is right, I never think about myself or say, I never love myself. If I loved myself then I would never have to crave someone else's love.

"Love yourself Sana more than anyone. You can't truly love anyone if you don't love yourself. Believe me, if you start loving yourself then this disgusting thought to harm yourself will never come to your mind." He said.

"I will try"

"You have to... for me please.." he muttered. I nodded my head and a smile came to my face.

"Take out time for yourself, to adore yourself, to take care of yourself, to live your life for yourself and the remaining things left on me" He said and kissed my forehead.

"If I think all about myself then what about you? Who will think about you?" I asked. His smile vanished and tears brimmed in his eyes but he controlled them.

"Don't worry, I'm multi-talented. I can love myself and you too" he chuckled at my words and stood up from chair.

"Let me clear one thing to you, we talked, that doesn't mean I forgot you for the stunt you played last night. I'm still not talking to you for that"

"Alex" he ignored me and started going in another direction.

I quickly drank the water and started following him wherever he was going. He halted his step and looked at my side furiously. I know I'm annoying him but he didn't leave any option for me.

he started walking towards a room and again I was following him. He stopped outside the room and glared at me. I bow my eyes not wanting to look into his eyes which scares me when he is furious. I look at him when he does not utter anything and find him staring at me. A smile broke on my lips.

"You're staring at me , that means you're not angry with me anymore" I giggled and was about to hug him happily, however he moved back. I was stunned, looking at him widening his eyes where he rolled his eyes and moved inside the room. I know this monster must be smiling but won't show.

"Mr. Grumpy" I thought and peered inside the room. He was with Irene and Stefan.

"Sana, why are you standing there? come inside" Irene called me when her eyes went on me. I smiled and entered the room.

"Are you both sorted?" She asked, looking at Alex. Before he could reply I bit him.

"Your brother is Mr. grumpy. He only knows one emotion and that is anger" I said, knowing very well that I'm playing with fire but if he is fire then I'm ready to get burned."

Alex looked at me annoyingly and moved his head in disappointment. He turned his face towards Stefan, ignoring me completely.

"Great again he started ignoring me. Moon Goddess, what should I do to him."