I want to feel you

Alex Pov's

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After having lunch with Sana, I picked her up in my arms and took her to our room. The whole time, She was staring at me lovingly.

"I love you" I whispered in her ear and made her sit on the bed. Instead of a reply, she attached her lips to mine. I lay down above her, putting my wait on my elbows. We both were kissing each other deeply and passionately, drawing in love for each other.

After a long kiss, I parted away, joining my forehead with mine. We both were breathing heavily. I started kissing her neck.

"Alex" she moaned when I slightly bit on her collarbone, knowing that it was her weak point. I started sucking her collarbone. She again moaned my name and clutched my hair in one hand and moved the other behind my back. Holding me and pressing her body with mine. I look towards her face and then into her eyes which show love for me.

"Do you want to say something?" I asked. she nodded her head.

"Say"

"Thank you for your surprise hubby," She said, giving me the best surprise of my life.

"What did you say?"

"Thank you for your surprise hubby," she said shyly.

"Please say it again"

"Thank you"

"no... Not this .. that word" I said interrupting her.

"Word?" She scrunched her eyebrow in confusion.

"Yeah the word which you used to call me," I said indirectly, wanting to hear that word again from her.

"Hubby?"

"Please say it again," I asked her again, not able to believe it. she chuckled and turned our position.

"Hubby"

"I can't even explain how amazing it feels to hear that word, my queen"

"Since we are husband and wife.. so thought to call you that" she blushed.

"Thank you" I mumbled and attacked her lips to have my sweet. I turned her again and came above her, pressing my body with her. I moved my hand to her blossom and pressed them, earning a moan from her. I distanced myself from her lips when she went out of breath and started kissing her shoulder where I marked her.

"Alex" She moaned my name louder when I pressed her blossom a little harder than before. I look at her face to check whether she is comfortable or not. She smiled and gave me a peck on my lips. I sat upright then held her hand and kissed her palm.

"I want to feel you, Sana," I said looking into her eyes to check if there was any reluctance. She bowed her eyes shyly and then nodded her head.

"words Sano," I said.

"Even I want to feel you," she said, bringing a smile to my face. I nodded my head and then moved my hand to the hem of her top. She sat upright. I started lifting her top and she straightened her hand so that I could remove it easily.

"Wow," I said when I saw her upper half body for the first time. I mean yes I saw her naked before but that time I couldn't see her properly as I had no right but today she gave me a chance to look at her, hold her and make her feel special.

Sensing her nervousness I kissed her lips, she looked into my eyes and then started unbuttoning my shirt. I parted away from her, to remove my shirt completely and then again made her lay on the bed and look at her again.

"You're so beautiful, Sano," I said and kissed her lips and moved my hand on her waist... feeling her skin attached to mine. I moved a little down and kissed her navel.

"Alex" she moaned my name louder when I started sucking her there, at the same time pressing her blossom over her bra. I unbuttoned her jeans and removed them then kissed her ankle. I look at her from head to toe, not able to believe my luck that she is with me. She was looking freaking hot.

"you're so beautiful and hot. Your one sight is enough to make me hard there" I said and again kissed her navel then sensually moved and pressed her navel to arouse her.

"Alex" she arched her back in response. Finding it as an opportunity, I moved my other hand behind her back and unhook her bra. I threw it somewhere and moved my fingers on her blossom feeling her skin. she parted her lips and closed her eyes. I started giving soft kisses on my treasure and in response she moved her hand in my hair, clutching them.

I touch her blossom sensually, feeling her breathing get heavy. She lost her grip on my hair. I gave her soft kisses over there and was about to suck her areola but stopped in mid when my eyes went on her. Her eyes were closed and tears were rolling out.

"Sano" I mumbled and cupped her face.

"What happened?" I asked in concern. She didn't reply. I noticed she was breathing heavily.

"Didn't you like my touch or did I hurt you in any way," I asked again.

"Sano" I called her louder this time when no response came. She abruptly opened her eyes.

"Alex," she said in the way she came to her senses.

"Are you okay? Did I do something which hurt you or made you uncomfortable?" I asked. She didn't say anything and instead kept looking at me. I moved away from her when she was trying to get out of my grip. I sat upright.

"Sano" Tears rolled from her eyes. She sat upright and covered herself with a bed sheet.

"Please say something... Did I hurt you or make you feel uncomfortable?" She nodded her head in negative. "then why you're crying"

She hopped down from the bed and went to the washroom without answering me. I was still not able to understand what happened to her, all of sudden.

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I heard the sound of a shower coming from the washroom. Don't know what happened to her all of a sudden. I rubbed my face with my hand to calm myself. I'm still not able to process whatever happened just now. Her crying face made me feel guilty and only one question came into my mind, again and again, Was she crying because of me?

After a while, she came out of the washroom wearing a towel. Her whole face was red like she was crying bitterly. her whole body was wet because of the shower. I looked at her face carefully, she had no expression on her face. I went to her and cupped her face.

"Sano" she looked at me and then bowed her eyes down.

"I'm sorry" She mumbled.

"No baby… You don't need to be" I said and kissed her forehead. I made her sit on the bed and then went towards the wardrobe and took out her clothes and my shirt. I went to her and passed her clothes towards her. She looked at me with teary eyes and then took her clothes from my hand.

"I'm going outside. If you need anything, you can call me" I said what I found right at this time. she didn't reply, just kept looking at her clothes.

"Sano"

"Okay" She replied finally. I left the room after wearing my shirt. I went directly to my study room and sat on the chair. My head was still spinning with whatever happened. I'm still not able to find out the reason behind her sudden reaction.

"Everything was going well and then suddenly what happened? Why did you start breathing heavily and crying." I said and that's when I realised something. She was breathing heavily, closing her eyes like she was panicking and I saw her like this when she was sharing her past with me, about Richard's abuse. Maybe at that time also something reminded her about her past.

I stood up from my chair and went towards our room. I knocked on the door but no reply came. I again knocked on the door and when this time also I didn't get a reply, I opened the door and looked inside. Sana was still sitting on the bed in a towel like before holding her clothes and lost in thoughts. I sighed and closed the door. I went to her.

"Sano" I called her but she didn't give any response. I went to her and kept my hand on her shoulder. She immediately removed my hand and stood up from bed.

"Please no… Please let me go... please… I can't handle this pain anymore. Please let me go" she started screaming all of sudden and it didn't take me long to understand my guess was right. She was having a panic attack because of her painful past. I went to her but she moved back.

"Please don't come near me.. please" She begged in front of me, joining her hand. I halted my step.

"Sano" I called her with so much love and even I felt pain in my voice. It's painful to look at her like this. She looked at me and her expression changed. Tears streamed down from her eyes.

"Alex" She called my name to confirm whether it was me or someone else. I nod my head. She started crying and moved away from me until the wall came behind her.

"I'm sorry" she cried and sat on the ground with the support of the wall. she was crying bitterly and tears rolled down my eyes seeing her like this.