♥ CHAPTER THIRTY♥

Elisabeth.

The last few weeks have been torture for me. As soon as I close my eyes, the memories of that day flood my mind, my dreams, my life. I always wake up screaming, begging for help and for them to stop torturing me. I tried to kill myself several times, but it never worked because one of the five brothers always appears and prevents me from committing the act. For many, this is seen as crazy on my part, but it's just been very difficult for me trying to live with all this stuck in my mind and body, because I feel disgusted with myself. Just look at myself in the mirror and I feel filthy.

The boys try to do everything to cheer me up. Lorenzo does some antics and I even manage to find a little humor, but it's not enough for me. Sometimes they even try to take me for a walk in the mansion's garden, but I don't feel like going out and doing anything. I confess that I am afraid to leave this house, afraid of that happening to me again. I don't trust the security guards in this house, only the boys, because I know they will never abuse me by force.

Last week, I had a bout of nausea and dizziness, and I panicked at the thought that I might be carrying that disgusting child, however, I thanked the heavens for the negative test and for simply not eating right.

Jessica visits me often and is taking care of me. It makes me feel really good that I have someone I can always turn to. We talk the whole time and she also brought over some meds that are helping me sleep lately and that's great.

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I feel a hand run through my hair affectionately, the scent of perfume invades my nostrils and I soon realize who it is.

“Good morning, Lorenzo. '' I murmur as I open my eyes and look at him. He is kneeling in front of me.

'' Good morning my love. '' I smiled a little. '' Did you sleep well?

“At least today, yes. I think it was thanks to the medicine that Jessica brought. I say, not taking my eyes off him.

'' That is good. His smile is weak and I see the sadness in his eyes.

I know they all blamed themselves for what happened to me, however, I don't blame them for anything, because they weren't the ones who caused it, they weren't the ones who raped me. The only thing I can do is thank them for saving me, but I think they should have let me die, so I wouldn't suffer so much from these memories.

“Lorenzo, you know I don't blame any of you for what happened to me, it's not your fault. “I stress again.

He shakes his head.

“Of course we are to blame. We do not preserve your safety and put your life at risk. “Avert your eyes. “All this happened because of our failure to be heedless of things, forgive us.

I notice a tear escape from his eyes and sigh, rubbing his cheek affectionately.

'Lorenzo, it's all that man's fault. I lean my face forward and kiss her forehead. “I… I love you. He widens his eyes. “And I know you would do anything to protect me. You saved me and now you're taking care of me.

He covers my hand with his and kisses my palm tenderly.

'' We love you too. We love you so much that we are capable of doing anything for you.

“You already have.

He kisses my hand again and smiles.

“Please, Elisa, please don't take your life. '' I look into her sad eyes. '' We know this hasn't been easy for you, but please let us help you, please take care of you. He cries then, pouring all pent''up emotions out, holding my hand tight. “I''I don't want to lose the woman I love… please, please.

Tears roll down my face too.

“I''I''I… I…” I can't speak.

'' Can I hug you? ’ he asks, looking at me.

'' Try.

I pull away a little and he lies down on the bed, pulls me into a hug and I bury my face in the crook of his neck, breathing in his scent.

“We love you and we'll protect you, even if it kills us. “Your tone is serious.

I close my eyes, letting my body relax under his touch and I feel welcomed by him, despite something bothering me a lot.

“Lorenzo? Can I ask you something? “I don't take my face off your neck.

“You can ask me anything you want, my love. "Kiss my forehead."

“Are you going to leave me if I can't have sex with you? My tone is very low and shaky.

'' What? He starts and makes me look at him, I find surprise in the gleam of his eyes. I guess he wasn't expecting that question.

'' You will?

'' Of course not my love. We would never do that to you because we love you. It's not because of sex, but because of your kindness, your character. Your sweet way is too beautiful, you are too beautiful and that attracted us. It wasn't because of sex, it was because of who you are. His shy way enchants us, as well as his boldness and even his rudeness. I smile a little, relaxing. '' That makes you a very special girl for us, we love you like we never love anyone, you make our heart beat fast, to the point of almost causing us a heart attack. “I laugh a little. “Then don't think about it because it won't happen. You are our woman.

I give a quick little peck to her lips.

'' Thanks. '' Whisper.

“You're welcome, I simply spoke the truth.

“Fine, I won't think about it anymore.

"I think it's good, beautiful.

I love him. I really love them all.