Chapter 13
Ugh…
Eeekk…
Haarghh…
Hello, this is Jia Lin, your residential failure over here, yes~
Now you might be wondering, what’s with the groaning noises? To that answer, I’d say, quite a lot of things actually.
First of all, to clear up some confusions… A few days ago, I had a talk with my little sister, right? I’d say that it went pretty well. Although seeing her break down like that was pretty heartbreaking, I managed to calm her down and get rid of her anxiety, so I’d say that it’s all good now, yes.
Wrong! It’s not!!
Ever since then, things have been quite normal, except for ‘night activities’. No, not those types of activities you silly, I meant the ones every single human does: Sleeping.
What’s the problem you may ask? Did the residential failure take on insomnia along her ride of doom and despair? Well, no but something else happened.
Ever since comforting my little sister, she has been well… very affectionate? She still acts very normal throughout the day of course, but when it comes to night time, things change.
She would sometimes come to my room and sleep with me, which well, not a very big deal of course… I can do that much as her older sibling.
While we had never slept together even during childhood, I didn’t mind it if she finds comfort in the act, so what’s the issue? Well you see…
She’s so clingy…!
Wait, that sounds really rude, don’t misunderstand. I don’t hate Xia at all, she’s the cutest little sister in the world, yes! I’m just slightly worried about her sleeping habits, that’s all.
She would cling onto me for warmth and just snuggle there in peaceful REM sleep. As for her older sister? Well, I can endure that much, and she looks really cute while doing it, so it’s not that much of an issue in that regard.
The real problem comes after…
Xia… Umm… How do I say this without sounding weird?
She has a tendency to put her hands… on weird ‘places’…
Actually, scratch that, not tendency, I just discovered this today too…!
Every time we sleep in together, Xia would always be the one to wake up first, but strangely today, the opposite happens, and thanks to that, I get to witness the full brunt of her assault!
Thanks to Xia, I also found another discovery: My new body is extremely, extremely ticklish!!
Hnngh…
Yeah, that’s where the groaning has been coming from; Me trying to suppress the feeling!
While it’s not really unbearable, I still don’t want to feel weird like this… But I don’t want to force Xia to wake up either, what should I do…?
If I try to wake up now, she would 100% be forced to get up, since she is still clinging onto me…
Should I just stay here and wait until she gets up?
Ugh…
In the end, I should just endure it… That’s what a good older sibling should do…
It’s a really troublesome situation, really. Though it’s not like there aren’t merits to this.
To see Xia sleeping so soundly like this, how cute. That peaceful face more than enough makes this worth it, yeah.
I couldn’t help but let out a soft smile, and reached out my hand, patting and stroking her hair.
“I wonder what happy things you’re dreaming about.”
She really is my precious little angel.
What happened to her a few days ago, it was likely a continuation of her trauma from 5 years ago?
She didn’t want to be hated again, I could guess that much… It must’ve been really hard…
There’s no way I could hate her, especially when she had to face such a severe thing as a child. My love for her is endless after all.
I’m not fully convinced that she is healed from that incident, but that’s why I’m here to support her. Until she can truly let go and be happy for herself.
To my dearest little sister, Jia Xia.
May you find eternal happiness in a loving embrace.
Unlike your broken and torn older sister, fly high and live happily.
That way, we can be happy.
That being said…
She sure is touchy…
I wonder if she would do this to her future boyfriend too… Hmm, now that I think about it… Xia getting into a relationship in the future… Not sure how I feel about it.
Unlike me, she is bright and has the charisma to boot, so I doubt she would have any troubles finding a decent partner. Knowing how amazing she is, she would probably find an amazing partner with a great personality too, so I suppose I’m not too worried?
I’d probably support her when that time comes, though I hope it’s not soon… Getting into a relationship early on is absolutely a no go…!
It’s definitely not because I’ll be jealous, yeah…
Speaking of that, I wonder what would happen if I get into a relationship myself…
I’m a girl now, I can understand that much, but it’s still a bit hard to believe, you know? Does that mean I have to marry men now? Not that it would happen since I’m such an idiot, but it’s still food for imagination, yes?
Being in a relationship with a guy, acting cutesy with a guy, and eventually doing it… with a guy.
Hmm, I don’t really see myself in that spot, to be honest… I really just don’t understand… I never really got into relationships so I wouldn’t know…
Hah…
I could only cup my breast with my hand and ask myself again,
“Honestly, I wonder why do guys even love these masses of fat…”
Squishy for sure, but is that all? I suppose it’s fun for stress relief…
I’m a woman now, so I should learn how to be a woman, but it’s so hard… Not that I ever knew how to act as a man to begin with, but still…
I’m so confused…
Eeeeck?!
While I was deep in thought about my gender dilemma, a sudden jolt snapped me out of it, into an even worse dilemma…!
Eh…? Xia…? Where are you touching your big sister…? That part is… Ah, no…!
Her hand moved down to my abdomen, ah… that sensation feels really weird and tingly…?!
“X-Xia… please don’t…”
Oh no, this is really bad, if she keeps going I’m going to lose my mind…!
As if she could read my mind, her hand stroked down further, until she reached a point of no return.
Boop.
A single touch, just a mere touch of the hands on the belly, nothing special on paper.
Yet.
Inside, at that very moment, I felt like I snapped.
“EEEEAGHHH?!”
Crash!
“...?!”
My body shook violently from the sensation, curving in a really concerning arc and finally flying off the bed, crashing straight onto the cold hard floor.
“A… Aha… Ah…. Eee…”
“J-Jia Lin?! What happened?!”
Xia, please never harass your big sister on the bed ever again… Your big sister is violently ticklish…
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“I’m sorry…!”
“It’s fine, Xia… I’m not offended.”
“Uwaa, I’m sorry…! I won’t do it again!”
“Don’t worry, like I said…”
Hah… when she found out what happened, Xia kept barraging me with apologies. It did hurt a lot, but it can’t be helped, I was the one at fault for staying like that, you know? So there’s nothing she should be sorry about.”
“It’s fine, don’t apologize anymore, okay? Your big sister is okay.”
“I-I guess…”
After that silly little happening, I’m currently in the living room with Xia, eating some sna—I mean breakfast…!
Today is a Sunday, so no classes for her, which means that we are staying home with nothing much to do. Oh right, did you know that Xia’s schedule goes up to even classes on Saturday?
Back when I was in my student days, it only went up to Fridays, you know? Of course, her classes on Saturday are way shorter than the ones on weekdays, but still…
There’s a reason why weekends are called weekends! To use up one of those two days meant for rest for classes, how scary…
Prestigious schools are really different after all…
“Xia, is today’s schedule the same?”
“...? Ah, you mean the medical thing? Yeah, at two, so there’s about 4 hours until then.”
The daily appointment, it’s annoying but what can I do about it? On the bright side, it’s done in a comfortable time of 2 PM, so I can’t complain too much.
They even provided the ride for free too, so there’s no need to pester mom or dad to bring me there… Really, so meticulous… That has been my schedule for the past few days…
Wake up, do nothing and shower, do nothing and eat, get out, get prickled by needles and other stuff, get back, do nothing, do nothing and eat, do nothing and shower again, sleep.
Why so many ‘do nothings’? Well, I don’t know, but bear with me, okay? We’ve been at this for so long that you should have understood my idiocy by now, yes? No? I’m too stupid to predict? Well, ouch.
Anyways~ Since this little idiot has so much free time, isn’t it great to spend it on something? Preferably sibling bonding activities, yes?
“Xia, want to do something?”
“Ah, sorry, I have an assignment I need to submit tomorrow actually, I’ll have to go back in my room after this.”
Or not…
“Well, it’s okay. Your schedule must be hell, huh?”
“Don’t get me started… Our teachers say that we should start getting ready for college so she is giving us the ‘college experience’ early, but hah…”
“Haha… Sounds rough… Well, good luck with it still, you can do it.”
“Mhm, thanks…”
Since my sister is caught in her own little hell, I suppose I won’t bother her.
What else could I do… Hmm…
You’d think that an unemployed loser like me would have all the time in the world to do anything, right? But when you actually have so much time, you wouldn’t even have anything to spend that time on… In the end, you’ll just waste it on doing absolutely nothing…
This is just my daily life, a damn boring mess…
Maybe I should just take a nap? Hmm, no… Not really in the mood for that…
Play games…? Yeah, nevermind, I am so terrible at games that it would only make me feel sad instead of anything…
Do anything remotely productive? Well, I was told to not do any strenuous activity, so… I guess those are out of the window too…
Seriously, what do I even do…?
“Maybe you can take a walk around the neighbourhood or something? You haven’t gone to the nearby park in a while, right?”
“Huh? Oh, that’s a good idea, Xia. Thanks, but how did you know I was trying to do something?”
“Your bored face gives it away.”
“Oh…”
“Well, if you think it’s good, you should try it. I doubt a walk is considered strenuous enough to affect the check up anyways. Alright, I’ll go to my room now, bye.”
“Ah, bye bye…”
After giving her suggestion, Xia finished eating and went back to her room.
Looking at the closed door, I contemplated.
I guess my next thing to do is a walk around the neighbourhood or park…? It’s a great idea after all…
Hmm, boredom has been alleviated for now, I suppose.
…
After I finished everything, I hastily put on some sports shoes and went out.
“That’s a bit hot.”
Whew, today’s sunlight is slightly more intense than usual, huh? Well, it’s not that bad, so the walk should still be fine.
Hopefully…
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Fortunately, the weather is actually pretty nice for today.
It’s still slightly hot, but at least it’s not scorching or anything. It’s just a bearable amount of heat, nothing special.
Walking like this after so long feels nice~
Of course, I had gone out for a walk before, multiple times actually, but those aren’t similar to this one. In the first place, those were a walk inside a town, while this is a walk around the neighbourhood, so it’s totally different, okay?
It’s been a long time since I’ve seen the changes in the neighbourhood too… Well, I don’t really think that’s surprising though, considering my track record.
Come to think of it, I never really interacted with our neighbours before, I wonder if they are still the same or if they moved out.
Our neighbourhood isn’t really something to be boasted about, it’s just a humble place. We don’t have parties or cook offs or anything, it’s as dull as it can get, or at least that’s to my knowledge.
Aside from sometimes seeing each other by coincidence, no one in these areas really talk with each other, just people minding their own business. I suppose that has its own charms.
The random sounds of dogs barking, an old man watering his plants, little kids watching tv with their front doors opened, really… it’s about as dull as it can get.
But that’s what makes it so special.
They are all people with their own lives, like me. I wonder what they are experiencing. Are they happy? Are they sad? I wouldn’t know.
I can merely guess.
Just as how I can’t truly understand them, they can’t truly understand me too.
Even if I were to be born into their lives right now, I can’t really say I’ve become them, since I’m essentially still a different person. The uniqueness of a person, that can’t ever be replaced.
It’s interesting to know that so many other people are going about their lives, just like me.
Even if I die, their lives will still go on. And somewhere else on this planet, there exists other people living their lives too. It’s a really weird feeling after all.
Hmm, I think I’m overthinking it again. There’s nothing special to be had from this. Just think of it as my curiosity becoming too wild? Well, I don’t know what else to say.
Having strange thoughts like these while walking around, maybe I am the strange one, hehe.
Hmm…
Stopping to take a glance, I could only wonder.
People take walks to clear their mind, but strangely, it doesn’t work for me.
I wouldn’t know why, I don’t understand it after all.
And because I wouldn’t know, I wouldn’t think too much about it.
It’s better that way.
How melancholic, though I don’t really understand why myself…
Really, there’s still so much I don’t understand about myself, though I suppose, it would be uncovered in due time.
Yeah, so there’s no need to rush.
With that in mind, I continued on… with my meaningless walk.
