Jessie's diary (day 8)

ELENA'S POV;

I continued to read through.

***It felt as though she was beside me, I could picture her standing there smiling, those beautiful long white teeth of hers. She walked over to me before bending, and before I knew it, she was hugging me, and I could hear her whisper; 'I love you too Jessie. I'll always love you, forever. We may not be seeing each other again, but I'll always be by your side, and you'll always be right here in my heart.'

'I miss you, Anne, so much, how could you die like this?'

'I'll miss you too, our little chats, our gossips, our crushes, the first time we both rode bicycles.....I'll miss them all so much." All this caused tears to sting my eyes as she released herself from me. 'But now I have to rest and go to where I'm supposed to be. Remember I love you, and will always love you, Jessie." She looked at me with watery eyes before she rose and walked over to her grave, and sat, before giving me one last beam, then laid on it, eyes shut, and then, she disappeared.

I opened my eyes slowly, swallowing the lump in my throat, tears rolled down my cheeks, trying hard not to break down. I knew she had gone to a peaceful land, and we might not be able to see each other again, but I knew she was and always will be near me, even though I couldn't see her, or feel her, she would always be in my heart.*****

I furrowed my brows the moment I saw another handwriting in this book. Leo? But I thought she said no one knew about this diary except her. But then she did trust Leo as I'd seen, so I shouldn't take it personally because she'd known him before me.

I read Leo's part.

****I watched as she sobbed, I knew she'd been through a lot these past few days, with those texts. I didn't want her to get into more trouble, I wanted to keep her safe, but I was too late to save Anne, she wasn't supposed to die, I could have protected her, but he was one step ahead of me, and then he escaped.

Aiden and Dace nudged me on the arm, but I refused to leave and told them I would go with my car instead. When they left, my eyes were on Jessie, my feet slightly lifting from the grass as I shuffled towards her. I stayed a little distance away from her, so I wouldn't interrupt her.

When she rose to her feet, her head was bowed, so she didn't even notice me when she turned. Her legs were a bit shaky, but she managed to walk. All I did was stare, taking slight steps towards her, in case she lost her balance. She didn't stop walking, while she hugged her chest as she proceeded. She abruptly bent down but didn't break down, I could see how much she was hurting, so much more than she was with Aiden.

I couldn't leave her like this, I hated seeing her like this. I walked over to her, and stopped behind her, hesitating, before I held her by her shoulders. She gasped, and then I helped her up, before whirling her around and gently pulling her closer.****

Oh, we were back to Jessie's point of view. If this was it, that only meant Jessie already knew about Leo's identity during the period she was writing this book. I wanted to know how though. I was curious about how she found out. Did he tell her? Did she find out herself?

*****His hands, my memory flashed back to when he held me close when I was in danger, this touch wasn't different, his scent was the same as always. I allowed him to hug me as long as he wanted, I buried my face in his chest as I broke down, and he pulled me closer, not even minding me wetting his shirt with my tears. This hug was longer than intended but I didn't want to let go either.

Finally, he pulled away, his hands were still on my shoulders as his green eyes stared into mine, using his finger to brush the hair in my face.

"Walk with me." I blurted. I guess I so desperately didn't want to be alone, I needed someone to talk to, to share my thoughts with, and Leo was the right person to be with. And he didn't refuse, he just nodded and walked with me. We said nothing for a while as we walked, while I glanced at every tree, the road, the houses, and then the sky.

I remembered everything Brianne and I used to do together, we ran across the street, laughing, and I could see Anne laugh as I fell on dog poop. I had to shower thrice that day. Every moment of tears, laughter, anger......I remembered everything.

"Brianne and I used to talk about clouds a lot. The way they form into different shapes." I stated, and from the corner of my eyes, I saw Leo glance up at them, and then look at me. "She was the only friend I could count on for anything. She was always by my side." I thought out loud. "But she's gone now, and it hurts. It hurts to an extent that I don't feel the need to live anymore." I blurted, and Ray glanced at me. "But I can't, you know why? Because this isn't what she would want. She would want me to live my life to the fullest, happily." Ray smiled at my words.

"I wished for the kind of friendship you and Brianne had when I was younger. For best friends, people I could trust enough to make our friendship last."

"Yeah, you have Aiden and Dace," I said, but Ray shook his head.

"I used to see them as my best friends, but I don't anymore. They bully a lot, you know, and they care only for themselves. Your friendship with Brianne as I know is true friendship, they never leave your side, always there to support you, and not put you into any kind of trouble they get away with, but not you."

"Yeah, you're right." I chuckled. "Anne was a really good friend. And I love her." I said.

"Hey, I have a place to take you. It keeps me calm and makes me forget my pain most of the time. I could take you there if you would love to come." He said. I didn't want to refuse, so I was about to say yes, but was interrupted by a familiar voice.

"Jessie!"