♥ CHAPTER THIRTY''ONE♥
Elisabeth.
After Lorenzo leaves the room and leaves me alone, I decide to take a shower to try to relax a little. I don't want to leave the room, but I feel like I'm going to look bad if I stay here. I let out a small sigh when I see my reflection in the mirror, I'm very thin and with dark circles under my eyes.
How do they still love me this way?
I shake my head and head to the closet. I choose a long black dress and let my hair down, I grab a pair of black shoes and leave the room after I'm done. I look down the hall and see no one. I bite my lip, a little nervous.
Should I leave or not?
I walk hesitantly down the hall, down the stairs, and find no one in the living room.
Where could they be?
I decide to go to the kitchen and am surprised to find them, discussing something I'm not familiar with.
“But Tom…” Alex crosses his arms, a pout on his lips. I smile slightly. He can be so cute when he wants to be.
"Fucking Tom!" I warned you not to put the pasta in the water without being boiling, damn it! '' Rebuts, very irritated.
'' Thomas, control yourself, before you kill Alex here '' Dylan tries to dismiss the situation.
“I'm going to kill him myself, this kid doesn't know how to do shit. '' Roll your eyes.
“They're like two kids fighting. '' Lorenzo says, smiling.
'' Said the adult. '' Alex retorts, upset.
“Fuck you, Alex. Lorenzo makes a sulky face and I laugh, even though it's low, it's enough to draw all five pairs of eyes to me.
“Sorry, I couldn't hold it. '' I say, slowly stopping laughing and looking at each of them, who are smiling widely.
“We are very happy to hear that laugh of yours, my love. Christopher moves closer, but takes some distance and smiles. '' Good morning my love.
I break the distance and stand on tiptoe so I can kiss her forehead.
“Good morning, Chris. '' He returns the kiss and smiles at the guys. '' Good morning boys.
'' Good morning, angel '' they answer together and come to me.
"Did you sleep well last night?" Alex asks.
“Yes, the meds have helped me a little. '' I answer and they nod.
“That's good, my angel. Now come eat something. Thomas says and I shake my head, walking over to the counter and finding the table set with pancakes, some sliced fruit on a deep plate. I help myself to a little of each option and start eating, remembering some fun times with Jessica.
“My love, why are you crying? Dylan asks, worried, just as all the boys stare at me.
Crying? I automatically run my hand over my face and feel it wet.
'' Everything is fine? Need something? Feel bad?
I look at Dylan and smile, wiping away my tears.
'' I'm fine… I just remembered something good, no need to worry. '' I go back to eating under their gazes. “By the way, the food is excellent, thank you.
I hear them sigh in relief.
'' Ah, that's good. We thought we had done something wrong. Christopher says.
'' They didn't do anything wrong, on the contrary, they rescued a happy moment for me, so thank you very much for that.
We went back to eating in silence, which is fine. When we finished, the boys, except for Alex, went to solve some problems in the office, so I take the opportunity to help Alex wash the dishes, in order to distract myself a little.
“Angel, we were all thinking it would be good for us all to take a trip to relax. You want to go? We can take your friend Jessica too,” Alex comments and I stare at him for a moment, then look away.
Travel? It's really a good idea, but the problem is that I'm afraid of men. I know that boys will never hurt me, I just don't trust others, I'm afraid. Afraid of everything, afraid that they'd distance themselves from me because I couldn't have a relationship with them and they'd all end up looking for others on the outside.
“I don't know, Alex. '' Whisper.
“Love, look at me. “I do as he asks. “We're not going to let anything happen to you again, we just want to take you out for a little fun. It's painful for us to see the woman we love like this, we want to do something for you, at least '' he turns his attention to the dishes.
“Alex, I've told you many times that it's none of your fault, it's the fault of those men who abused me. You did everything to find me and you did. I know I caused you a lot of pain, but I don't blame you. I hope you understand this. '' I hold your face and kiss the tip of your nose affectionately.
His eyes fill with tears and he hugs me, resting his face on my shoulder.
“S''sorry, sorry, sorry, Elisa. '' He squeezes me even tighter.
I return his hug and place a kiss on his shoulder.
“It's okay, my love. '' I speak softly, making him stop squeezing me.
'' What did you call me? '' She pulls away as I ask and I see her eyes red and a little puffy from crying.
'' Of my love, because that's what you are to me, my loves. I love you Alex, I know I've tried to take my life many times and I didn't think about how you would feel losing me, I went through something terrible, but that doesn't mean I have to hurt you too. Just don't leave me, Alex, don't leave me, I'll try to get better. Help me please.
He kisses the top of my head tenderly.
'' We will always be here to help you, it's not your fault that you want to end the pain you feel, Elisa. As much as this hurts us, we understand how you were feeling. You don't have to worry about that, we just want you to get well soon. We will never leave you because we love you.
I hug him tightly.
'' I love you.
“Me too, my queen.
****
After what happened in the kitchen, I felt much better. That conversation with Alex was very pleasant and wonderful, I don't even have words to thank him for his comfort.
Right now I'm in the instrument room with Christopher, who is teaching me to play the piano.
“That's it, my love. He takes my fingers and guides them over the keys. The sound is very pleasant. '' It saw? It's very easy, just practice a little. '' Smile.
“I'd like to see you play, my love. '' I ask and he kisses my cheek.
'' Whatever you want. '' So, it starts to play, I soon recognize it to be the song All Of Me.
I smile and close my eyes, taking in the soft sound of the piano as it floods my ears and soothes my emotions. When he finishes, I open my eyes slowly, meeting his serene gaze on me.
'' Did you like it?
'' Wonderful! I think this song is very beautiful, thank you for playing. '' I give a kiss on his cheek and lay down on his shoulder, he kisses my hair affectionately.
****
Everyone decides to go to the movie theater and watch something to pass the time, Christopher and the boys are making popcorn and preparing other treats, and I'm alone with Dylan.
One thing I realized is that I can't live without them. I think I became very dependent on them, I love them too much and the idea of not having them is something I never want again, I would choose death over being away from them.
'' Angel? Everything is fine? You were suddenly silent.
“I am, Dylan. I was just thinking about a few things here. '' I smile briefly, he responds, kisses my forehead affectionately and holds my hand.
"Your hand is so small it fits perfectly in mine."
“You naughty bastard, leave my little hand alone.
He chuckles and brings my hand to his lips.
“But I love them, just as I love you. All of us, actually. Never forget that, Elisa.
I will never forget this, Dylan, because you are my life, my air, my ground and also my strength.
