♥ CHAPTER THIRTY''TWO♥

Elisabeth.

“Oh, fuck you, Alex, you're boring as fuck! '' Thomas speaks, very irritated with his brother.

We got to the airport for our trip about two hours ago and all of a sudden these two started fighting over something I have no idea what it is.

'' Guys, for God's sake, stop your childish fighting. Dylan scolds, a tone so calm it draws both of their attention.

“It's Thomas's fault, Dylan. He keeps picking on me about stupid things.” Alex crosses his arms.

"Not my fucking fault!"

Dylan rolls his eyes, tired of this stupid, pointless fight.

'' I don't care whose fault it is, I want you to stop it now. His tone is serious and the other two snort, complying with the order, but not before sticking their tongues out at each other.

They are really childish when they want to be.

We are going to France. I've always wanted to visit this place and it looks like the boys have a house there, so the decision was unanimous. We all had to wake up very early to get organized and I was surprised to learn that they have a private jet. How much money do these young men have? Because there are so many goods that I even get lost.

Jessica is by my side and I feel very calm with her company on this adventure. I watch her as she reads something that looks really interesting on her phone.

"Jess, what are we going to do when we get there?" I ask, feeling a little excited.

'' Well, first let's go to the boys' house, organize our bags and . . .‖ I slap her arm, making her laugh. “I'm just answering your question.

“You get what I mean, you idiot. '' I smile.

I see the stewardess on the jet bring us food and I watch her for the simple fact that she always looks at Dylan. I don't like it very much. I'm afraid they might keep her here, on top of the clouds, even more so because I still haven't managed to have sex with any of them again.

'' Everything is fine? I see you keep looking at the stewardess. my friend whispers in my ear and I sigh.

“It's okay, yeah, don't worry. I give her a small smile and she nods.

“You're afraid they're going to be with someone else, aren't you?

I huff before answering.

“Is it as obvious as that?”

Jess shrugs.

'' I'm a psychologist, a friend, very observant.

I shake my head.

“I'm really afraid they'll choose another woman since I'm not having sex with them.

My friend rolls her eyes.

“Stop it, friend. They love you and I'm sure they would never do that to you. Stop thinking negative, this is not doing you any good.

“I love them too. “I lay my head on his shoulder. “Will I ever forget what happened to me?

She sighs.

“You'll never forget, my friend, but you can get over it, even if it takes years. "Kiss my head." '' We'll get through it together, my friend, and they'll be by your side supporting you, you can bet.

I wipe the tears that insist on falling.

'' Thanks.

'' I will always be here. "Hold me tight."

****

When the jet lands, we all get out and I'm surprised to see two cars waiting for us at the airport. I stare at them all.

'' We have some contacts here too, I took the opportunity to ask them to bring two cars. Dylan says without me saying my doubt out loud and I nod.

'' Come my love. Christopher clasps our hands and we head for the front car.

I get into the car in the back, sit in the middle, and Alex and Thomas occupy both sides of my body. Without further ado, I rest my head on Alex's shoulder and take Thomas's hand. Jessica took the seat next to the driver, who is Dylan, and the other two are in the back car.

“Are you all right, my love? Thomas asks, stroking my hand with his thumb.

'' I am yes. '' I answer softly.

'' All good. “He kisses my hair.

We all sat in great silence in the car until we got to their house.

I sigh when I feel the car stop and I lift off Alex's shoulder and look out the window at the luxurious mansion. Wow! They really like the big house. We get out of the car and the boys get our luggage as we head inside. Dylan opens the main door and Jessica and I are delighted with the decor.

'' Wow! This place is very beautiful. '' Says my friend, very delighted.

I observe everything, the living room is very spacious, there is a small table in the center, the paintings on the walls are golden, as are the decorations. There are three huge sofas in the living room and a small bar in the corner against the wall, it's quite big.

“Wow, this place is really beautiful, but isn't it a bit over the top, is it? Do you only think about buying a mansion? “I stare at them all.

“We like exaggerated things, my love. You know that, you were our maid and saw many things we bought. Alex laughs lightly.

I shake my head.

“But that's really an exaggeration, how much does this mansion cost? I ask, walking across the living room.

“About sixty million dollars.

Jessica and I both widened our eyes at Dylan in shock.

“Fuck, you guys really are pretty flamboyant.” Jess's tone is one of surprise.

“Nothing. Christopher says. '' That's nothing.

I roll my eyes.

“I know nothing. I take Jessica's hand and drag her upstairs, listening to their laughter as I ignore them.

"You guys are really cute together." She says and I glare at her. "Don't even look at me like that, you know I'm telling the truth."

“I know nothing. I snap and she rolls her eyes. “Anyway, let's pick our room. '' Let's go.

We go into every room down the hall and find several beautiful rooms, but none of them really appeal to me.

"Damn, there are so many rooms here, have you picked yours yet?" '' I ask her.

“I chose the room with the purple decorations you didn't want. '' Talk, stretching.

I walk to another door and find a spacious room with black decorations.

“I think I'll take this one. I say, admiring the room.

“It's really beautiful. '' Answers Jessica. “Shit, if I'd seen that one first, it would be mine.

Rio.

“You lost, playboy.

Jessica and I laughed together.

“Anyway,” he says as he catches his breath. '' I'll tell your boyfriends that we've already chosen our rooms, so they can bring our bags.

“Okay, I'll take a deeper look into the room.

“Make yourself comfortable.” He rolls his eyes and leaves, leaving me alone.

I start walking around the suite, observing everything carefully, loving every detail. The room is really beautiful. I sit down on the bed covered in black sheets and sigh. I think I should, in fact, have fun here and forget about my problems, after all, it's over and I'm alive.

Out of nowhere, I feel my head throbbing and my ears ringing.

You're weak, Elisabeth… you deserve to die… you know I'm right, you're too weak… you really should die… nobody cares about your poor life… your parents abandoned you in that orphanage, they don't love you… nobody wants one girl who was touched by other men...I grip the sides of my head, slapping my temples hard and squinting, trying to make it stop.

'' Shut up! I lay down on the bed and curl up.

You know very well that I'm telling the truth… nobody loves you, nobody wants you… you should die… you know what I think? You must have liked the touches of those men...

'' Lie! I''I''I didn't like it… lie… lie. '' I try to hold back my tears.

True… I'm telling the truth… you loved all that… you're a whore, a whore who loved other men touching you…

'' Lie… th''that's a lie.