63. Arun, The Traitor

Anika’s PoV

Just when I came out of Nilesh’s apartment, I felt a little light in my head. Initially I thought it was because of the poor diet I have been eating in recent days. I could not eat properly with so much in my heart. I am not happy or peaceful to eat healthy. But just then something hit me. I was due to my periods weeks ago. I called Harish immediately and walked to the clinic nearby. The clinic was very small and had patients waiting for the doctor to see them. The nurse in the reception gave me a token and I started waiting for my token number.

Since Harish’s office is very close to this area, he came in minutes. I called him because I didn't think that I could go back home safely with the light head. I made him stay out and went in, when my number was called, to the doctor, to clear my doubts. She gave me a cup and a test kit. I knew it in my heart even before the test came positive.

I am pregnant with Arjun’s baby! My joy knew no bounds. I wanted to jump up and down. But the doctor said that I have to test it again on the first pee next morning and also asked me to get a scan to confirm without doubts. I was so happy that my body felt like it was rejuvenated. I am going to be a mother. That little boy in my imagination is going to come alive. I am having a life inside of me, growing every second and is going to look exactly like my Arjun. My baby will become a compassionate man just like Arjun. All my heart is filled with the thoughts of Arjun when the door was knocked and in came the man of my dreams.

“Hello, Doctor, I’m Arjun.” I heard him talk with his sexy metallic voice and I forgot to even blink. The doctor looked at him puzzled and I came back to my senses.

“He is my husband, Doctor.” I introduced him and the doctor gave us privacy for me to disclose the happy news to him. I took him to the outside of the clinic near our car and told him that I am pregnant.

He stood there like a statue when he heard what I said. I saw his face change literally from being stoic to questioning. That change made my stomach twist a knot, I just remembered all the misunderstanding we have. He gave me divorce papers. How silly of me to forget everything that has happened over this happy news. I am afraid of what he is going to tell me and I tried to stop him. Even after that, he stayed calm which scared me to death and I wanted to prove to him that it was his baby. I think I said the wrong thing which had him yelling at me but that yelling calmed all my worked up nerves. His embrace is my destiny. I realized that I cannot let him go just because we have misunderstandings.

In the car, I could not stop but to see his handsome face and toned muscles. But he had to rip it all off from me by saying the most horrendous thing. He wanted to give my baby to him and go to Arun? There is a limit for his baseless accusations and this is way over the limit. I lost my cool and started shouting at him. He cannot do this to me. He cannot take my baby away from me. He cannot keep talking about Arun just because I thought I loved him before. I knew that what I had for Arun was not love when I met Arjun. That intense feeling I have for Arjun is love. It doesn’t fade away even after all these stupid doubts and his hardness on me.

All my anger made me go awry and I said things that I didn't intend to in the first place. I know I should stop talking like this but I cannot stop myself. It is like I was born with a defected tongue. Again, at the mention of Preethi, Arjun got all hulk.

“Shut up, Anika. How many times do I have to tell you to stop talking about Preethi? She is completely irrelevant to our life. To me, you look like a psycho. She didn't tell me anything about you. I know you are talking with your boyfriend behind my back. I have proof. I don't just believe anything I see or hear.”

He said that completely shunned me down. She didn't tell anything about me? Why did I think that she was the one that has been behind all these struggles in my life? So it is not her all this time? What does he mean by having proof that I am still talking to Arun? What kind of proof? Though intrigued I maintained my posture glaring at him for his insensitive talk. I will never leave my baby or him.

Just then my phone rang with that stupid number where no one talks if you attend it. I was already irritated and that call made me more angry if that was even possible. I tried to ignore it but the call won't die until I pick up. When Arjun asked me who that was, it felt more like an interrogation and I am the criminal. I refused to answer it but the tone of his voice was so harsh and it involuntarily made me say, “I don’t know.”

Just then the call came again and this time before I disconnected the call, Arjun grabbed the phone from my hand and put the call on loudspeaker. I was frozen in horror hearing Arun talk on the other side. He talked like it is usual. He even had that courage to say that he misses me and had that nerve to ask me to come meet him. So it is his number. It was him that has been calling me all this time. Now I feel like I am an idiot to not block the call in the first place. I thought that the feeling of someone calling me made me feel less lonely. I never knew that I am digging my own grave by chasing away loneliness with this stupid call.

So Arjun knew that this number is Arun’s, He knew that I have been getting calls from this number. So this is the proof he has been talking about. How am I going to deny this blame? Would he even believe me if I said no one was talking in the call so far? Would I believe it if someone said that to me? No! Then why would he? I regret my stupidity of attending that call and keeping it on, I thought I was getting back at the caller by making him pay for the call that he never spoke on. No, that is not the case, actually, I am paying the price for my stupidity.

“Are you going to tell me that this is not Arun?” He asked me with a sarcastic tone. But I can see he is diverting all his anger on the steering wheel that his fist is pale as he tightened the wheel.

“I know this number has regularly been on your call list. Are you still going to deny the fact that you had sex with me and love your boy friend? You will stay with me and deliver my baby healthily to me and the next day you will be out of my life. You will never try to talk to me again. If you do, I will just expose your true colors to everyone. I hope you will behave yourself.” He added when I failed to make any words out of my dried mouth.

My true colors? Can I get any lower than this in the eyes of a man I love? I felt like dying at his harsh words. Why can't he just try and trust me atleast once? He has trust issues, and my fate goes hand in hand with his suspicion. I had sex with him? Is that what he thought we had? He is implying that I live with him while having an affair with Arun. How cheap of a thought was it? I am not a characterless girl but how can I prove that to him? Why would I even prove it to him? The very base of a relationship is trust and love. He has no trust in me, that is for sure. About love, I don't know about it either. He acts suspiciously and avoids answering any questions that concern Anamika. How is it fair when he can hide Anamika and blame me for something I have never done? I should take it that he doesn't love me at all, that makes our relationship very fragile and brittle. It cannot go like this any longer.

“Alright, I will never talk to you again but know this, I will never let my child grow with you. I don't want my kid to have pistanthrophobia like you. I did no wrong and I don't want to prove it to you. I don't want a life where I have to prove everything to you to gain your trust. You lack love and trust which are the roots of a relationship. I will go to my parents’ place now. I will keep my child. If you try to stop me in any way, I will expose that you are keeping Anamika hidden and living with her secretly.” I told him and got down the car. It was a very big private clinic. I am not in the mood for check-ups now. All that suppressed anger and disability are turning into a huge emotional ball that I could no longer keep it in. A loud whimper escaped my mouth as I continued walking away from the car trying to keep my sobs in my control.

What did I think in the morning when I came out of the house and what is happening now? I thought I could get some proof against Preethi and make Arjun realize that I am not at fault. I thought that my life will flourish from now on. But God has a different destiny for me. He thinks that I am no good for Arjun. My life with Arjun is no more a pleasant future for me, instead it will be a dreadful past. All my dreams I had before marrying him, all those excitement of marrying a man I love, everything went into a drain.

What will happen to me now? How am I going to tell this to my parents? How will they take it? Arjun has enough evidence that I had an extramarital affair to support his side. What do I have except to take that filthy blame? My parents will never forgive me. What are the chances of them believing me? I would say, I spoiled that trust they had for me with my petty act. Everything that is happening to me is because of that mistake I made. ARUN! That bastard is responsible for all this misery in my life. Why would he even do this when he clearly broke-up with me? What did I ever do to him?

About Preethi, all my intuition about her was wrong. I should apologize to her before leaving!