♥ CHAPTER THIRTY''THREE♥

Elisabeth.

Disappear... no one will miss you...

I start to sob from crying so much and I get scared when I feel someone hugging me, I just don't scream because I immediately recognize the smell.

“Why are you crying, my love? What is happening? Dylan asks, concerned.

'' The voices. '' Whisper.

“Voices?

I nod.

'' D''d''saying no one loves me… w''w''that I should die. '' I stammer with great difficulty and cry again, hugging him tightly.

“My love, don't listen to those voices because it's not true. We all love you so much that we would do anything for you. Don't listen to that voice, it's lying, your life is very important to us. He kisses my forehead fondly. “We love you so much, Elisa, always remember that.

“B''b''b''but they say… they say I loved those men's touches. '' I hug him tighter and wet his shirt.

'' My love. He runs his hands through my hair, lovingly. '' We know you didn't like anything those unfortunates did, don't believe that voice. '' His hug is tight, in an attempt to calm me down. '' You are someone very special to us, my love. When we first saw you at the mansion, we felt something we never felt for anyone else. We hated having our stuff touched, but we let you touch it because we wanted to have you around. We've liked you since we hired you to work for us, we just didn't know how to be nice.

I kiss your chest.

“I''I love you, Dylan, I love you all.

He squeezes me a little tighter.

“I'm so glad to hear that, my love. Now get some rest, you need it.

'' Stay with me? I ask without letting go.

'' Ever. '' He kisses my hair and I close my eyes, falling asleep quickly with his delicious smell.

****

I wake up when I feel a nice cafuné and I move in bed. When I open my eyes, I see Alex in front of me.

“Where's Dylan?” ’ It’s the first thing I ask and he laughs.

“He needed to go to the bathroom and texted me to come stay with you in the meantime. '' I smile and hug him, fitting my face into his neck. '' Did you sleep well?

'' Yes. '' I say, smelling you. '' I managed to sleep well because of Dylan's warmth in my body, it was comforting.

“That's good, my love. "Kiss my hair."

'' What time is it now? I ask, closing my eyes and relaxing into his body.

“It's exactly half past seven at night.

“Wow, I slept for a long time. I say, pulling out of his embrace so I can sit up. “Where are the rest of the staff?”

“They're in the kitchen, eating. He sits up too and looks at me worriedly, making me sigh.

“Dylan told you, didn't he? '' I stare at him.

'' Yes. ’ Nods. “My love, don't believe what that damn voice is saying. We all love you more than you can imagine. We would give our lives for you. All we want is to see you smile again, for you to recover the sparkle in your eyes. We don't want to lose the girl we love. He takes my hand and kisses it, never taking his eyes off me. '' Do not believe them, my love, I beg you. Please don't believe it.

I run my other hand across her cheek and lean in, giving her lips a small peck.

“I love you, very much indeed. It's just that I feel pretty useless sometimes. Trash, to be honest. '' I lower my head and he raises it again.

“Don't ever say that again, my love. You've been through something very traumatizing, but we don't want you to think you're worthless or trash, because you're not. She is a warrior woman, a woman loved by all of us.

I look at him.

“Alright then, my love. I will try not to think. I say and he kisses my forehead tenderly.

“You'll make it, my love. Now go take a shower and then go down for something to eat, you need it.

'' All good. I nod and he smiles.

"We'll be downstairs waiting for you."

Alex gets out of bed and then out of the room, leaving me alone again.

I get out of bed and go to my suitcase, placed in the corner of the wall and drag it, placing it on the mattress to open it. Without much ado, I grab a long blue dress, pink panties and a blue bra. I walk to the bathroom and check my reflection in the mirror, seeing how pale and even thinner I am.

“I'm going to try to be who I was before. I give a small smile, I have to try. I take off my clothes, leave them on the sink, and finally step into the shower.

****

I take a quick shower and then leave the bathroom, with the towel wrapped around my body. I dress calmly and as soon as I'm done, I check how the clothes fit on my body. It's good, the first step towards my overcoming.

Poor thing, if you think it's going to be that easy, you're sorely mistaken...

I squeeze my eyes shut and take several deep breaths, counting to ten.

I'm strong, I'm strong, I'm strong. This isn't real, this isn't real...

I repeat to myself several times in a row, trying to change the course of my thoughts, thus suffocating the voices that insist on torturing me.

I rush out of the bedroom and see no one in the living room, but I hear voices and walk into the kitchen to find everyone laughing.

'' What's the fun? I ask, getting attention from all of them and I'm embarrassed when they look me up and down.

'' You are beautiful my love. Thomas makes me smile.

“Thanks, Tom. He flashes a big smile.

Lorenzo comes over and kisses my cheek.

“Indeed, you are very beautiful, my angel. '' His lips also practice a smile.

They really like to embarrass me a lot.

“You like to leave me like this, don't you? I ask, the blush present and alive in my cheeks.

“Of course not, honey. Christopher says, not taking his eyes off me. '' You are simply beautiful and we like to compliment you.

They're lying... they just want to make you feel good, that's all... that's a shame...

I close my eyes tightly and go back to counting mentally.

It's no use, darling… we're just telling the truth… nobody cares about you… you're not important to anybody… if it was that much, why would your parents abandon you? Nobody cares about someone like you... they don't care about you...

My body starts to shake and my heart races at the echoes that affect my head, making me break out in a cold sweat.

“Honey, are you okay?” Dylan walks over to me.

"Friend, what's going on?" '' I'm startled by Jessica's touch. '' What it was?

“V''voices. I say, squinting my eyes even tighter.

“Hey, Elisa, look at me. '' I shake my head and she cups my face. '' Look at me. Those voices aren't real, it's something your mind has created because of the trauma. They are not real, my friend, everything they are talking about is a lie. You are strong and you will get through this, don't believe it my friend. '' I nod and my friend hugs me. '' Breathe and ignore.

“Th''thanks. I murmur and she smiles.

'' I'm always here.

“Come eat, my love. You need to feed yourself. Thomas says and I agree, approaching the table.

Christopher serves me and I start to eat slowly, the food really is very tasty. She reminds me of the nun who took care of me. She treated me like a daughter and I miss her company, teachings and care. The food tastes the same, it brings me a sense of nostalgia that warms my heart and cheers me up.

After finishing eating, I decide to walk around the house and get to know more of the places. Everything here is amazing, there's a huge library, an instrument room, a gym and a beautiful outdoor pool. They really are flamboyant when they want to be. I sigh, walk around the garden, admiring the flowers and feeling the wind cool my face. Oh, this is so good!

I absorb the sensation and as soon as I open my eyes, as if in a burst, I hear sounds that look like moans. I follow the noise and am startled to see Lorenzo and Jessica having sex.

'' What?

I take a step back and blink my eyes, startled, not finding them there anymore.

What's happening to me? Im crazy?