Chapter 61

"By the way, that unknown number that I'm telling you is still constantly texting me the other day. The last day you texted me, that was the same time he texted me.

[Owws really? Can you just block that non-Elyse number?]

"Ehh, even. Even if I block it, it will just change the sim and text me again. I blocked that number and then the next day someone texted me again and I know it's only the same person because they are the same in what they say and how they message me."

[If only you could change the number? What do you think??]

"He's fine, but the store is far from here, Mindy, so maybe next time when Xander and I leave again."

"Oh! I almost forgot, Xander's a little weird. When you were constantly texting me and the unknown number, it seems like he's not in the mood."

"I have something to tell you..." I was now looking out the window. I saw Xander on top of the car and it looked like he was drinking alcohol.

[Huh? So what?]

I swallowed before speaking.

"I think, I already like him."

[Obviously.]

"You know what, getting to know him and get close to him is not fun until I realize that I am already in love with him, with Xander..."

[So? What are your plans today?]

It's a strange question.

"I don't know. Mindy, can we talk again tomorrow?"

[Sure, goodnight.]

"Good night." I said then I hung up on him.

I don't know how it happened. Things happen so fast. My son and I are here today at Mike's house, Mike said he wants to be with our son and Elizabeth agreed.

I can't do anything because my son really wants to come along and he also wants to be with his real daddy.

I'm staring at the two of them now chasing each other. I can see that my son is very happy now...I suddenly remembered the day when he and Xander and Elizabeth chased each other, he was also very happy.

A few days passed, Mike was okay with him. He's kind, he hasn't changed, the Mike I knew before is still the same. I don't know if I can thank him for being Elizabeth's dad, sometimes I think that what is happening right now is not right.

We are here at the mall with Mike and Elizabeth.

"Mommy, isn't this the mall that Daddy Xan and I went to--" I quickly covered his mouth.

"Who is she talking about?

"No, don't think about what my son said."

While walking around the mall, Xander seems to have caught my eye. I was nervous when I saw him and even before our eyes met, I immediately hid.

"Are you hiding something?" I was surprised to hear Mike's voice behind me.

"H-Huh? Nothing, just something...I'm just looking for something here." My excuse.

After we finished shopping, we went home but when we got to Mike's house, I suddenly remembered that I forgot my umbrella in the parking lot. I said goodbye to my son and Mike that I was leaving for a while, Mike even wanted to join me but I stopped him.

When I got to the parking lot, I immediately looked for it but I couldn't find it. Until someone reached me and I was happy to see my umbrella.

"Thank you very much, how did you know me t--" I froze when I saw who it was.

"Elyse, I miss you!" He hugged me tightly but I immediately pushed him away when I realized it.

"Don't ever hug me Xander, I hate you."

"Hate me? What, why? What did I do that you both left me? I looked for you and Elizabeth but I didn't find you."

He held my hand and I quickly shook it. "Don't touch me!"

"Elyse," he tried to hold my hand again so I couldn't stop myself from slapping him hard on the cheek.

"What--"

"With that hand of yours, my parents died! Because of you they died! You killed them!!" I yelled at him and other people passing by turned their backs to us.

"What...what are you talking about Elyse?"

"You remember when you had an accident, when you crashed into a j-jeep! N-I was in there and my parents! They died that day and it's your fault!!" He was obviously surprised by what I said.

"E-Elyse, I didn't do it on purpose--"

"You didn't do it on purpose because you were drunk, right?! You were driving drunk...and as far as I remember you used drugs at that time? That's what I heard from the police! Now tell me that's not the case true?"

"It is t-true but I can explain...Elyse! Please let me explain!"

"Explain? Really? How do I know if what you're going to tell me is true? As far as I know you're a liar! Who's Xavier huh? Your mommy doesn't know that Xavier! Did you also lie about Are you depressed? Maybe what I'm thinking is true that you have illegal businesses so you have money!"

"Stop talking nonsense Elyse! I never lied to you!" I laughed out loud.

"Of course, you don't know how to lie. I'm sorry if I'm talking nonsense now! I'm just stupid enough to be stupid, right?!"

"Elyse just please listen to me first--"

I didn't let him finish speaking.

"Shut the f**k up Xander! Who f**king needs your explanation?! I don't want to hear what you have to say and no matter what you explain it won't change the fact that you killed my parents!" I wiped my tears from my cheeks and sighed.

"If we ever meet again, let's just pretend that we don't know each other. Let's be a stranger like we used to before..." I turned away from him but he suddenly grabbed one of my hands. I bit my lip and closed my eyes tightly to prevent myself from facing and hugging him.

Don't be so stupid Elyse! You still want that guy after he killed your parents?!

"Please, don't leave me...you promised me, didn't you? You promise!" I can see her tears as she stares at me now.

You can't fool me Xander, you can't fool me like that.

"I can break my promises anytime I want." I promise.

"Let me go,"

"I said, let me go Xander." His grip on my hand gradually loosened until he let it go.

I got into my car and I couldn't stop myself from crying while looking at him from here standing while bowing. I noticed the sudden downpour of rain and even then he was still standing there, he was soaked in the rain now and even though I really wanted to go out to at least give him an umbrella now but I tried to stop myself from doing the that's the thing.

"He deserves it Elyse, that's not even enough. It's just a shrimp, it won't die." I said to myself and started the car.

When I got to Mike's house, I went straight to the bathroom. I stared at myself in the mirror, I suddenly remembered her holding my hand. How he looks at me and holds my hand.

He looks so sad earlier...I want to listen to what he has to say but everything might just get worse, I might just be hurt more by what he has to say.

"Elyse? Are you inside?" That's Mike's voice. I immediately washed before leaving the bathroom.

"Why? Do you need something?"

I asked him.

"We were about to eat downstairs...wait, did you cry? Who made you cry??" There is concern in his voice. It's like I suddenly see Xander next to him so I hug him.

"Elyse?"

I broke away from his embrace when I realized what I was doing now.

"P-I'm sorry Mike."

"It's okay, you can hug me anytime and if there's a problem, I'm here ready to listen to you." I only answered him with a smile.

"Hello? Who is it?"

[It's me Xander, can we talk please?]

I closed my eyes tightly. How many times has he called me in one day?! He has no plans to stop!

"I don't have anything to say to you so why would I talk to you. I'm busy right now so, stop calling me." I promise.

[Hey, wait! I'll wait for you, in the park!]

I hung up on him.

"Mommy was that Daddy Xander?"

"No--yeah," what was the point of me lying if I knew to myself that even if Elizabeth asked me who it was, I knew she knew it was Xander.

"What did he say?"

"I don't know,"

I said with a shrug. We are in bed now.

"Does he want to talk with you Mommy?"

"Yes, but I don't want to talk with him. If you are going to ask why, I can't answer that sweetie. You're too young to know about it." my language I can't tell him why I don't want to talk to Xander, why we are like this now.

"Did the two of you fight, Mommy? Did you listen to him? Because I know you, when you're angry you don't listen to anything, you don't listen to what other people will say. You don't listen to people's explanation..." It hurt. my lips because of what my son said.

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While eating, I couldn't forget what Xander said. Is he waiting for me now? Five hours have passed, and he didn't say what time he was going to the park...

"Mike, I'm sorry, I just have to go to something. Sweetie, Mommy is quick, I'll be right back." I ran out of the house and got into the car.

I went to the park he said. When I got there, there were too many people and I didn't see him. "Maybe he has already left...why would he wait for me for so long, right?" I sighed and went back to the car.

I turned it on and I was just running the car slowly until Xander seemed to catch my eye. He was sitting on a bench and was just stunned.

I stopped the car in front of him. I stared at him before getting out of the car.

"Xander," he slowly raised his head and looked at me.

I saw her smile when she saw me. "Elyse!" He suddenly hugged me and I pushed him.

"I didn't give you a permission to hug me." I said seriously.

"Are you here to hear what I have to say?" In the tone of his voice, he seems to be happy.

"N-No. I'm here to tell you to stop calling me! Stop texting and calling me because it's not fun! Don't you have a conscience, Xander? Don't you know how to be ashamed that the person you're dealing with right now is your son of the two people you killed before!"

"Elyse...I-I love you..."

"Seriously? You're going to tell me that now? What's the point? What do you want my answer to be? That I love you too?! Do you think this is like a movie or a fairytale, do you think after saying that you love me we can live happily ever after now? Do you think after saying that, I'll forgive you and just forget everything?! Well, don't be such an idiot Xander! You were like a villain in a movie and I'm the main characters, main characters don't like villains and villains? Will never have a true love and a happy ever after!"

"B-But villains do have a story to tell too. Do you think main characters are the only one who s-suffer? Do you think they're the only one who deserves h-happiness?" I can see in his eyes that he is hurt.

"I... I don't care!" I turned my back on him and got into the car, I was about to start it but he suddenly blocked the front of the car.

"Leave! Leave!" He didn't listen so I went out.

"Are you stupid?!! Don't you know how to understand?!" I shouted at him.

"You told me before that you would listen to what I had to say, that you would believe me. You said you would always be here by my side...then why? B-Why can't you even listen now??"

"Just forget about it, let's just say that I lied to you." I was about to get back inside the car but he came to me and hugged me from behind.

"What the hell! Stop it!" I removed his hand from my waist.

"I got abused by my u-uncle before, he injected me some d-drugs that time and I ran away..." I stopped at what he said.

"W-What??"

He used to hit me, use any drugs, let me drink any alcohol, he even f**ked me! That's the reason why I'm depressed until now! I'm scared of meeting new people before but I do try my best to live a normal life but I can't! And I didn't lie about Xavier, he died for saving me from our uncle. My mom knows nothing about this. He thinks of my uncle as our savior and that's why I hate her, I hate her for being thoughtless. That's why I started to live on my own!

"X-Xander…"

"I f-feel ashamed r-right now, do y-you think I'm d-disgusting??" I couldn't stop crying from what he said.

"If you think I'm disgusting, then just go." My tears flowed more when I saw his two hands shaking.

"Who the f**k thinks that you're disgusting huh!" I approached him and hugged him.

I couldn't believe what I heard from him. His own uncle did that? It's no wonder why he has depression... it must be hard to forget that, especially after the death of his brother.

He said it was his uncle's fault why his twins died, he saved them from their uncle? When was it saved?? Then why did I talk to Mrs. Ferrer acted as if he didn't know anything, I couldn't even see it on his face when I asked him who Xavier was. When you are talking about your own child, it is impossible to see any emotion on his face.

"Shhhh," I stroked his back and tried to calm him down.