♥ CHAPTER THIRTY''FOUR♥
Elisabeth.
I immediately leave the garden, feeling a severe headache. I can't be so crazy as to hallucinate, that can't happen, no way. I enter the mansion quickly and pass by Dylan, without saying anything, and I bump into Jessica for being properly inattentive.
“Girl, what's the rush? she asks, rubbing her shoulder from the impact.
“N''no big deal. '' I avert my eyes and stare at the floor, I don't have the courage to face her, even though I know that everything was just an illusion. "I just have a headache." I'll lie down for a bit.
'' All is well then. Take some medicine and go to sleep. She smiles and walks away, leaving me alone in the hallway.
I rub my forehead and decide to go to the library. Maybe reading a book can distract me a little. I walk a little slowly and, as I enter, I look around, surprised to see Lorenzo lying on the leather sofa with his legs up, with prescription glasses and reading. I walk over to him, and he takes his attention from his book and stares at me, smiling. The man extends his hand and, without delay, I take it, allowing him to bring me close to him, fitting me on his knees.
'' What was my love? he asks as I bury myself in his neck. '' Are you well?
I don't say anything, just hug him and start to cry.
“My love, I'm starting to get worried. What is happening? he asks, making me take my face off his neck so he can look at me better. “What's going on, honey?
“II… I'm hallucinating, Lorenzo. '' Tears fall. “I''I… I just saw you and Jessica in the backyard, having sex… and when I blinked, I didn't see anyone else there. I''I'm going crazy, Lorenzo. '' I can't hold back anymore and collapse in his arms.
“Hey, honey, it's okay. '' He says, patting my back.
“N''not well at all, Lorenzo. "I got up from your lap. “It's not okay if I'm freaking out. I cover my face, sobbing.
He tries to touch me, but I end up pulling away from him.
“My love, don't do this. “Try one more time and I won't allow it.
“Don't you, Lorenzo! '' Shout. "I'm saying I'm crazy and you don't care about it!" I turn my back on him and storm out of the library, locking myself in my room.
They couldn't care less about you… we were right, Elisa… nobody cares about a poor thing like you… you're crazy… crazy…
Crazy crazy crazy…
Die... die... die...
No! This is not true, it is not true.
Propped to the door, I collapse to the floor, hugging my knees.
I'm not crazy. I'm not crazy.
I feel my chest crush and it's painful, it feels like someone is ripping my heart out without asking for permission, plus my head is throbbing. Everything suffocates me. I want to escape. I drag myself to the bed and, with difficulty, climb onto it and curl up.
You deserve to die Elisa… nobody will miss you… nobody at all… I'm sure once you're dead, they'll find another woman…
“N''n''n''no… n''n''not true. I squeeze my eyes tight.
We're telling the truth... you're a nobody... nobody loves you... nobody wants you...
'' M''m''m''lie!
I run to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. I'm so done.
“Do you think they'll want someone like that? So ugly and finished?
I am startled to see my own reflection speak to me and I take a step back.
“They don't love you and they never will love you like that, all ugly and ridiculous.
“T''t''that's a lie! They do love me!
My own reflection laughs at me.
“Do you really think so?” You're crazy enough to talk to your own reflection, do you really think they'll want a crazy girl for a girlfriend?
'' Lie!
'' I'm not lying. Who knows what you saw in the garden could be real? He gives me a sly smile and walks away.
“N''it wasn't real. I shake my head, making her laugh.
“Do you really think so?” Are you sure about that?
I get out of the bathroom quickly and hold my hair tight.
'' I'm not crazy! This is not real! This is not real!
I decide to leave the room and walk quickly towards the stairs, feeling a strong pain in my head. All I want is to sleep and forget about everything.
I want to sleep. Sleep a little.
I get halfway down the stairs and hear someone call my name. I look up and see Alex, all worried and my eyes widen when I see the man who raped me behind him.
'' You really do look beautiful, my love, they are indeed lucky to have you as a girlfriend. ‖ He takes a step forward, making me flinch.
“Elisa?” Are you well? Alex asks, concerned.
I try to mentally repeat that it's not real.
'' My angel? What is happening?
I look beyond him and see the guy with a smirk, he passes by Alex's body and it scares me so much that I end up unbalanced.
'' Elisa!
I just feel a horrible pain in my body and I don't see anything else.
You don't deserve to live... you are trash...
Die... die... die...
